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Bluelighter
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- Sep 16, 2012
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The experience was certainly more than I bargained for! I have taken 500+mg of mescaline on three other occasions, including once by myself, and while they were all strong and powerful trips, I was never overwhelmed. However, this time, the experience felt much stronger.
I took the mescaline mixed with orange juice on an empty stomach, drinking it slowly over 25 minutes or so. I think I drank it too quickly or this batch was very potent, but I threw up early on, following a very uncomfortable feeling of nausea. I thought I wasted it by vomiting, but the experience soon amped up in intensity. I puked a couple more times, in a much more physically intense kind of way. This truly felt like purging, emptying everything, getting everything painful out. After each time I puked, the trip became stronger. I was overwhelmed many times, although I should say, overwhelmed in a positive way (very intense euphoria, pleasure, body high) and overwhelmed because I wasn't expecting it to be that intense.
At the peak, I lost my sense of self and sense of time. I was just kind of taken away by the experience, full of pure love, feeling in touch with this higher, healing, and loving presence, and just feeling like wowww. This presence just kept giving and giving and giving. At one point, I saw my ego as this tiny insignificant image I had created. I saw its negativity and limiting nature. I let it go and it dissolved into nothing. I realised it was a mirage. When it disappeared, I felt this relief and bliss. I tried to write down at least some phrases during the peak, although it was very hard to write and I forgot how to spell at one point lol. Some of what I wrote down was quite uplifting, the opposite of this inner critic I have long dealt with. I wrote that I was 'strong enough' to handle anything in life. I also wrote down 'Raw existence. Wow!' I think that was during/after ego loss.
I felt so much love for all the people in my life. The whole coronavirus situation also entered my mind and I could feel the pain of the whole world, all the loss, fear, uncertainty, and distress. It was intense but not overwhelming. It was a valuable moment of compassion. I also had this sense of being possessed by spirits almost, like they were surging through my body/being, which was a bit nuts, but it was a positive experience.
The visuals were strong, but I think I wasn't even paying attention to them that much since the emotional aspect seemed more captivating. I do remember stuff like my phone melting into psychedelic liquid as I was texting a friend at some point. Floral and intricate geometric patterns were rising out of my carpet. Objects (e.g. the doors in my room) were morphing and shifting like crazy. Everything was extremely bright, sparkling, and colourful. There was like this soapy liquid, psychedelic substance in the air (I remember seeing it in the gap between an open door). The bushes and trees were alive, full of faces and personality. At one point nature had a sinister vibe to it, but I breathed through the experience and the snarling, gargoyle faces in the bushes and trees changed to this more joyous, happy vibe. The sky was like a self-transforming pastel painting, with all the different parts of the clouds turning into spirals. It was beautiful.
I do remember at times the visuals (honestly can't remember if eyes closed or open) were what I remember DMT being like. I was seeing beings in this other realm, like hyperspace. It's hard to describe them, they were like entertainers almost, with hats, moving in this geometric space, gracefully and doing various gestures. The geometric visions were very fractal and quite lizard and serpent-like. I remember a lot of tongues lol.
Would I do it again? Well, at the time I was thinking, I'm glad I got to see the power of mescaline, but I won't be tripping again anytime soon. Then a couple of days later I was already in the mood for tripping
I'm not sure if I would take 500mg of this stuff. It seemed like it was much purer than the stuff I got from a different vendor in the past. With the previous stuff, 500mg was a solid, strong trip. With this stuff, it seemed to fit the Erowid dosage chart more accurately (with 500-700mg being heavy).
Unless I was aiming for an intense mystical experience, I think I would take 400mg next time. Not sure I would venture into an even stronger experience without a trip sitter, but then again, mescaline is quite forgiving and naturally positive it seems, so it could be manageable without a sitter.
I took the mescaline mixed with orange juice on an empty stomach, drinking it slowly over 25 minutes or so. I think I drank it too quickly or this batch was very potent, but I threw up early on, following a very uncomfortable feeling of nausea. I thought I wasted it by vomiting, but the experience soon amped up in intensity. I puked a couple more times, in a much more physically intense kind of way. This truly felt like purging, emptying everything, getting everything painful out. After each time I puked, the trip became stronger. I was overwhelmed many times, although I should say, overwhelmed in a positive way (very intense euphoria, pleasure, body high) and overwhelmed because I wasn't expecting it to be that intense.
At the peak, I lost my sense of self and sense of time. I was just kind of taken away by the experience, full of pure love, feeling in touch with this higher, healing, and loving presence, and just feeling like wowww. This presence just kept giving and giving and giving. At one point, I saw my ego as this tiny insignificant image I had created. I saw its negativity and limiting nature. I let it go and it dissolved into nothing. I realised it was a mirage. When it disappeared, I felt this relief and bliss. I tried to write down at least some phrases during the peak, although it was very hard to write and I forgot how to spell at one point lol. Some of what I wrote down was quite uplifting, the opposite of this inner critic I have long dealt with. I wrote that I was 'strong enough' to handle anything in life. I also wrote down 'Raw existence. Wow!' I think that was during/after ego loss.
I felt so much love for all the people in my life. The whole coronavirus situation also entered my mind and I could feel the pain of the whole world, all the loss, fear, uncertainty, and distress. It was intense but not overwhelming. It was a valuable moment of compassion. I also had this sense of being possessed by spirits almost, like they were surging through my body/being, which was a bit nuts, but it was a positive experience.
The visuals were strong, but I think I wasn't even paying attention to them that much since the emotional aspect seemed more captivating. I do remember stuff like my phone melting into psychedelic liquid as I was texting a friend at some point. Floral and intricate geometric patterns were rising out of my carpet. Objects (e.g. the doors in my room) were morphing and shifting like crazy. Everything was extremely bright, sparkling, and colourful. There was like this soapy liquid, psychedelic substance in the air (I remember seeing it in the gap between an open door). The bushes and trees were alive, full of faces and personality. At one point nature had a sinister vibe to it, but I breathed through the experience and the snarling, gargoyle faces in the bushes and trees changed to this more joyous, happy vibe. The sky was like a self-transforming pastel painting, with all the different parts of the clouds turning into spirals. It was beautiful.
I do remember at times the visuals (honestly can't remember if eyes closed or open) were what I remember DMT being like. I was seeing beings in this other realm, like hyperspace. It's hard to describe them, they were like entertainers almost, with hats, moving in this geometric space, gracefully and doing various gestures. The geometric visions were very fractal and quite lizard and serpent-like. I remember a lot of tongues lol.
Would I do it again? Well, at the time I was thinking, I'm glad I got to see the power of mescaline, but I won't be tripping again anytime soon. Then a couple of days later I was already in the mood for tripping
I'm not sure if I would take 500mg of this stuff. It seemed like it was much purer than the stuff I got from a different vendor in the past. With the previous stuff, 500mg was a solid, strong trip. With this stuff, it seemed to fit the Erowid dosage chart more accurately (with 500-700mg being heavy).Unless I was aiming for an intense mystical experience, I think I would take 400mg next time. Not sure I would venture into an even stronger experience without a trip sitter, but then again, mescaline is quite forgiving and naturally positive it seems, so it could be manageable without a sitter.
