I have never been dependent on powder. I’ve used it countless times on many binges. And I would always feel bad—like in a guilty kind of way—afterwards. But it never developed into any kind of habit.
Now, I did end up becoming a daily crack user and still am. But even though I’ve always had good access to powder and used it many times (even IVing it some of the time), it never had a real long term appeal to me, it’s too intense of a drug.
I can handle it and enjoy it for 10 mins after blasting a rock, but sniffing coke all day makes me feel out of my mind.
Cocaine does not have an especially high propensity to cause arrhythmia in your classic vtach/tdp drop-dead without warning (which I have experienced from loperamide). Instead it tends to cause heart block which tends to be on the mild side as far as arrhythmias go andthe Progression to death is often long.
The craving is hellish. it's there - it's gone. I never experienced this with another drug. It is just like "normal" to take a line every 20 minutes (even if it's so fucking stupid") - I do!
JJ