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Bluelighter
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Getting more stressed out each day. Not looking forward to the police hearing but atleast I have 1 mg xanax to take before going in. Just want it to be over ugh
How do I feel?Hi all,
This thread should be a safe haven for those with MI, where we can chat with each other and talk about how we are feeling for the day.
I have Bipolar Disorder, and today i feel pretty stable. I've been sober for a week now because i have a probation piss test coming up, but will soon do some meth. The thing is, i stay up all night when on it, so it could quite possibly make me hypomanic.
But what's wrong with a little hypomania when your on Lithium, Lamictal and Vraylar? Can't be that bad of a crash. I mean, i've done meth before on these meds and i was fine.. I obviously don't recommend it but self medication is such a big part of my life, unfortunately.
Anyway, hopefully i can get to know some of you and we can talk about problems, successes, and just anything that's on your mind.
:D
How do I feel?
Like caca.
Right now it's this one I think
and you?
Had the usual morning fight with my husband. According to him im blaiming every thing I don't want to do on my PTSD.
Yesterday I showed him this video about ptsd and stress response/anxiety in rats where they explained conditioning. My ex used to have these like 5 hours sessions where I had to account for something I did like every detail, and I could not even just say what was true because he just would not believe me and would keep me there until I had answered everything "right". That happened loads of times.
Tried to explain to my husband that that's why I get all quiet and can't really answer him properly when we have a discussion/argument. For me every "serious" conversation is super stressful. But my husband don't seem to get that it's not just me wanting to get out of an uncomfortable situation. It's like literally hell for me. Especially now with the police hearings and having to think about all this shit again
Sorry blue friends rambling here again as asual
Holy fucking christ, thanks for sharing that, maybe it was not easy, that sounds horrific.My ex used to have these like 5 hours sessions where I had to account for something I did like every detail, and I could not even just say what was true because he just would not believe me and would keep me there until I had answered everything "right". That happened loads of times.
Tried to explain to my husband that that's why I get all quiet and can't really answer him properly when we have a discussion/argument. For me every "serious" conversation is super stressful. But my husband don't seem to get that it's not just me wanting to get out of an uncomfortable situation. It's like literally hell for me.
I think this is a great thread, I don't have any confidence in myself,I just started a new job and already I'm think I wont do good at it,I worry too much about what people think about me, it's why I left my last job.
I start thinking everyone is looking at me and judging me,is this a sort of mental illness?
I also suffer from anxiety and panic attacks.
Thank you for your help and info.The bolded bits - yes it is - that is anxiety