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Hi everyone,
Two weeks ago i took like 100-130 mg of mdma. Till today i am 24/7 streesed and anxious, also i have screeching in the ears. I have panic attacs like 1-2 times a day, cant sleep at night. In 5 days im coming back to school. Can you guys give some advice how to get back to normal i cant live like this also i feel like my heart is bumping so fast like i will gonna die.
Sorry for my bad english
Two weeks ago i took like 100-130 mg of mdma. Till today i am 24/7 streesed and anxious, also i have screeching in the ears. I have panic attacs like 1-2 times a day, cant sleep at night. In 5 days im coming back to school. Can you guys give some advice how to get back to normal i cant live like this also i feel like my heart is bumping so fast like i will gonna die.
Sorry for my bad english
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Just a shit ton of head pressure especially around the temple area within 6-8 months of recovery. That's all subsided now.
i really think you should try an SNRI/SSRI again, like venlafaxine or the one that helped you before, without the other antipsychotic junk you were on. just one medication at a time.
The ssris are not working on me anymore
I ve tried prozac laroxyl effexor zoloft all made things worse now on trimipramine (surmontil) and dapakine . When all this shit will end its a nightmare. Anon . You muscle twitching are gone ?
lionheart90
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serotonin not working properly does cause psychosis. careful what you are saying
The effexor gave panick attack when you first started?
I literally only takes one dose of mdma under the wrong circumstances to cause damage as many people here can attest to. Most doctors honestly don’t even know what MDMA is, let alone the neurotoxic effect it has on the brains serotonin system. For the headaches maybe try cutting out caffeine. It’s known to be a major cause and personally it gives me migraine headaches for days every time I drink caffeinated drinks. I used to love my morning coffee but it’s honestly not worth it for me anymore.
The headaches don’t seem to change when drinking coffee. They aren’t debilitating and acutely powerful...just low pressure disturbance/discomfort. It’s hard to describe, but I just feel off. No clarity in my head and it feels almost like the MDMA is still in my system. I recall the flood and wave of those good feelings while under the influence and the sensations are similar now except it’s releasing a low level pain and vibration. Lately I’ve felt like my neck has been more stiff too. Has an MRI with and without contrast successfully ever shown anything with damage from MDMA?
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Head pain disorders are nigh impossible to spot on MRI, barring a structural abnormality of the upper cervical spine. Occipital neuralgia and migraines are difficult to diagnose objectively. Some of the weird cranial nerve symptoms like brain zaps (both from MDMA and SSRI withdrawal) cannot even be seen on EEG because you cannot read that activity from the scalp.
There are other types of neuroimaging that can spot abnormalities in numerous neuropsychiatric disorders, but generally MRI is limited to spotting gross volume differences in brain regions after a long standing untreated condition.
I had the same thing - severe - since Aug 2017 from one night of MDMA. Effexor 225mg is the only thing that helped. I'm pretty confident it's some sort of brain zap/headache syndrome related to abnormal neurotransmitter functioning. I could feel the medication relieving the pressure/ringing/pain in real time as the weeks/months went by, similar to how people feel the effects when withdrawing from SSRIs or from MDMA. I would give it a try.
Yes it can cause all kinds of weird anxious symptoms when you first start. I would try to start on a low dose and increase the dose only after like 3-4 weeks. I would give it several months on the highest dose you get to before you really can say for certain how much it is helping you. I would talk to your psychiatrist about this.
what about your muscle twitching
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Hey, I Really hope you are Better these days and you problably are. If you are not, or for Anyone that is dealing with the same thing. I have a funny story that Will make you feel a lot better. I have already been into the same thing before, depersonalization for a whole year, until finally I got better, felt normal again. Years later i already done mdma a lot of times again and ufortunately yesterday i took it again and Guess who came Back? That bitch depersonalization puntched me in the face of reality interpretation exacly like the first time. Like the first time happened in the comedown and like the fiest time happened after smoking weed during the comedown. Panic attqcks and derealization/dp. Absurd shit had to start walking on the street talking Alone ti distract myself. Anyway, but good news. TWO HOURS after the first panic attack i feel normal again. That gave the opportunity to analyze the whole process that ignites a depersonalization disorder. It took years of philosophic disconstruction (sorry if some words are wrong, english is not my language) and anxiety mindmaster to learn to deal with this instant that you suddenly starts to pay attention to reality and everything looks weird, and your brain is in a hipervigilant mode with your amigdala working in a constant flight or fight mode. But heres the thing. This happen because of the unbalance of serotonin in your brain, wich alters the mecanism of interpretation of reality. And when this happens, especially if during this comedown you smoke weed you become extremely sucetible to a depersonalization. Reason 1 because you normally get so scared and frightened in this moments that associate that feeling to a permanent damage to the brain, reason 2 the levels of serotonin will not comeback immediatly you have to wait a feel hours or days, and reason 3 if in your case you too smoked weed during the comedown and had a panic attack, weed really makes you see reality differwntly. The thing is: BY NATURE, since youre born you had always been “dreaming” reality, its not somerhing that you are hiperthinking about all the, you normally just live life in AUTO MODE, and when exposed to a situation which you suddenly starts to pay attention to it too much because thinggs are temporary differents and associated with the idea that you took something that permantly damaged your brain is a big recipe to a depersonalization disorder. Jesus 40 minutes ago I was CRAZILLY walking on the streets desperated talking alone having panic attack after panic attack and depersonalization manifestations. Here are some tips i discovered after years of dealing with anxiety and reality. During the depersonalization after a lot of panic attacks and dispair i Surrendered to universe. I lost my fear of death and abdicated of my ego and remembered myself that we are all one energy, i tought about my family and how much I love then and even if i got crazy or died They would still exists and that made me happier and calmer. I tought about dogs. I Went to the hospital to manage some benzos, but because of covid i gave up and used alcohol. You can use alcohol in panic situations if their are extreme because it is a central nervous system depressor and Will make you calmer and sleepier. If it is your first time dealing with depersonalization this text Will probAbly not instant cure you, or make you less desperated, because in a way it is a wake up for reality, so you have a long journey to learn how to deal with it, but know: you did not permanently damaged your brain you will come back to normal haha im actually laughing now. SSRI can be great in the process of healing, they decreAse activity of the amygdala and put you in the auto mode again. Benzos are ANGELS in this situations. If have, take it. Alcohol can help too in extreme situations. Surrender to reality and the universe is a process that you Will learn during this bad trip, and after you learn that you kind of abdicates of your ego, just think that every athom in this reality were already in the same point, or think about god, the ego is not the only thing that exists. And for last but not least, YOU HAVE TO BE FUCKING TOUGH. After some minutes having panic attacks i started challenge then to come with the most Powerful Level of energy they had because I WAS NOT AFRAID. and this tought attitude put me in a position that suddenly... they stopped. Suddenly I was dead, and came Back, and now i dont need to feel fear anymore. Anyway. This whole process Will make you a tough and even extremely more intelligent person. Good Luck
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Hey dude! Just wanted to say long time no see and I'm glad you're doing well, always nice to hear from a long-timer. Punch that bitch right back
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This is the cycle guys, you will got better. Reality is tough to deal with and Specially when you are in a hipervigilant mode. But you Will eventually got there. And you Will be a lot more inteligent after this. I mean dude before my dp/dr i didnt even spoke english but i had ti start talking because there is no suport of this kind in my language or country, and i learned so much about neuroscience and psichology. Anyway dudes here i am still feeling pretty fine after just q couple of hours. I think this is the kind of post that i always wanted to read here. DUDESSS everything is gonna be fine Mdma DOES NOT damage the brain the way you think, brain chemicals just chance during the comedown and ANXIETY is the mainfactor always. A disconstruction of ego is necessary, meditate, breath, surrender ti the universe. And here i am. 3 hours after a depersonalization attack going happily and confortably Lay down in my bed to sleep 
hahaha take care people i love you all
hahaha take care people i love you all
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I hope it gets better
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What's frustrating is hearing doctors that don't know anything or what drugs do tell you " there is no way a drug you used for the first time can cause such effects, it's all in your mind". When you tell them about stuff like neurotoxicity you look like a crazy person that uses Google to self diagnose.
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the practice of facing fear is not to shout "im not afraid" into the darkness.
it's to turn your back to the darkness and admit you are afraid, to really feel the fear so much that you get goosebumps. Only then can you truly know the depth of your courage.
it's to turn your back to the darkness and admit you are afraid, to really feel the fear so much that you get goosebumps. Only then can you truly know the depth of your courage.