Hiya,
I am new here but I have read the rules and I am wary of my statement about K looking (rather obviously) like I am promoting drug use..however.. in my professional life I have had extensive experience with the administration of benzos and I have seen first hand that they have a place alleviating pain in some of its many forms. Not that long ago one of the best medications for treating seizures that could go into stasis (seizures that last so long they cause irreparable brain damage) was a little tube of 'rectal diazepam' it literally saved lives in a very real sense, even though it was considered undignified to the person you were supporting but better than brain damage right!? Now we use buccal midazolam which works quicker and doesn't comatose the person, administered orally. I have also worked in a psychiatric care home specialising in bi-polar and schizo-affective disorders and for some of those people when the antipsychotics didn't work the benzos were there to alleviate the crippling fear they felt. It is also obvious that they are a huge help to those suffering withdrawal from opiates. In my experience benzos for depression and suicidal ideation are more like being treated by a combat medic, they patch you up long enough to receive more permanent treatment for your condition.
Hallucinogens I find are more like that long term treatment. They really came to me at a time when I needed something bigger than the world to touch my soul and make me feel that there is more to existence than feeling angry, desperate or nihilistic.
I would describe my initial trips down the "K-hole" as following a typical religious rebirth. The out of body experience put me in a situation where I felt I had possibly died and I just threw myself into whatever was coming next, when I came back around I definitely felt energised, rejuvenated and reborn, even though my initial uses of K were at illegal raves put on with friends of mine who owned a massive sound system. I learned that I enjoyed using K more in a tranquil environment with some chilled music "Nitin Sawney" is my fav. I found myself floating down the Nile on a barge at sunset or flying through huge underground caverns made of iridescent crystal. I conversed with entities that could be external inter-dimentional beings, my subconscious or Jungian archetypes (consciousnesses that have access to all of human experience and may or may not be found encoded in our DNA) in any aspect it doesn't matter, to me what matters is just how it seems and acts. I just know that they act as though they pass on wisdom I may or may not wish to hear but always need to know. More recently having looked after and supported so many individuals I cannot count them all, to discover that I had not only been having full tonic-clonic (grande Mal) drop seizures nocturnally but that I had begun having them during the day and freaking everyone around me out. Several times I woke up in ambulances or in hospital to eventually find out I had had a seizure. The first few times I took K after my diagnosis were a bit ropey as I wasn't sure if they would cause a seizure, happily so far that has not been the case. I was quite pissed off with the universe at this issue being presented to me as my problem. I entered a trip somewhat upset at the universe and had what I will call a "trip tantrum" and blasted the entities, blaming them for my condition, I came out of that trip at peace with my situation, challenges push us out of our comfort zone, they make us grow internally, ultimately overcoming this obstacle will make me a better person, a more powerful one, able to deal with more, making me stronger and more able to help those around me and those I love.
Without hallucinogens I don't think I would be alive let alone any use to anyone or even worse a damaging or violent being angry at the world and hurting everyone near me.
As for mushrooms, the dose is always variable as they are organic, kinda like assessing the strength of weed without a scientific measurement of THC content, although then the high can be variable even amongst strains.
Sometimes 2 or 3 big liberty caps would blow me away all day, other times I could drink a brew with a handful of mushrooms and just be nicely blissed.
I used to keep a jar or powdered liberty caps in the kitchen, friends would often ask for a spoon in their coffee and I was always quite partial to a sprinkle on some bubbling cheese on toast
Anyway if you ever wanna talk about hallucinogens I'm familiar with or god forbid having a bad trip hit me up.
Peace and love to all
Billy