I'm pretty fucking low today... I cut out an extra day between phenibut doses so that's part of it, I took some earlier as it was my day to do so in the taper and I feel better now. But my girl is trying to get us to self-isolate again and my life has gotten going again, band stuff happening, seeing friends. Still being careful, but we hung out with someone whose coworker tested positve for covid 8 days ago, we hung out 14 days ago, and now she thinks we need to not see anyone for 2 weeks. I'm like, it's been 14 days already and we show no symptoms. I feel pulled in so many directions, my bandmates need me to participate, we're trying to finalize our album, we're practicing and writing new material. Have an outdoor event we're playing at next weekend. My girlfriend is freaked out and wants me to drop out of everything because cases are spiking. I'm addicted to drugs and trying to do a detox retreat all August but my buddy doing it with me is not doing a great job of getting it organized, the cabin may have fallen through, we may be pushing the date when we do it back. And I'm finding myself chipping away at kratom and noticeably having withdrawals from it. Plus the phenibut. Total lockdown fucks my mental health, everything in my life that I love involves going out in the world and doing things with people.
I just want to sleep until this is all over.
Menopause iirc