Chapter II: The Abyss is Eternal !

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Good luck with your ROACH INFESTATION OF HADES. I'm going to try and sleep again.
 
btw

if i have him over tonight i will be pretty devastated w/ my inner self who promised me NO to WAIT but I know the dude in me wants it

i am so done and tired


he prolly gonna spend the rest of the nite elsewhere w/ good reason
 
had 4 to 5 beers

wondering why am drunk

o that's right been up for absurd # of hours without stims EVEN CAFFEINE ttytt

and this is so messed up
how i'm just dying to fucc him
!!!

ughh [/parody]

!!!!!!!!!!

he seemed to like me passed out last time but i had more stamina

powernap might overdo it
 
Captain.Heroin said:
had 4 to 5 beers

wondering why am drunk

o that's right been up for absurd # of hours without stims EVEN CAFFEINE ttytt

and this is so messed up
how i'm just dying to fucc him
!!!

ughh [/parody]

!!!!!!!!!!

he seemed to like me passed out last time but i had more stamina

powernap might overdo it
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I couldn't sleep Cap.... :cry:

Btw, our favorite holocaust denier is back in case you want to pop into that thread. What a fucking dick.
 
i came back apparently feeling better because sleep dep and more alcohol helepd me forget everythin
i waslike
roach what roach i have a glass blunt

[stonermeme.jpg]

for real though if i see that again imma legit rob a pharmacy for them benzos the panic was so bad

screamin like a girl

shady would go haha if here
 
BK38 said:
I couldn't sleep Cap.... :cry:

Btw, our favorite holocaust denier is back in case you want to pop into that thread. What a fucking dick.
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nah u can be the one to go "SQUEAL LIKE A PIG BOY'

idc it's not like qanon would even think the buttpenetration is nonconsensual

colloquial conservative use of airspace for a fellow patriot and freedom lover iirc
 
no but rly i love my conservatives and i am elated they love the 1st amendment as much as i do

tyvm tyvm *bows*



BK38 said:
Cap, u sounding more loco than usual. Get some sleep maybe sugartits?
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i make sense in my head

the more i speak the more it becomes nonsense
i think therefore i'm not
i speak it sputters and spatters, prattling about consonants
sometimes never pronouncing the vowels
often i void my bowels, i am lost in this realm
not connected with my higher consciousness
a giant whale that can't beach itself
stuck in translation
stuck in the event horizon, it can't drip
the viscosity of life thickened to a sludge and sealed me shut
and i am lost between the zeros and ones
between meaning and reality
definition and desire
the initiation and inanition
starving amid a salacious empire

tyvm tyvm [bows]

NSFW:


...I HAVE NO IDEA WHERE I'VE JUST BEEN...

the husband came home to his dying wife whom he vowed he could not live without, and asked her, whatever are you doing
practicing being an angel

[i have a pan between my legs, always]

and he cried seeing there was beauty yet for her and there would be for him too he chose to live [so sayeth the book of humphry]
my mind is a dying angel, stuck halfway in an asphalt grave
are you listening?
i speak in riddles and rhymes, codices and sometimes i am lying to myself by telling the truth for i live in delusion, life is an illusion, this life does not exist on the microscopic level, this would be too grand to fathom or behold

...I HAVE NO MEMORY OF THE PRESENT....

i am practicing dementia for when it fully overtakes my mind

DID I...DID I?
 
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no1 got them bars brah i am stuck in a place of no sleep

i can feel my eye hurts blood vesicles affected

scared i can't lay down again

afraid

it destructs me, i am too hot, too cold
I THINK BUT I CAN'T EXPRESS MY THOUGHTS
...
I THINK NONSENSE

IN myself IN MY living death I HAVE COME TO THIS
 
i expect any day now my 1st amendment rights to be stolen by bible thumping racist trump and i just want my constitutional rights ffs

we are becoming china

the truth is in the roof cameras

my whole life is called the fuckface show on netflix free iirc

i am so sick of my extant reality and ppl but today i was happy w/ extant reality but i am still lonely

oh you wanna know why i sound crazy

because i am lacking the FACE TO FACE CONTACT and my mental health meds

ya that's prolly why

i am losing ability to associate with the outside world in sane ways

it happens, ppl locked up in solitary lose it

but i think u r misinterpreting my shadespeak i am trying to let off steam
 
BK38 said:
Can relate when I'm having a period of flashback type dreams related to PTSD. You need sleep though.
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so some of my dreams are weird and sexual

some are like family shit and it makes me cry sometimes

some are just bizarre and "persecutory" in nature

and i like my good sleep i think maybe sleep dep and the alc and maybe a good fucc would help but maybe just sleep dep and alc and maybe hnw like

if i had good drugs i would be like OYAY
and then pull 1 of these

and make 27870002828 more hours of noise music

 
I sometimes have serial killer docs playing in the background when I try and go to sleep. Which sounds counter-intuitive, but there's something about the narration style they typically use that helps me sleep.
 
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