Mental Health Coming off Invega Sustenna (Paliperidone) v3

[John78]

Ya I know the cops ticketed me multiple times. I couldn't handle it. My love for Jesus and hate for the world ruined my life. I want a do over but sadly cannot. Oh well. I hope to return to my prior self but who knows.

surely you'll return to your prior self. it's not a matter of if but when. alot of people recover in under a year. i'm hoping to see you recocered by the end of the year. how long you been off the shot?

 

[Sbar25]

5 months. I'm just scared man. It's like I had everything and now I dont. I'm tired of this life its filled with evil.
I was shouted about people repenting. Bad choice.
I hope Jesus does come back cause this world is very evil.

 

[Paula10]

Sbar25 you are lucky to have only one shot. Look at me I had 4 high dose shots I’m so scared. You will recover I’m pretty sure you will but me I’m so scared. I wish it never happen to me but it did and now all I do is always think about my pre invega self. I’m so tired of this. I hate my life so bad. Damn I hate waking up everyday like this I’m tired I want bigger widows so I can believe in recovery. May God help us. Godspeed

 

[John78]

5 months. I'm just scared man. It's like I had everything and now I dont. I'm tired of this life its filled with evil.
I was shouted about people repenting. Bad choice.
I hope Jesus does come back cause this world is very evil.

no improvement? not even a little?

 

[Blakefree]

Does anyone feel less social than pre-invega? I can barely hold conversations with people anymore because my mind just goes blank

 

[John78]

Does anyone feel less social than pre-invega? I can barely hold conversations with people anymore because my mind just goes blank

it's a common symptom i've seen alot of people have. i know a lack of serotonin and dopamine can cause social anxiety and i know the d1 and d2 receptors antagonized play a role in cognitive function. inhibitors of dopamine and serotonin reuptakes wouldn't work since your receptors are antagonized but you could try them out and see. otherwise i think it's something you gotta sit out for awhile.

 

[Paula10]

What we need is words of encouragement. At least on the past threads they had invegauser who would post all the time to the people in the room. Hell we have no one that strong. I’m not that strong either. My life is misery. I have a boyfriend who try’s to tell me it gets better but I don’t believe him no matter what he tells me I still have doubt on recovery. I’m so sad. John78 you don’t struggle like most of us. You are lucky and I wish I wasn’t damaged like this. I wish I didn’t have to go threw this everyday. I still pray to God, but again no answer. I’m too weak and sick. I feel like I’m dying

 

[John78]

What we need is words of encouragement. At least on the past threads they had invegauser who would post all the time to the people in the room. Hell we have no one that strong. I’m not that strong either. My life is misery. I have a boyfriend who try’s to tell me it gets better but I don’t believe him no matter what he tells me I still have doubt on recovery. I’m so sad. John78 you don’t struggle like most of us. You are lucky and I wish I wasn’t damaged like this. I wish I didn’t have to go threw this everyday. I still pray to God, but again no answer. I’m too weak and sick. I feel like I’m dying

i struggle with major depression with mixed and psychotic. i wake up wanting to be dead. i feel hopeless. empty. i'm so far deep into social isolation that i don't see any hope in being able to reconnect. i lost my personality. my brain feeds me reasons to die and constantly forces me to feel worthless and inferior. my brain attacks me in clever and devastating ways; ways that debilitate and cripple me. however happy i get is how bad it gets. this has been going on for 5 years and medication or therapy doesn't solve it. i'm one of the few who don't recover. you've been dealing with this for like half a year and it's fucking temporary. it's pathetic. you should really quit crying and be thankful you'll be fine next year. i'm way fucking worse than you and my odds of dying an early death due to my mental illness are far greater than your temporary suffering. trust me, you're fine.

 

[Paula10]

I hate the fact that I have a boyfriend and can’t express love to him. I can’t feel love or happiness. I mean before invega I was head over hills for my boyfriend and now I just don’t care about him. I just pretend to have emotions and I hate pretending I want to feel the love for him I’m so sad guys so sad. Why won’t this nightmare stop why doesn’t it get better each month why can’t we feel something good so we didn’t have to be in misery waiting to recover. Guys I’m losing hope and I don’t want to live this way. No one can make me feel better. If my kids can’t then nobody can. My boyfriend don’t understand me. He talks to me every night so I don’t be alone but he doesn’t understand that I just want to end my life but I’m so scared of hell so now I just suffer and suffer and suffer. I had a window where I wasn’t suffering but I know that won’t come back. I even doubt recovery now. Sorry guys for being a downer but this shit is hell and now I know why Sbar25 is so negative on his post. I’m negative on my post to because we don’t believe in recovery. 5 months is along time to suffer and now I have another 7 months till a year off this medicine I just don’t think I will live to see it. I know I still won’t be recovered. God help us please.

 

[Paula10]

i struggle with major depression with mixed and psychotic. i wake up wanting to be dead. i feel hopeless. empty. i'm so far deep into social isolation that i don't see any hope in being able to reconnect. i lost my personality. my brain feeds me reasons to die and constantly forces me to feel worthless and inferior. my brain attacks me in clever and devastating ways; ways that debilitate and cripple me. however happy i get is how bad it gets. this has been going on for 5 years and medication or therapy doesn't solve it. i'm one of the few who don't recover. you've been dealing with this for like half a year and it's fucking temporary. it's pathetic. you should really quit crying and be thankful you'll be fine next year. i'm way fucking worse than you and my odds of dying an early death due to my mental illness are far greater than your temporary suffering. trust me, you're fine.

I’m sorry you are going threw that. I really didn’t know you suffered for 5 years and it still continues. You are extremely strong as a person to have survived this long. I do know many people who suffer from severe depression does commit suicide. So my apologies. I actually thought you just lost your sex drive only. I misunderstood you john78. I’m not pathetic going threw this struggle. I don’t know if it is temporary or not I hope so john78. It’s too much of a struggle for a weak person like me. You don’t know what I’m going threw everyday just to stay alive. I don’t cry any so let’s be real with each other here. We are both struggling everyday so I hope you do feel better. It’s a long dark damn road that just doesn’t end. July 4th I will be 6 months off but I know I still will be struggling. People say it gets easier john78 but it is getter worst for me. I just don’t want to die. I don’t care anymore. Good luck to you.

 

[John78]

I hate the fact that I have a boyfriend and can’t express love to him. I can’t feel love or happiness. I mean before invega I was head over hills for my boyfriend and now I just don’t care about him. I just pretend to have emotions and I hate pretending I want to feel the love for him I’m so sad guys so sad. Why won’t this nightmare stop why doesn’t it get better each month why can’t we feel something good so we didn’t have to be in misery waiting to recover. Guys I’m losing hope and I don’t want to live this way. No one can make me feel better. If my kids can’t then nobody can. My boyfriend don’t understand me. He talks to me every night so I don’t be alone but he doesn’t understand that I just want to end my life but I’m so scared of hell so now I just suffer and suffer and suffer. I had a window where I wasn’t suffering but I know that won’t come back. I even doubt recovery now. Sorry guys for being a downer but this shit is hell and now I know why Sbar25 is so negative on his post. I’m negative on my post to because we don’t believe in recovery. 5 months is along time to suffer and now I have another 7 months till a year off this medicine I just don’t think I will live to see it. I know I still won’t be recovered. God help us please.

you can get drunk and you had a window. you'll start having windows from here on. my guess is every 2 weeks to a month and then they'll start happening sooner and sooner as the medication leaves your system. you're only 5 months in. that's not that long. it way too early to be jumping to conclusions just like Sbar. i don't understand why you'd want to end your life over something temporary. especially so early. at least you're not like me and have logistical reasons to commit suicide other than just a mere depletion of dopamine and serotonin. that's all you're going through. it's really not that tough once you get used to it unless you just wallow every single second of the day instead of letting your brain build a tolerance.

 

[John78]

I’m sorry you are going threw that. I really didn’t know you suffered for 5 years and it still continues. You are extremely strong as a person to have survived this long. I do know many people who suffer from severe depression does commit suicide. So my apologies. I actually thought you just lost your sex drive only. I misunderstood you john78. I’m not pathetic going threw this struggle. I don’t know if it is temporary or not I hope so john78. It’s too much of a struggle for a weak person like me. You don’t know what I’m going threw everyday just to stay alive. I don’t cry any so let’s be real with each other here. We are both struggling everyday so I hope you do feel better. It’s a long dark damn road that just doesn’t end. July 4th I will be 6 months off but I know I still will be struggling. People say it gets easier john78 but it is getter worst for me. I just don’t want to die. I don’t care anymore. Good luck to you.

you'll be okay. like said, you'll start getting windows from here on out. you'll get your breaks and you'll be able to prepare for the next wave. those windows will make it easier and give you time to breathe. the suffering stays the same for sure. no doubt about it. but each and everyday you're getting closer. my guess is you're atleast halfway through. try smoking weed. i seen some guy say the thc shuttles the p-glycoprotein found in invega/risperdal into the bloodstream, making it easier to flush out of your system. and another guy posted a study on this. i guess cigs metabolize the medication too. so your habits could benifit you in this process. easiest way to do it too. idk if it's all true, i'm hoping it is. i smoke like a fucking chimney.

 

[Paula10]

you can get drunk and you had a window. you'll start having windows from here on. my guess is every 2 weeks to a month and then they'll start happening sooner and sooner as the medication leaves your system. you're only 5 months in. that's not that long. it way too early to be jumping to conclusions just like Sbar. i don't understand why you'd want to end your life over something temporary. especially so early. at least you're not like me and have logistical reasons to commit suicide other than just a mere depletion of dopamine and serotonin. that's all you're going through. it's really not that tough once you get used to it unless you just wallow every single second of the day instead of letting your brain build a tolerance.
Thanks for reminding me of this. Yes I’ve tried thc but it brought on fear and paranoia so badly that it’s not worth smoking again. I smoke cigs everyday all day so I’m hoping this helps but I don’t know. It would be great to have more windows doing this struggle so I’m hoping I’ll get a window soon. Right now I do dwell on this situation 24/7 I can’t accept it because my Hope receptor is blocked so it’s hard. It feels permanent not temporary. God help us. I guess if you made it for 5 years you are pretty damn strong. Are you able to have a girlfriend or friends?

 

[John78]

did you smoke too much? just like the adderall, if you take too much you'll have some negative consequences. or it's cause it's been awhile since you got high and maybe because you're more sensitive to it since i guess your brain builds more receptors after a number of antipsychotics. i could be wrong though. i know one time after a year of probation i got too high and had the worst trip of my life. it scarred my emotional and mental state for a week and each time i got high i'd get put back into a mild state of what i experienced. i pushed through it though and weed became pleasurable again though. not saying you should pick it back up if you don't want to but possible give it another chance and keep it to just about a single or half of a oney (or however tf you spell it.) and yeah hopefully your next window is soon. i don't see why not since you had an early recovery with substances with a window a few weeks later. your next one should be within a fee weeks. i know it's not the same but i had windows of sleep recovery and they'd happen every 2 weeks and then it was 1 week and now my sleep is recovered. like i said, they should start happening sooner and sooner. i'm hoping that's the case anyways. i'm no doctor.
but i'm going to try and contact a physician to see if they can check how much invega is in my system. if they can check that sort of thing (i don't see why not since they can measure lithium to give you a proper dose) i'll let you know and encourage you to see one too.
i know it feels permanent but it's not. you had a window to prove it. it just takes a long time; which i see how you'd feel recovery isn't possible. a couple people are with me on here saying recovery, on average, happens within 6-18 months. depends on the mg, maybe the number if shots, and your brain physiology. i'd say your brain physiology is great since you can already consume substances and you had a window pretty early on if not on time. let us know how you feel next month. that's the month alot of people start to recover or notice a difference. i pray that's the case for you cause suffering fucking sucks. i can't fathom how a mind can experience such vast and dark misery. take care. prayers.

 

[John78]

and i feel too incapable to have a girlfriend but i got 2 understanding and loyal friends. the rest sort of just started attacking me and dropped me.

 

[Paula10]

and i feel too incapable to have a girlfriend but i got 2 understanding and loyal friends. the rest sort of just started attacking me and dropped me.

Well I have two sons and I had to give them up because of invega. Invega destroyed my family life that I could have had. My kids are my life but invega took them away and all I really have is nothing. Life means nothing to me. I do see my kids everyday and talks with my boyfriend but it’s not the same. I try to do things each day but invega is always with me. Yeah I hope to have another window soon or sooner. A window a week would be nice but oh well.

 

[ihateinvega]

did you smoke too much? just like the adderall, if you take too much you'll have some negative consequences. or it's cause it's been awhile since you got high and maybe because you're more sensitive to it since i guess your brain builds more receptors after a number of antipsychotics. i could be wrong though. i know one time after a year of probation i got too high and had the worst trip of my life. it scarred my emotional and mental state for a week and each time i got high i'd get put back into a mild state of what i experienced. i pushed through it though and weed became pleasurable again though. not saying you should pick it back up if you don't want to but possible give it another chance and keep it to just about a single or half of a oney (or however tf you spell it.) and yeah hopefully your next window is soon. i don't see why not since you had an early recovery with substances with a window a few weeks later. your next one should be within a fee weeks. i know it's not the same but i had windows of sleep recovery and they'd happen every 2 weeks and then it was 1 week and now my sleep is recovered. like i said, they should start happening sooner and sooner. i'm hoping that's the case anyways. i'm no doctor.
but i'm going to try and contact a physician to see if they can check how much invega is in my system. if they can check that sort of thing (i don't see why not since they can measure lithium to give you a proper dose) i'll let you know and encourage you to see one too.
i know it feels permanent but it's not. you had a window to prove it. it just takes a long time; which i see how you'd feel recovery isn't possible. a couple people are with me on here saying recovery, on average, happens within 6-18 months. depends on the mg, maybe the number if shots, and your brain physiology. i'd say your brain physiology is great since you can already consume substances and you had a window pretty early on if not on time. let us know how you feel next month. that's the month alot of people start to recover or notice a difference. i pray that's the case for you cause suffering fucking sucks. i can't fathom how a mind can experience such vast and dark misery. take care. prayers.

In response to the bolded, I contacted my hospital to ask them if they could test to see how much Invega Sustenna is in my system. They told me they couldn't do that, so it may be the same for you. However, I think I may have seen someone here say that they can test for that.

 

[John78]

Well I have two sons and I had to give them up because of invega. Invega destroyed my family life that I could have had. My kids are my life but invega took them away and all I really have is nothing. Life means nothing to me. I do see my kids everyday and talks with my boyfriend but it’s not the same. I try to do things each day but invega is always with me. Yeah I hope to have another window soon or sooner. A window a week would be nice but oh well.

what do you mean you had to give them up? can you get them back? and this'll pass over eventually. hopefully sooner than later. but in the meantime try not to focus on happiness and enjoyment. it'll make your days darker since you'll only focus on and be disheartened by what you lack. i know that made an impact on me. try to focus on being strong instead. you'll find peace and empowerment in strength, and for the time being it'll replace happiness. hopefully you can feel it. can't wait to see you recover and move on from this page though. i'm really looking forward to it. all this will just be a memory and you won't be counting the days anymore. you'll no longer be waiting for windows and you'll be back to your old life. hopefully your time comes soon. i know it's a long road, but just stay strong. it's not forever. i pray these days just go by in the blink of an eye and next thing you know you're back to normal just like the number of people who've recovered in under a year. have you noticed any subtle changes after getting off or is it all still the same?
and what was the mg you took btw?

 

[John78]

In response to the bolded, I contacted my hospital to ask them if they could test to see how much Invega Sustenna is in my system. They told me they couldn't do that, so it may be the same for you. However, I think I may have seen someone here say that they can test for that.

that's odd. they can check all other chemicals in your system but invega? i mean i guess they just don't have anything to detect it. but i'm going to talk to my doctor about it in a couple of weeks and then call to double check. i read online that you can contact your physician to check how much is left in the system.

 

[ihateinvega]

that's odd. they can check all other chemicals in your system but invega? i mean i guess they just don't have anything to detect it. but i'm going to talk to my doctor about it in a couple of weeks and then call to double check. i read online that you can contact your physician to check how much is left in the system.

Maybe I was lied to. Maybe it varies from hospital to hospital. I don't know.