Chapter II: The Abyss is Eternal !

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empeebee said:
What about a strong confident women who needs a women in her life?
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I wouldn't want anyone to live life like I am... I just can't HELP my heart 💔

If I could tell any woman to do as I say not as I do, it'd be about this. YOU ARE ENOUGH FOR YOU, self love works.

I remember that earlier this year when I was SOOOO past my buddy... and I was MOVING ON and LOVING LIFE and I remember distinctly being alone and ENJOYING the void, no one near me, I got to love me and it felt amazing ...

I could feel like that IF AND ONLY IF I HAD SHATTER and he didn't see me last night so I'm losing it 🦡
 
🎶 Staring at a Benzo and it's calling my naaaaaaaaaaaaaame, I did fucking nothing today and it covers the shaaaaaaaaaaame, I'm gonna take it because I can't wake up at 2pm like I did todaaaaaaaay, I have a website to design or it's no monnnnnnaaaaaaaay🎶

My life is a coffin and a trash porn and I am unfortunately, not getting fucked, up or at all............ Oh woe is me.
 
empeebee said:
If I may ask, tell me to piss off if it is none of my business, but what changed? What stopped you loving you?
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I found what I love in life and I am letting it kill me...

That is vague let me be more specific...

I myself see death as a beautiful man. Is it not attractive to be destroyed by the object of desire? 😷

Sorry I am quoting other people senselessly...

I got back with my ex and am back to lovesick but less so and I was like I CAN PLAY WITH FIRE no no you cannot play with fire
 
Captain.Heroin said:
I found what I love in life and I am letting it kill me...

That is vague let me be more specific...

I myself see death as a beautiful man. Is it not attractive to be destroyed by the object of desire? 😷

Sorry I am quoting other people senselessly...

I got back with my ex and am back to lovesick but less so and I was like I CAN PLAY WITH FIRE no no you cannot play with fire
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and being lovesick for your ex is the reason you love yourself less? I don't mean to be retarded, we're just two strangers on a forum, so ignore me if I'm being dense.
 
empeebee said:
and being lovesick for your ex is the reason you love yourself less? I don't mean to be retarded, we're just two strangers on a forum, so ignore me if I'm being dense.
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Yes I was fully in love with myself and did not need a MAN in my life...

love is a fire, it burns down all that it sees, burns down everything
everything you think burns down everything you say...

sorry quoting other ppl again

I don't feel "I'm ENOUGH" anymore... and I know that I am and have to constantly remind myself of it

I used to really LIKE being single, but like, when you want a relationship, or are "in one" or , "whatever" because it's "Just sex" but you know it's not because you both want just each other (GROSS barf 🤮)...
 
basically I shouldn't care but I do and I don't want to if that makes sense
and yes I am ashamed to be this "in love" it is pathetic and I should be looking for better
but eventually you give up hope that there's "better" and you stick to what's good
part of growing up is giving up everything you once cared about
and settling down to a life of inadequacy, a shell of what i once was
this shouldn't be as far as I take it but I'm somewhere in the middle of the decline
 
I can identify, being single is a lot of fun and offers a lot of freedoms. Does get achingly lonely sometimes though.

IMO, as a stranger who has never met you but has read at least a few hundred of your posts, you are a strong, intelligent man with a deep empathy for, and willingness to help, your fellow strugglers. Of this you should be proud because it seems to me you are more than enough.
 
Xorkoth said:
Way late, but meth, being a serotonin releaser, can cause serotonin syndrome when combined with SSRIs, same as MDMA.
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Isn't meth a very minor serotonin releaser?

I'm not disagreeing with you, I certainly wouldn't risk using meth with ANY kind of AD or AP, just asking because I don't know. I've used it with wellbutrin (an NRI) before and it felt incredibly weird.

IIRC whoever answered that question a few pages back said it was safe. I didn't think that sounded right, but I don't know enough to dispute that.
 
empeebee said:
I can identify, being single is a lot of fun and offers a lot of freedoms. Does get achingly lonely sometimes though.

IMO, as a stranger who has never met you but has read at least a few hundred of your posts, you are a strong, intelligent man with a deep empathy for, and willingness to help, your fellow strugglers. Of this you should be proud because it seems to me you are more than enough.
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aw why thank you <3

I know me though and I have some settling to do :|

I don't like meeting new people it's the most insufferable activity I have on Planet Earth. And the pain of people trying to make small talk with me :| is pretty bad.

There's people I hit it off with and a lot of fuzz. To be fair I'm mostly just fuzz to other people too. Static.

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