Chapter II: The Abyss is Eternal !

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MrsGamp said:
Incidentally I have a question... Have wondered about this for years...my non-American uncle has had more than one serious heart attack while on holiday in the US with his American girlfriend...
How the fuck did he manage to get about three massively expensive quintuple bypass surgeries for free in an American hospital ?
I thought the US hospital system was okay with letting uninsured people die....?
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US hospitals have to follow life saving protocol regardless of insurance status. The Bill mustve been lost in translation.

Or.. The US was like, ya sorry about the big Mac's, this ones on us.
 
The Wizard of the Creek said:
I actually care about people in The Abyss, what’s going on in family court? I hope you’re divorcing that abusive asshole, and take him for everything he is worth! Fuck him

—Wizard—
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Thanks! But tbh the family court biz has been officially over for years. I just can't let go of it. No matter how "positive" or reasonable I try to be, I cannot rid myself of profound belief that it ruined my life - and worse still, basically caused my mother's suicide (her depression was so obviously triggered by me losing custody of my child - and even after I got my daughter back, Mum just couldn't get well. She just couldnt. She'd never been clinically depressed before, either.
At the very last family court hearing (about 5 years ago) I got it on the record that the whole thing was informed by nothing better than my ex-husbands hatred and spite, transparently so. But it was a goldmine for lawyers and magistrate,because once my money ran out there were massive Legal Aid grants. So that was nice for everyone, obviously. Except for my dead mother who was repeatedly defamed in perjurious affidavits, and of course senselessly deprived of her only grandchild to gratify spite and greed. I don't give a fuck what people say about "depression" being the real culprit whenever a suicide happens and blah blah blah.
No. Wrong.
People do actually kill themselves to escape vile situations brought about by vile people and the family court, I said, needed to be aware of its terrifying power over people's lives. Child custody custody actions shouldnt be undertaken for obviously bullshit reasons.
That was the gist of my last family court speech, anyway, and I still feel the same way. Thanks for your kindly interest btw ❤️❤️
 
MrsGamp said:
Thanks! But tbh the family court biz has been officially over for years. I just can't let go of it. No matter how "positive" or reasonable I try to be, I cannot rid myself of profound belief that it ruined my life - and worse still, basically caused my mother's suicide (her depression was so obviously triggered by me losing custody of my child - and even after I got my daughter back, Mum just couldn't get well. She just couldnt. She'd never been clinically depressed before, either.
At the very last family court hearing (about 5 years ago) I got it on the record that the whole thing was informed by nothing better than my ex-husbands hatred and spite, transparently so. But it was a goldmine for lawyers and magistrate,because once my money ran out there were massive Legal Aid grants. So that was nice for everyone, obviously. Except for my dead mother who was repeatedly defamed in perjurious affidavits, and of course senselessly deprived of her only grandchild to gratify spite and greed. I don't give a fuck what people say about "depression" being the real culprit whenever a suicide happens and blah blah blah.
No. Wrong.
People do actually kill themselves to escape vile situations brought about by vile people and the family court, I said, needed to be aware of its terrifying power over people's lives. Child custody custody actions shouldnt be undertaken for obviously bullshit reasons.
That was the gist of my last family court speech, anyway, and I still feel the same way. Thanks for your kindly interest btw ❤❤
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PS btw the reasons WERE bullshit. I assure you! I have an apology from the Department of Child Protection about their credulous reception of my ex-husbands claims....for the DCP to apologise in writing is so unusual that even the magistrate said he'd never encountered such a document before...
Fabulously rare, but utterly futile. Damage done now. "Cannot be remedied given the passage of time", as the DCP apology puts it.
I better shut up now...sorry!
 
MrsGamp said:
Thanks! But tbh the family court biz has been officially over for years. I just can't let go of it. No matter how "positive" or reasonable I try to be, I cannot rid myself of profound belief that it ruined my life - and worse still, basically caused my mother's suicide (her depression was so obviously triggered by me losing custody of my child - and even after I got my daughter back, Mum just couldn't get well. She just couldnt. She'd never been clinically depressed before, either.
At the very last family court hearing (about 5 years ago) I got it on the record that the whole thing was informed by nothing better than my ex-husbands hatred and spite, transparently so. But it was a goldmine for lawyers and magistrate,because once my money ran out there were massive Legal Aid grants. So that was nice for everyone, obviously. Except for my dead mother who was repeatedly defamed in perjurious affidavits, and of course senselessly deprived of her only grandchild to gratify spite and greed. I don't give a fuck what people say about "depression" being the real culprit whenever a suicide happens and blah blah blah.
No. Wrong.
People do actually kill themselves to escape vile situations brought about by vile people and the family court, I said, needed to be aware of its terrifying power over people's lives. Child custody custody actions shouldnt be undertaken for obviously bullshit reasons.
That was the gist of my last family court speech, anyway, and I still feel the same way. Thanks for your kindly interest btw ❤❤
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Offensive comment impending..

Aye I like a woman with baggage ! ;]
 
SS373dOH said:
Offensive comment impending..

Aye I like a woman with baggage ! ;]
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Lol but seriously I need to lose my hatred and resentment and outrage! The last ten years of my life have been poisoned by the Family Court biz, and of course Mum's death. Plus very serious domestic violence in my most recent relationship (not my daughters dad, haven't had to fuck that particular asshole for about 15 years, so it ain't ALL bad...)
My rage is more tenacious than I thought possible. It's taken me like 10 years to even arrange for counselling (appointment is pending).
I wouldn't accept counselling from anyone because my view was that I'd been cruelly misrepresented and pathologised (in family court) as this crazed dipsomaniac pill-popping mother from hell. And to attend "counselling" seemed akin to admittimg that those bastards were right.
Fuck em all, I thought. It was my sociopathic ex who needed the "counselling", along with his legal team, for endorsing the whole witch hunt...
But (seriously shitty irony here), because I can't lose my rage, am becoming more and more like the woman depicted in the family court.
It is ceasing to be a fiction.
 
And that would be an absolutely intolerable win for my ex - the crowning success in his ten solid years of uninterrupted and undeserved victories. Worse than "undeserved" actually - just karmically horrible.
His whole modus operandi seems like mathematical proof that ideas such as "crime never pays", "cheats never prosper", "honesty is the best policy" aren't just cliches but utter utter bullshit, as incorrect as claiming that the earth is flat, or that 2 plus 2 makes 5...
Cheats DO prosper. CrIme DOES pay. Honesty is a SHITTY policy, it seems.
At the very least honesty is worse than useless as a weapon against a truly committed liar.
When you're targeted by a dedicated liar, your only option is to become an equally dedicated liar yourself.
I learned this too late...
Thanks for venting space!
 
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The Wizard of the Creek said:
You need a wizard in this situation, not a lawyer, a wizard. We are very good in this situation, please PM me if you want to contact your local witch/wizard. We are a very small circle, that can help!

I am intrigued. Are you for real?
I have fantasised about getting a hardcore black magic practioner to put a "bane" on him.
I'd never have the balls to do this. But it's a gratifying fantasy.

My crazy Irish cousin who's always in and out of gaol for biker related violence was BEGGING me one time for my ex's workplace so he could kick the shit out of him. It was, he felt, not just morally necessary for my ex to cop a proper beating, but also the only sure way of getting the ex to drop the horrible family court campaign.

I was seriously tempted, I admit. I only said no because I couldn't imagine actually getting away with it. My cousin insisted it could be made to look random but I was too spooked to risk it....not ethically, just unable to stomach horrendous criminal risk.
My ex, I am sure, would not have hesitated to have me bashed up by bikers, if it had been a thing that would advance his vendetta. He didn't need bikers though: he had the family court, didn't he? Not only legal, but more sadistic.

1 (888) 555-WIZARD.

Use the special phone.

—Wizard—
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MrsGamp said:
And that would be an absolutely intolerable win for my ex - the crowning success in his ten solid years of uninterrupted and undeserved victories. Worse than "undeserved" actually - just karmically horrible.
His whole modus operandi seems like mathematical proof that ideas such as "crime never pays", "cheats never prosper", "honesty is the best policy" aren't just cliches but utter utter bullshit, as incorrect as claiming that the earth is flat, or that 2 plus 2 makes 5...
Cheats DO prosper. CrIme DOES pay. Honesty is a SHITTY policy, it seems.
At the very least honesty is worse than useless as a weapon against a truly committed liar.
When you're targeted by a dedicated liar, your only option is to become an equally dedicated liar yourself.
I learned this too late...
Thanks for venting space!
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The Wizard of the Creek said:
You need a wizard in this situation, not a lawyer, a wizard. We are very good in this situation, please PM me if you want to contact your local witch/wizard. We are a very small circle, that can help!

1 (888) 555-WIZARD.

Use the special phone.

—Wizard—
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Ps sorry for such negative-hatred filled stuff about my ex. I am, in my own way, a Christian and I believe in forgiveness. Nothing would be better than being able to forgive my ex...but it just ain't humanly possible, at least at this stage. I've got to at least verbalise these terrible feelings or I'll die. It really does feel that way.
I am so desperate for that counselling session!
Also am in withdrawal from Valium right now, which is not ideal under the circs...
I'm not a hatred fuelled person as a rule...except I am, at least towards ex, and if I don't admit it I'll never get over it. I'm not a saint or a martyr but a very ordinary human being...I'm mentioning this because tbh sometimes I have this demented theory that maybe the "spiritual victory" is mine. But that's dishonest and conceited and a cop out. What is this vague idea of "spiritual victory" worth if it's nothing better than acceptimg the truly staggering damage he's inflicted, all the abuse and abasement?
Also this "spiritual victory" fantasy is, I suspect, just a not-very-subtle excuse for finally just giving in to alcoholism for good. I've been terrorised by alcohol-related catastrophes since I was 13. I've got issues with pills too, but honestly it's been alcohol that has unfailingly fucked me up, every time.
I stopped drinking except very moderately up until the family court holocaust got under way. I could stop for my daughter. But I have never yet been able to stop just for me...
I'Ve been pissed all day, everyday, for about 3 months. I've got the horrid looking bloated face again, the red nose, the faint nausea which no doubt indicates my poor little liver's struggle to process all this booze...the last time I was this bad was ten years ago, and even back then my liver wasn't happy. Luckily it was reversible. But it won't always be reversible...
 
Who's going to be a halfway decent human and actually productive today? That's right, this guy right here! 3 hrs of work minimum today BK, you can do it, it's not that hard and don't you want to feel good about yourself? Don't you want to make progress instead of languishing away at 30 at your fucking mom's house? Don't you want to get laid and have money in your pocket again? Well it's not going to happen browsing reddit and bluelight and playing games of Civ VI or making music mixes or drawing. It's going to take work and lots of it! 3 piddly fucking hours of nose-to-the-grind-stone work today. Just start with that. You must start at 1pm BK, that gives you 2 hours to fuck around and shower and eat something, then, WORK you stupid fuck!
 
Dude, breaking shit up is good.

You remember the first and last 15 minutes of.. everything.. the best.

Unless you connect it to an emotion. Then you'll remember most all of it.
 
madness00 said:
Dude, breaking shit up is good.

You remember the first and last 15 minutes of.. everything.. the best.

Unless you connect it to an emotion. Then you'll remember most all of it.
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Good advice. I'm trying to do 30min on, 5-10 min break today.
 
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