I believed in God strongly before the shot. Now I don’t believe in anything really. I love god but I don’t feel his presence in me anymore. We all are lifeless now. Empty feeling never getting fulfilled at all. I mean everyone can I agree feeling empty. We are just living empty everyday. This is our new life right now. It sucks omg I can’t function at all. I hate laying in bed everyday.
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Mental Health Coming off Invega Sustenna (Paliperidone) v3
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Ammarishot
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Just remember that after the shot, you'll be a much stronger and wiser person. These struggles only make you stronger. God only wants the best for us. Before the shot I was such an immature person and didn't understand mental illness, now I'm the complete opposite.
Yes I understand the struggle only. This is crazy. I’m tired of being this way. Everyone says you will be stronger but all I want is my life back. God loves us you say this but I just don’t feel his presence anymore. Invega destroyed my beliefs
I don’t know how you keep getting invega on and off but when and if I recover I will never ever be on invega. This is not a life to live. You seem like you’re okay with invega. You even said it helped you. Invega destroyed me completely killed me. Invega helps no one. This drug is evil and is a crime. I’m pure sick of this. My kids don’t have a mother because of invega. Invega invega invega
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Yes invega actually treated my psychosis and got me back into this world. It's harmful to keep living in a fake fantasy world.
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This is a very natural fear amongst people who try any drug for the first time, the fear that the state of mind induced will never subside. Just know that you do get better, I promise.
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It's good to see many different perspectives on here. Invega helps some, it harms others. Majority of the invega based lawsuits come from people who were forced on it. I am not against medication. I am against forcing medication. I support the patient's right to choose.
Were you on a court order to come take your injection? If yes, the police may abduct you and bring you to the site where you'll receive your injection, though laws vary depending on your state.
Also, you being "a couple months off the injection" will not help your case that you're not a danger to yourself without the injection. It only helps you after about at least a year being off the injection.
If you weren't on a court order to come take your injection to begin with, it is very unlikely the psychiatrist will try to pursue it further. Your medical team may try to reach out to your family though. Let's hope there aren't substantial grounds to build a case against you, however.
Also, with the virus going around it's only taking psych patients longer. They'll detain you for longer. They'll detain you until there's a hearing. Law enforcement hasn't stopped. I suggest changing your address and getting new phone service if you're worried.
Were you on a court order to come take your injection? If yes, the police may abduct you and bring you to the site where you'll receive your injection, though laws vary depending on your state.
Also, you being "a couple months off the injection" will not help your case that you're not a danger to yourself without the injection. It only helps you after about at least a year being off the injection.
If you weren't on a court order to come take your injection to begin with, it is very unlikely the psychiatrist will try to pursue it further. Your medical team may try to reach out to your family though. Let's hope there aren't substantial grounds to build a case against you, however.
Also, with the virus going around it's only taking psych patients longer. They'll detain you for longer. They'll detain you until there's a hearing. Law enforcement hasn't stopped. I suggest changing your address and getting new phone service if you're worried.
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invega hurts people only. You could have used a different medication to treat your psychosis. I do not believe in invega at all. It does more harm than good. You will not convince me other wise.
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Every person reacts to every medication differently. This is because everyone's body is different. For me olanzapine was worse than invega.
Invega is very nasty. The only thing getting me through this is believing in God. I want to move somewhere in a rural area with no mental hospitals so the police are less likely to commit me due to there not being any in town. I feel like metroplasis are dangerous for this exact reason.
I need to get over this feeling. It feels like there is a cinderblock on top of my head and my brain has a thick coating of cement around it. My goals seem meaningless now. I am becoming over consumed with how a drug can steal something so precious to a human, their inner self. God gave us dopamine and it doesn't matter if we had too much the system stole it because maybe the average person doesnt have the same amount. I enjoyed my mania and raving about God in the street I dont think that is psychotic I think I was having a spiritual expirecnce. I just want to have my thoughts back and be able to enjoy life again everyday is just going over and over again and wanting to feel better. I want to feel horny again. I want to be able to sleep whenever I want. I used to sleep like a rock whenever I wanted. Before this experience I was a superman And had super health. Now i feel disabled my new life is suffering. Maybe we are going through the fiery furnace to make us stronger.
I need to get over this feeling. It feels like there is a cinderblock on top of my head and my brain has a thick coating of cement around it. My goals seem meaningless now. I am becoming over consumed with how a drug can steal something so precious to a human, their inner self. God gave us dopamine and it doesn't matter if we had too much the system stole it because maybe the average person doesnt have the same amount. I enjoyed my mania and raving about God in the street I dont think that is psychotic I think I was having a spiritual expirecnce. I just want to have my thoughts back and be able to enjoy life again everyday is just going over and over again and wanting to feel better. I want to feel horny again. I want to be able to sleep whenever I want. I used to sleep like a rock whenever I wanted. Before this experience I was a superman And had super health. Now i feel disabled my new life is suffering. Maybe we are going through the fiery furnace to make us stronger.
I'm sorry guys I just dont see how recovery is possible. I dont know if i will ever feel like I can function ever again it's unfortunate that this happened i was yelling in the street about God and I got punished by the evil society we live in. I wasnt a threat to.myself or others. ISNT a person that drives a motorcycle a danger to themself or anyone that drives a car a danger to themself or others? I was screaming about how people need to repent because i believed there was a lot of garbage going on in the society and community i live in. I want to feel better again this is unbelievable.
Understood. Invega is number one in my book and everyone else on this forum. We fell in a whole of invega and can’t get out. Invega is winning everyday. I swear this battle is unreal and I feel defeated. I swear I can’t believe this. I’m sorry for everyone going threw this. I wish I could help everyone on this forum. Invega is a extreme drug that scares me. I swear if it was human it would be the biggest and powerful person on the earth. Listen we have to be strong. I’m the weakest right now. I have to look at my kids everyday to live. Hopefully we will recover soon. If anyone has improvements please share them. I’m losing hope. Damn tomorrow another day of this uggghhhh. Take care and like someone said on the thread hold on tight.
This has to be the most unbearable experience delivered to man. It is worse than anything I can imagine. Mainly because it destroys our hope, which is something that every human being needs to live on this earth. It is for this reason that I believe that it will make us stronger. If we can get through this intact we will all be better people. The pain is unbearable but we have to make sense of it in a way that will result in us becoming stronger as human beings, that way it will give us meaning, the closest thing to hope that I can think of.
I agree with you. There is no hope.
Okay, so you have emotions now? I mean if invega isn’t that bad for you then you must feel good in a way. Do you have motivation or energy now? I can’t believe you keep getting invega on and off. I swear I couldn’t get invega again. I would tell the doctor that it made me sick and I have a bad reaction to it. After this time I hope I won’t be needing any medication. The only thing I take now is at Johns and that’s it. I’m hoping it’s enough. I will take it until July and then I’m quitting because that would be enough time for me. I don’t feel any different on it but I’m hoping it’s working inside me. I don’t know what else to do but wait it sucks.
I wasn't on a court order. I'm in Canada btw. I guess the only thing left for me to do is wait for the police to show up to my house. I don't fancy spending the rest of quarantine in jail, but if it has to come to that - so be it.
Were you on a court order personally? How'd you get off the injection?
Not exactly what I meant, more of a spur to try and be hopeful even when it feels impossible
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Oh wow. I doubt you will be jailed. And if you're not on a court order, they're probably working on building a case as we speak, or just trying to contact you. If there isn't enough information they won't be able to do shit. I'm aware in Ontario laws, you get arrested if you elope the ward (includes when you don't come back to the hospital while on off-ward privileges). Canada is wayyyy wayy more progressive than America is, especially when it comes to wards. You know here in the states, there's 0 outside time in the wards, no off-ward privileges, that phrase doesn't even exist. Neither does "rights advisor". And in the poorer wards the staff scream at you. There's a huge class divide here when it comes to psychiatric treatment, which is why you get mixed feedback from people. My last visit I couldn't even refuse a blood draw (whereas in rich hospitals you can)
I don't know how the laws work in Canada, I'm only familiar with Ontario's mental health act, which is better compared to the one we have here, yet still shit.
So imagine how shitty you're being treated and multiply it by 10,000 to measure the plight of psych patients in America, who are all treated like future Columbine artists.
I was never on a court order because I worked hard to prevent it. I did get threatened with a court order many times. You have to one up them by going to a higher court and reporting on your shit treatment, lol. System is heavily rigged, and not in your favor. I got off the injection by telling the doctor no. He said he'll get a court order, I told him to go right ahead (he had no information on me except my recent hospitalization). I left the clinic, they tried getting info from my family, but they didn't tell them shit. Eventually I got dropped from Medicaid, which is okay.
Just remember that a prior history of self harm/mental illness is not legally sufficient for grounds to detain you for a present, emergent situation.
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I remember asking this exact question. So you have to increase your dose by way more to be able to feel even a little bit. It took me a solid year before normal doses were normal, lol.
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