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Mental Health Coming off Invega Sustenna (Paliperidone) v3

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Sbar25 said:
Invega sustenna feels like game over.
I need help. When will I have my life back.
I'm struggling, why dont you believe in God?
What is life than? Noone knows what's really going on in life that's why I believe in God I'm not willing to risk it.
I dont even know how people have gotten through this nightmare it is unreal.
At 1 year do you feel better I'm at 2 months and am giving up.
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I personally feel like a belief in God could potentiate a relapse. I would rather not even risk that. Hopefully you’ll feel better around 6 months. I felt like utter shit up until 6.3 months about. Wanted suicide very bad. Now I’m doing very well mentally. And yes it’s very fucked up that their only solution to fixing psychosis is to literally kill the brain and the body.
 
Hopefuldopeful said:
I personally feel like a belief in God could potentiate a relapse. I would rather not even risk that. Hopefully you’ll feel better around 6 months. I felt like utter shit up until 6.3 months about. Wanted suicide very bad. Now I’m doing very well mentally. And yes it’s very fucked up that their only solution to fixing psychosis is to literally kill the brain and the body.
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Invega Sustenna is a chemical lobotomy.
 
Hopefuldopeful said:
I personally feel like a belief in God could potentiate a relapse. I would rather not even risk that. Hopefully you’ll feel better around 6 months. I felt like utter shit up until 6.3 months about. Wanted suicide very bad. Now I’m doing very well mentally.
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According to the chemical imbalance "theory" though, it would be your brain, and not you, that causes the relapse, so theoretically you could believe in God without a relapse
 
I was supposed to have my injection Thursday. I have skipped the appointment and blocked all of the numbers associated with the psychiatrist. I guess the only thing left is to wait for a letter in the mail notifying me of court. I hope with the virus going around, they just kind of forget that I exist. Courts are closed anyway, and by the time they open - I'll be a couple of months off the injection which will help strengthen my case that I am not a danger to myself and others without the injection.

Waiting for the Invega Trinza to be out of my system will take forever and I hope I don't relapse. Even if I do relapse I'd try to get some other oral medication because I hate getting the shot. It screws up my day.
 
Hopefuldopeful said:
I personally feel like a belief in God could potentiate a relapse. I would rather not even risk that. Hopefully you’ll feel better around 6 months. I felt like utter shit up until 6.3 months about. Wanted suicide very bad. Now I’m doing very well mentally. And yes it’s very fucked up that their only solution to fixing psychosis is to literally kill the brain and the body.
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Kill the brain and body? Does the body and brain bounce back from the poison? It is it forever gone this is starting to worry me when people say kill and lobotomized I thought invega sustenna was temporary.
 
Sending out hope and positivity to everyone struggling through this nightmare. We're all going through this together and we are all fighting the same miserable fight. Let's be encouraged by others that recovery is possible and we will get back to our former selves. This pain and misery will become a thing of the past, we just have to be strong and endure this suffering for a time. Remember, "this too shall pass".
 
What does god want from me??
Life is a bad trip and invega has made it a
About 1000x harder and scarier.
I want to feel better one day everyday I life in denial of what is going on things are getting
Difficult. I believe in God because of sleep paralysis expierence but I WANT TO HEAL!
This poison has got the best of me.
Do all anti psychotics produce pretty much the same effects as invega?
 
Hopefuldopeful said:
Jeez dude that’s scary? How did you relapse? I was in psychosis for 2 years before receiving proper medication. I remember some months I was completely normal and some months I would just go insane. I’m hoping that evidence states that it was drug induced psychosis and not a lifelong schizophrenia. Since then I’ve been fine 7 months off of the shot. I would take a less hardcore medication if my symptoms returned. I honestly don’t think they will in the same fashion at least. I no longer believe in God, angels, energy, meditation, all that bullshit. I notice you’re from Saudi Arabia right? Man get a girlfriend. My gf is Pakistani and she’s so fucking fine I love desi women. She helped me through Invega and psychosis and now that I’m normal again I am able to love her and sexually please her. Life it good as long as I don’t relapse.
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You seem to be a good looking person yourself with your personality in the forums. You seemed to have high confidence which I use to and having high confidence means you feel good about yourself. I wish to have my mania back without the psychosis. I hope god relieves me from this nightmare and rewards me with my life back before the shot. You’re lucky to be recovered. Congratulations for winning this ultimate test. I hope to see some improvements soon. I’m giving up everyday. My body is too lazy to move. But anyway I’m going to try to sleep which I don’t know if I do sleep or just close my eyes.
 
Fodium said:
Sending out hope and positivity to everyone struggling through this nightmare. We're all going through this together and we are all fighting the same miserable fight. Let's be encouraged by others that recovery is possible and we will get back to our former selves. This pain and misery will become a thing of the past, we just have to be strong and endure this suffering for a time. Remember, "this too shall pass".
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I hope it past soon. Being 3 months off is unbearable everyday. 3 days ago I had energy to play with my kids but the last two days I’ve manage to lay around and can’t get off the couch. I guess I’m only having waves everyday. I mean wow I can’t even shower. Tomorrow I hope I can manage to play with my kids but I doubt it. I feel I’m getting worst. Does that mean the poison is getting coming out more in my body? I’m confused about the way I feel now than a couple of days ago.
I was able to watch a movie today, but I didn’t enjoy it. I’m hoping next month I’ll have energy at least to get up and do things.
 
Sbar25 said:
What does god want from me??
Life is a bad trip and invega has made it a
About 1000x harder and scarier.
I want to feel better one day everyday I life in denial of what is going on things are getting
Difficult. I believe in God because of sleep paralysis expierence but I WANT TO HEAL!
This poison has got the best of me.
Do all anti psychotics produce pretty much the same effects as invega?
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Nooooooooooo invega is the worst antipsychotic drug ever created by man. I promise you invega is the devils drug of choice for us. Trust me invega is deadly, so remember stay awaaaaayyyyy from it. I can’t imagine going threw invega again no way in hell will I go threw this again. By god I hope he heals us. Please help us God.
 
Paula10 said:
I hope it past soon. Being 3 months off is unbearable everyday. 3 days ago I had energy to play with my kids but the last two days I’ve manage to lay around and can’t get off the couch. I guess I’m only having waves everyday. I mean wow I can’t even shower. Tomorrow I hope I can manage to play with my kids but I doubt it. I feel I’m getting worst. Does that mean the poison is getting coming out more in my body? I’m confused about the way I feel now than a couple of days ago.
I was able to watch a movie today, but I didn’t enjoy it. I’m hoping next month I’ll have energy at least to get up and do things.
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The first 3 months for me were unbearable. I wanted to commit suicide many of those days. I didn’t have energy for anything. I laid down trying to attempt to entertain myself with Netflix but it gave no relief. My sister didn’t bother me too much since we were just chilling. But I spend 6 days in a row not working, then one day I’d have the minimum energy to work. I didn’t pay any bills. I just sat in my room for hours on end doing nothing. Except the feeling of nothingness eating me alive. I contemplated how can anyone take this medication. This is horrible how it makes you feel. Sometimes I did wish as well to experience mild psychosis and just eventually get pills, rather that than being injected with something that messes with your personality and your body in extreme ways. It wasn’t the fat that I gained that was the worst part for me. It was the hormones, before Invega I would go to tha gym. I was very built and I ran a lot of days. Very athletic. Ever since Invega that life is gone. Not even thinking about working out. Thankfully for me I ended up losing the weight anyway. I’m 22 and my appetite is small and my metabolism is high once again I get lost the weight by eating less. No special diet. I asked my girlfriend if I’m too skinny and she says yes it looks like I’ve gotten skinnier since taking Invega. I used to have slightly man boobs and a gut. Now I almost have abs again although I don’t ever experience mania but I’m thankful for that. My mood is generally stable and I no longer cry. But I like a stable mood over being manic.
 
before Invega Sustenna you take life for granted, as in, its just normal, life is just normal its hard to take for granted someething we have never expierenced losing
Invega strips away life it feels like. I used to be so with it and my life felt good, with one injection its like life has turned into a horror movie or something.
I desperatly want to believe these effects are just the drug but how? how is this a drug? it feels evil. They block your dopamine so you wont have any problems
but in the meantime completely destroy your soul in the process. I want to desperatly believe things will go back to normal after the drug wears off but its like how?
it feel like once the drug does the damage the damage is done I want to believe the brian can re balance itself without the poision I am having a hard time who has gotten
off that went back to their normal life?
cause life on invega isnt worth it everyday just drags on feeling disgusting waiting to go to sleep. I WANT TO BELIEVE! I bellive I will recover right now it just seems impossible.
Maybe in a year, Maybe in 2 years. I dont care how long it takes I just want to feel like i did in my Youth and am scared I may never. Time will tell i guess.
 
Hopefuldopeful said:
The first 3 months for me were unbearable. I wanted to commit suicide many of those days. I didn’t have energy for anything. I laid down trying to attempt to entertain myself with Netflix but it gave no relief. My sister didn’t bother me too much since we were just chilling. But I spend 6 days in a row not working, then one day I’d have the minimum energy to work. I didn’t pay any bills. I just sat in my room for hours on end doing nothing. Except the feeling of nothingness eating me alive. I contemplated how can anyone take this medication. This is horrible how it makes you feel. Sometimes I did wish as well to experience mild psychosis and just eventually get pills, rather that than being injected with something that messes with your personality and your body in extreme ways. It wasn’t the fat that I gained that was the worst part for me. It was the hormones, before Invega I would go to tha gym. I was very built and I ran a lot of days. Very athletic. Ever since Invega that life is gone. Not even thinking about working out. Thankfully for me I ended up losing the weight anyway. I’m 22 and my appetite is small and my metabolism is high once again I get lost the weight by eating less. No special diet. I asked my girlfriend if I’m too skinny and she says yes it looks like I’ve gotten skinnier since taking Invega. I used to have slightly man boobs and a gut. Now I almost have abs again although I don’t ever experience mania but I’m thankful for that. My mood is generally stable and I no longer cry. But I like a stable mood over being manic.
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At least you are back in the land of the living. It sucks being like this everyday. Every morning I wake up hoping for a change but hasn’t seen anything yet.
 
Hopefuldopeful said:
The first 3 months for me were unbearable. I wanted to commit suicide many of those days. I didn’t have energy for anything. I laid down trying to attempt to entertain myself with Netflix but it gave no relief. My sister didn’t bother me too much since we were just chilling. But I spend 6 days in a row not working, then one day I’d have the minimum energy to work. I didn’t pay any bills. I just sat in my room for hours on end doing nothing. Except the feeling of nothingness eating me alive. I contemplated how can anyone take this medication. This is horrible how it makes you feel. Sometimes I did wish as well to experience mild psychosis and just eventually get pills, rather that than being injected with something that messes with your personality and your body in extreme ways. It wasn’t the fat that I gained that was the worst part for me. It was the hormones, before Invega I would go to tha gym. I was very built and I ran a lot of days. Very athletic. Ever since Invega that life is gone. Not even thinking about working out. Thankfully for me I ended up losing the weight anyway. I’m 22 and my appetite is small and my metabolism is high once again I get lost the weight by eating less. No special diet. I asked my girlfriend if I’m too skinny and she says yes it looks like I’ve gotten skinnier since taking Invega. I used to have slightly man boobs and a gut. Now I almost have abs again although I don’t ever experience mania but I’m thankful for that. My mood is generally stable and I no longer cry. But I like a stable mood over being manic.
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Are you athletic again? Are you superhuman? Do you feel extremely good? I mean I was all of these things before the shot.
 
Hopefuldopeful said:
Jeez dude that’s scary? How did you relapse? I was in psychosis for 2 years before receiving proper medication. I remember some months I was completely normal and some months I would just go insane. I’m hoping that evidence states that it was drug induced psychosis and not a lifelong schizophrenia. Since then I’ve been fine 7 months off of the shot. I would take a less hardcore medication if my symptoms returned. I honestly don’t think they will in the same fashion at least. I no longer believe in God, angels, energy, meditation, all that bullshit. I notice you’re from Saudi Arabia right? Man get a girlfriend. My gf is Pakistani and she’s so fucking fine I love desi women. She helped me through Invega and psychosis and now that I’m normal again I am able to love her and sexually please her. Life it good as long as I don’t relapse.
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Have a look at "Brief Psychotic Disorder" I think that is what I actually have. I only get psychosis when I get really excited or something terrible happens to me. I don't think I'm schizo-affective because I can go med-free for a long time. I think there's nothing wrong with believing in God because it can help with recovery. Having faith in God can make you a stronger person. If I wasn't religious I probably wouldn't be alive right now because I wouldn't be able to handle the pain.
 
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