I thought I was special to. I swear I did. I would have died for god in a second. Now I don’t know what to believe. I just want to be normal with energy.
Hey do you have loads of energy?? Motivation?? Confidence?? Then you lose all the weight?? Metabolism come back high?? Ugh I just need to know
Everything comes back. However, with regards to confidence, remember that you
were a victim of forced drugging, so that might affect you as a traumatic experience, in which case it will have a brutal effect on your concentration and learning (as it did for me). but keep your head up. Do not give up.
Since someone mentioned court orders I believe I ought to tell you, they'll be biased juries so try hard to avoid them. However, if the choice is between voluntary injection and court order, definitely go to court if you can afford it, but with a good lawyer.
Also, give them absolutely no material evidence that you're a threat to yourself/others. Remember that under the UN Conventions for the treatment of the mentally ill, a previous history of mental disorders/hospitalizations
does not warrant a present judgment. If detained by law enforcement refuse to speak unless you go to court first. If you say anything to either the ER staff or the police officers, they will misrepresent it in their files such that you will wind up getting hospitalized. Say absolutely nothing, only identify yourself to the police. This way when they go to court they have as little information on you as possible and can only look at former files. You could give a written statement to the doctors as well as tell the judge that you're not suicidal and never told the doctors or police so.