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Xorkoth said:
Gabapentin can only absorb about 300-400mg every 30-45 minutes. It absorbs better with food, especially fats, unlike most drugs. It absorbs via an amino acid transporter in the small intestine. So taking 300mg every 30-45 minutes is best, if you take more you end up shitting a lot of it out unabsorbed. I can get a nice high from 600-900mg, 1200mg gets me good. I don't take it too often to keep tolerance down. The effects don't start for like 90 minutes and peak around 3 hours in. The high is way different than benzos, not many similarities. You remain very functional. It can be rather euphoric, stimulating yet relaxing, really good mood, talkative. It's subtle in a way but very nice.



I am too, but I haven't really found the off button.
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This must be why I never got much out of it, I'd take like 2g at once.
 
Xorkoth said:
I am too, but I haven't really found the off button.
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You're smart, you're a good observer and can build a decent perspective. You'll get there if you want to. I think because I was so incredibly sensitive to others emotional states and excessively, involuntarily, capable of inhabiting their minds and the ways they think and feel from such a young age and in such accurate and uncanny detail, I eventually figured out how to tune out and turn it down. I'm not completely unaffected when 'off', but I'm detached enough that I can allow other thoughts and decisions to interrupt whatever innate response I'd normally be experiencing and to choose how to react more logically and dispassionately. It did take lots of emotional crises though, at least for me.
 
schizopath said:
You were on my antisocial radar back when you joined.

With psychopathy like attracts like.
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I have the ability to turn empathy off and on. As a young adult, I was extremely empathetic, but that was because I chose to be, although I did not realize that at the time. What they said about holding doors for people resonated within me. I buy food for the homeless or give them cash, hold doors, treat service workers with kindness, because I like to believe I'm a good person. If I found myself in an apocalyptic or life threatening situation, however, I would have no problem doing what I had to do to survive.

You may be onto something. I have always been more attracted to the antisocial.
 
CFC said:
You're smart, you're a good observer and can build a decent perspective. You'll get there if you want to. I think because I was so incredibly sensitive to others emotional states and excessively, involuntarily, capable of inhabiting their minds and the ways they think and feel from such a young age and in such accurate and uncanny detail, I eventually figured out how to tune out and turn it down. I'm not completely unaffected when 'off', but I'm detached enough that I can allow other thoughts and decisions to interrupt whatever innate response I'd normally be experiencing and to choose how to react more logically and dispassionately. It did take lots of emotional crises though, at least for me.
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When I think about it I've certainly come a long way in being able to separate myself and not always bend to the will of people who try to bend me, since I was a kid. But it's still hard sometimes.
 
schizopath said:
So its propably from violent psychopaths. I have read some studies that say that succesfull and violent psychopaths differ. I wouldnt normally care myself but I guess it feeds my ego.
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Not to get into a psychological pissing contest but maybe you're thinking more of a narcissist. All psychopaths are narcissistic but not all narcissists are psychopaths.
 
LadyAlkaline said:
I have the ability to turn empathy off and on. As a young adult, I was extremely empathetic, but that was because I chose to be, although I did not realize that at the time. What they said about holding doors for people resonated within me. I buy food for the homeless or give them cash, hold doors, treat service workers with kindness, because I like to believe I'm a good person. If I found myself in an apocalyptic or life threatening situation, however, I would have no problem doing what I had to do to survive.

You may be onto something. I have always been more attracted to the antisocial.
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Wow, I was too. I still "feel" bad when I see people suffer. Maybe not exactly feel but lets say useless pain is not preferable, so I dont like it.

Agreed.
 
LadyAlkaline said:
I have the ability to turn empathy off and on. As a young adult, I was extremely empathetic, but that was because I chose to be, although I did not realize that at the time. What they said about holding doors for people resonated within me. I buy food for the homeless or give them cash, hold doors, treat service workers with kindness, because I like to believe I'm a good person. If I found myself in an apocalyptic or life threatening situation, however, I would have no problem doing what I had to do to survive.

You may be onto something. I have always been more attracted to the antisocial.
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sound like a normal person to me.
 
I definitely have emotions for others but when I do they are intense and unable to be ignored. If I don't then I am as cold as ice. I'm not so into labels as I think they make us oversimplify ourselves, but I think Borderline is something I struggle with. On top of being an incurable asshole.
 
I don't think I'm a psychopath, because at the end of the day I am not predatory in nature. I will not step on others to catapult myself ahead in life because it is not in my nature. I tend to fight my inital urge to help people at times because I have to remember to take care of myself first. I am very good at reading others emotions and I feel emotions acutely.
 
LadyAlkaline said:
I don't think I'm a psychopath, because at the end of the day I am not predatory in nature. I will not step on others to catapult myself ahead in life because it is not in my nature. I tend to fight my inital urge to help people at times because I have to remember to take care of myself first. I am very good at reading others emotions and I feel emotions acutely.
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Psychopaths dont need to be predatory in nature. Ive been predatory in the past and sometimes act that way but I stopped it for the most part when I understood its wrong.

What if the shaman etc type of people are really empathy feeling psychopaths?
 
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