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Sex + Drugs Meth & Sex Megathread

tracedwards313 said:
I would masturbate for like 3 days straight. Literally. I would watch porn and jack off for hours on end and I had the most intense orgasm known to man haha. Then I would do another shot of meth and just get right back too it, with absolutely no recovery time and it was not a problem. I would repeat this cycle (if my schedule allowed) until any thought of sex/porn had absolute no intrest to me, usually around 3 days and between maybe 6-50 orgasms. I would stop using, come down and back into the real world and think "wtf would people think if they knew what I just spend the last 3 days doing" lol

I did a lot of far out sexual stuff on meth but this happened many times and often came with regret, shame, and disgust once the marathon ended. I sometimes felt like a nasty sexually deviant loser after I came down but I didnt dwell on it.

It was obviously fucking ridiculous and not a life anyone should seek out or attempt to maintain. As time passed, my meth use became based solely about sexual gratification. There was absolutely nothing of interest outside of that. As you can imagine, its a very dark and twisted path once that combo takes hold. Sex becomes sinister and insatiable and really just kinda fucking sick.

People who have not done meth are incapable of understanding how or why this is an issue. Of course, sex with total strangers or masturbation that last days seems stupid and unappealing, but on meth everything changes. There was literally NOTHING I would rather do and I would avoid anything that might hinder me.

I wasted about 2 years of my life on nothing but meth and sex. At the time, I loved every fucking second of it.

Luckily, I saw the proverbial "writing on the wall" and understood that what lay ahead on that path, wasnt for people like me. So, I made a drastic lifestyle change.

It has changed me in some ways im sure, but after enough time away from that whole shit show, my true self came back and I eventually realized, it was the fucking drugs and not ME. Which was a relief because meth fucks everthing up more than many people understand and I wasnt sure who I was at that time.

My advice, if you use meth and wish to continue to do so with any level of normalcy, dont allow yourself to fixate on sex. Its not cool.

When I hear someone say that meth doesn't affect their sex drive, my first thought is "why would you use it then?" 😂 maybe they are lucky?? Personally, meth without sex seems like a big pain in the dick for nothing. Lol
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What sort of sexual things did you do with people on meth? Or that was so far out sexually?

A gay friend of mine during the height of the AIDS pandemic went out after not sleeping for a day or two on meth and had unprotected anal sex as giver in public with some random stranger and did not care who saw them. He was shocked that he was not infected with HIV or any other diseases.
 
For me, meth turned me into a primordial caveman driven by carnal desire and self indulgence. My moral compass wasnt gone but it had no use to me. I was driven by personal gratification and fullfilment. Its difficult to describe the state of mind accurately, it can even be paradoxical in a way. Almost like, a intensely supercharged, animalistic confusion that is simultaneously fused with a sharp mental clarity and unshakable self confidence.

Basically, social acceptable behaviour was not relevant and my desire to remain within the "box" of social decency disappeared. Of course, I still knew what I was doing and any an outside perspective would be unremarkable. Everything external would appear normal, while internally it was like a tornado was ass raping a volcano, while an earthquake was pushing for a front from a hurricane that he still owed money......ok idk wtf I am even talking about! 🤣😂😃 Im a little high and let it ride lol

Anyway, I acted without fear, remorse and my normal inhibition was just gone. Thankfully, I am genuinely a nice guy and have never harbored evil in my heart or ill will against my fellow man. This was a huge blessing! Otherwise, the danger of something terrible, violent, or evil would have been amplified and unrestricted by my normal personal morality. Anything in my path was vulnerable to a certain extent. Meth can make anyone dangerous considering paranoid delusions and intensified emotional issues are par for the fucking course. However, my desire was always centered around gratification, mostly sexual activity with women. I was extremely lucky because it was just LUCK that I never did anything to result in extreme emotional turmoil that cant be forgotten or worse.

I have seen first hand the repercussions of unrestrained meth fueled actions and its terrifying how close anyone can be to, in a moment, destroying multiple lives, families, your future and all for nothing! Left to exsist as a pitiful excuse of life. ....i digress


The sex was fucking mind blowing!! Unlike any other sex . Its very uninhibited and can get wild...but its EXTREMELY dependant on your partner. Its hard to find a girl who matches your individual level, like normal sex but multiplied and divided until you just have some weird ass fraction lol

Men easily get frustrated with performance issues but 99% of the time it is a problem is caused by the guys "lack of understanding" about how his body going to respond sexually. Its a 100% different game on meth and any fool using what he has done his whole life is doomed...to a miserable, frustration that can result in serious damage if left to his own mind lol.

A quick sex/masturbation tip for anyone having troubles--------

1. SLOW THE FUCK DOWN. Breaking this rule is like starting a race on an empty tank of gas. 0% chance of success is what you are trying to avoid here! Lol

2. You have to be in a relatively healthy sexual state prior to getting high. Imagine how you felt prior to dosing meth. Where you is a state were you could have easily preformed sexually?? If not, dont waste you time "beat a dead horse" aka your cock!

3. Accept that your erection will likely come and go throughout the trip. Its normal and the harder you try to force anything, the worse things will get. RELAX (its not easy, but its not impossible) remember your cock is the one footing the bill!


I gotta stop here. Im gotta be rambling at this point but idk. Im high.
 
Definitely agree, it depends on ...the day i guess lol. But I have had times that iI was past frustration and once I stop watching porn and using my imagination it got hard immediately. Personally, I watching porn can sometimes cause to much distraction for your brain and it fucks with the rhythm that is critical in these situations.
 
Like many people my fantasies are different when im high. Im more interested in deviant sex. Nothing too crazy but I have definitely got off to fantansies that I would have never considered sober.

Occasionally iIl come up with some oddly specific fantasy that I have make up on the spot and it just sticks really good but after its over they are rarely recyclable, it can happen but fresh made doesnt seem to last as well as the longer term, realistic ones.

One weird thing is sometimes I have fantasies that involve specific people I know, in specific roles but Im not in the fantasy at all. And sometimes it sticks more than when Im at least in the fantasy lol
 
schizopath said:
Yeah, imagination is important. I honestly think that if you cant orgasm without porn you should start cutting it down.
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I dont even watch porn anymore if im not high. Not out of a desire to stop either. I think i over did porn on meth and its just not as interesting as when i was younger, Im 29 now. I still masturbate sober but without porn 99% of the time.
 
Nice man. I assume its way healthier. I personally overdid porn in my teens and was unable to orgasm without it and just started cutting it out.

I really dont even change when Im high on meth or amphs. My tastes havent changed, except after my first "gay-psychosis" when I started hallucinating after too much stims, in like 10 years nearly at all. MILFS ARE STILL THE SHIT!
 
schizopath said:
Nice man. I assume its way healthier. I personally overdid porn in my teens and was unable to orgasm without it and just started cutting it out.

I really dont even change when Im high on meth or amphs. My tastes havent changed, except after my first "gay-psychosis" when I started hallucinating after too much stims, in like 10 years nearly at all. MILFS ARE STILL THE SHIT!
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I would love to hear it! What was your "gay-psychosis"? I can imagine it going a couple different ways lol how bad was it?

I have had to deal with a couple pretty sever meth psychosises. That shit changed my life in ways far beyond anything I can easily put into words. Its fascinating to me and I always love a good psychosis story! Lol

My most intense psychosis was so intense that its hard to talk about in real life, even to meth users, because its fucking crazy that any attempt to tell the story makes me sounds nuts to the the majority of humans. It was so far beyond anything I thought was possible in this life, that it changed my understanding of, Ill just say, certain things lol while it was easily the most terrifying experience in my life, the way i view it now is more as a gift bestowed on me, not for the purpose of explaining to others but to simply appreciate the opurtunity to go through an experience that almost no humans have and come out on the other side with no real long term damage.
 
tracedwards313 said:
I would love to hear it! What was your "gay-psychosis"? I can imagine it going a couple different ways lol how bad was it?
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Well first of all I have always appreciated good looking men. And I was doing some pretty fucking pure amphetamine with a good looking friend. However I overdid it and when we got back I started hallucinating and saying stuff like "fuck me". I had some similar gayish experiences from my childhood and I guess I remembered them all back then. So kind of it awakened my sexuality also to men.
 
That doesnt sound like a bad thing at all! At least in the way you said it. So, did the experience ulitmately benefit your sexual identity? If so thats probably most beneficial gain I have heard.

Im curious, what made it a psychosis for you? Did the halluinations cause you to disconnect from reality or did you perhaps on a subconscious level just want to have sex with your friend?

I have learned a lot about psychosis since my experience. Both on the clinical and the experience side. I was surpised to learn how many people report long term positive personal growth as a direct result of their psychosis. Of course thats not always the case. Many times people report finding some level of clarity relating to a specific significant issue in their life, that otherwise remained unresolved.

I was lucky to be one of those people and the positive understanding I gained was and still is the most important thing I have ever "learned". It sounds crazy but its true. It wasnt simply knowledge, it was the ability to internalize a concept that had been nearly impossible to grasp on my own, due to certain belief and personal hang ups, which basically blocked my ego from accepting as truth. Leaving me stuck from moving forward.

It felt to good to be true and random luck couldnt ever be reasonable as an explaination. It is clear to me that what I experienced was by every definition a "hallucination" but I know without a shred of doubt that it was "real" it was real in a way that is not easily understood to most people. It didnt exsist with the realm we reside but it it happened to me, specifically me, because it was meant to be exactly as it was.

My glimpse into a world that seems crazy to most humans opened my mind to something I could have never allowed myself to believe in. I have always needed proof and even then remained skeptical to the truth of man.

Sorry for the random rant lol it isnt easy to explain and perhaps always will remain that way. But the lessons I have realized and thoughts I have entertained as a result of my experience, by themselves made it worthwhile for me.

And this bullshit I just wrote about is not even a fraction of what happened. Like I said, it has changed my life beyond words and my feeble attempt to portray it into a "sane" world is laughable. But I know just how special it all is. 😁😃😎
 
Well at the same time I feel like it was the start of my schizophrenia but other than that yeah Im thankful of the experience. And I completely agree that psychosis can be beneficial. Ive read about it alot too.

I was completely out of it. I was still in a psychosis in the next day so I guess it started my schizophrenia..
 
That was a huge fear I had to deal with and had a legitimate fear, for a number days that I could have possible caused schizophrenia and would never return to normal. I wad lucky and had no long term effects but its fucking crazy how much meth psychosis mirrors schizophrenia, that basically what it is in an acute and intense form.

I would say it definitely had an role in your development. How bad does it affect your life? Is it manageable within reason?

I have read threads you talked a little about it a while ago but Im curious of the degree its has impacted your life.

Now, my threshold into psychosis is massively diminished. A fraction of what it once was. Luckily meth isnt a regular part of my life anymore so it not too bad but if I use at all i will experience mild halluinations within a day and get worse with time and meth obviously.

My brain has obviously been damaged in some way but when I am sober I have no identifiable issues. Most people would stop all drugs considering I have escaped death and insanity multiple times. but Im not one of them haha
 
Whole autumn I had brief psychotic episodes every fucking week. I didnt have any meds back then. I currently take lowest possible zyprexa and lowest depakote dose and they help but make me sleepwalk.

So autumn was a bad time for me but currently Im doing good. It only impacts my life in a way that I try to keep the stress as low as possible.

Yeah, me neither. I love drugs but I have calmed down with them and stopped the use of the worst ones for me. Im not happy that Im schizophrenic but Im really not complaining. I got shit in order now and doing fairly good.

I also kind of recognize if I get psychotic nowadays so I guess I have learned how to deal with it.
 
tracedwards313 said:
For me, meth turned me into a primordial caveman driven by carnal desire and self indulgence. My moral compass wasnt gone but it had no use to me. I was driven by personal gratification and fullfilment. Its difficult to describe the state of mind accurately, it can even be paradoxical in a way. Almost like, a intensely supercharged, animalistic confusion that is simultaneously fused with a sharp mental clarity and unshakable self confidence.

Basically, social acceptable behaviour was not relevant and my desire to remain within the "box" of social decency disappeared. Of course, I still knew what I was doing and any an outside perspective would be unremarkable. Everything external would appear normal, while internally it was like a tornado was ass raping a volcano, while an earthquake was pushing for a front from a hurricane that he still owed money......ok idk wtf I am even talking about! 🤣😂😃 Im a little high and let it ride lol

Anyway, I acted without fear, remorse and my normal inhibition was just gone. Thankfully, I am genuinely a nice guy and have never harbored evil in my heart or ill will against my fellow man. This was a huge blessing! Otherwise, the danger of something terrible, violent, or evil would have been amplified and unrestricted by my normal personal morality. Anything in my path was vulnerable to a certain extent. Meth can make anyone dangerous considering paranoid delusions and intensified emotional issues are par for the fucking course. However, my desire was always centered around gratification, mostly sexual activity with women. I was extremely lucky because it was just LUCK that I never did anything to result in extreme emotional turmoil that cant be forgotten or worse.

I have seen first hand the repercussions of unrestrained meth fueled actions and its terrifying how close anyone can be to, in a moment, destroying multiple lives, families, your future and all for nothing! Left to exsist as a pitiful excuse of life. ....i digress


The sex was fucking mind blowing!! Unlike any other sex . Its very uninhibited and can get wild...but its EXTREMELY dependant on your partner. Its hard to find a girl who matches your individual level, like normal sex but multiplied and divided until you just have some weird ass fraction lol

Men easily get frustrated with performance issues but 99% of the time it is a problem is caused by the guys "lack of understanding" about how his body going to respond sexually. Its a 100% different game on meth and any fool using what he has done his whole life is doomed...to a miserable, frustration that can result in serious damage if left to his own mind lol.

A quick sex/masturbation tip for anyone having troubles--------

1. SLOW THE FUCK DOWN. Breaking this rule is like starting a race on an empty tank of gas. 0% chance of success is what you are trying to avoid here! Lol

2. You have to be in a relatively healthy sexual state prior to getting high. Imagine how you felt prior to dosing meth. Where you is a state were you could have easily preformed sexually?? If not, dont waste you time "beat a dead horse" aka your cock!

3. Accept that your erection will likely come and go throughout the trip. Its normal and the harder you try to force anything, the worse things will get. RELAX (its not easy, but its not impossible) remember your cock is the one footing the bill!


I gotta stop here. Im gotta be rambling at this point but idk. Im high.
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So what did you do sexually with women, men, or whoever?
 
tracedwards313 said:
I would love to hear it! What was your "gay-psychosis"? I can imagine it going a couple different ways lol how bad was it?

I have had to deal with a couple pretty sever meth psychosises. That shit changed my life in ways far beyond anything I can easily put into words. Its fascinating to me and I always love a good psychosis story! Lol

My most intense psychosis was so intense that its hard to talk about in real life, even to meth users, because its fucking crazy that any attempt to tell the story makes me sounds nuts to the the majority of humans. It was so far beyond anything I thought was possible in this life, that it changed my understanding of, Ill just say, certain things lol while it was easily the most terrifying experience in my life, the way i view it now is more as a gift bestowed on me, not for the purpose of explaining to others but to simply appreciate the opurtunity to go through an experience that almost no humans have and come out on the other side with no real long term damage.
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so what happened when you went into psychosis from meth?
 
schizopath said:
Nice man. I assume its way healthier. I personally overdid porn in my teens and was unable to orgasm without it and just started cutting it out.

I really dont even change when Im high on meth or amphs. My tastes havent changed, except after my first "gay-psychosis" when I started hallucinating after too much stims, in like 10 years nearly at all. MILFS ARE STILL THE SHIT!
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Did you go into meth psychosis thinking you are bisexual or gay?
 
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