WHAT
we walk streets of gold... they just covered with bullshit
oh m god
ptahtek
i shot my load this morning
it was... mind blowingly epic
brb corona virus
i'm telling captain
lul
he says don't do it the other cpt's know what's up
the self is ever changing and ever self-sabotaging
brb CORONA VIRUS
satan sure do know how to put a package together
btw i was advised NOT to hit him i.e. 2019 up and I'm like, oh, yeah.... I see how it is? Because I knew the advice was right and then I was like "...thank you for being honest," because NO ONE ELSE will be with me
HE JUST USIN ME
I think MAL and MADNESS were honest w/ me
most ppl don't wanna share the truth
so my heart done moved on jerry springer style
flauntin my shit off goin home w/ the sexiest mofo there yea i'm young and i am not gonna live forever so I'm gonna WORK IT while I've GOT IT. Because it looks nice and I know the DOGGOS stare.
I even catch wind of people full on staring at my D
yes it happens
yeah
i got the keystone virus when i was hangin with the fellas mon afternoon
fuckin felt like shit
sweatin
cant sleep
just irritable
i busted off, too. it was majestic
love
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btw I made the joke
that I've made here
to my friends irl
and like
it goes somethin like this
she sayin like she bein offered 350-700 for a date and she bein like "oh no I don't take cash but you're low-ballin if you are goin there" and so I go
man life would be easier if I was born with a vagina
this sailor only needs $100 a night to get right and sometimes just a visit to the taco truck
my 3 friends ROLLED laughing.
SOMETIMES A VISIT TO THE TACO TRUCK IS ALL THIS CPT NEEDS
yea u want this lovin'
REAL WHITE PPL PROBLEMS (1st worlders white ppl problems time)
I haven't eaten in over 24 hours other than toast and sketti
and I don't really FEEL the need to eat but I like
I know I'm hungry
and I have a fuckin' bangin ass body and am finally healthy weight again
do I taper OFF the food or keep eating 6000 calories a day and fucking the pain away?
I NEED ANSWERS
apologies to mal for quad posting
i been away from keyboard
manic af
maybe got 3 hours of on/off sleep
WAS THE ONLY ONE UNABLE TO SLEEP you DO NOT know what it is LIKE until you are INSIDE THE TORMENT MACHINE
and you too will know that life as an existence is suffering
so manic and so hungry and so food and so need to not eat present and it hurts IT HURTS
WHITE PPL PROBLEMS ROUND 2 (Only in Merrka Version)
i just realized it's like... after noon
on a week day
and it's 2020 not 2019
and I don't know how I got here
all i remember is
how good last night's sex was
2019 sex which I miss AND AM GOING TO NOT CONTACT yea suck on THESE tits for once BITCH
how good yesterday was minus epic hearing/memory problems DO LESS DRUGS IT'LL GET YOU HIGHER and WEAR EARPLUGS WHEN AT THE CLUB DOGGOS
I NEED TO CHECK MYSELF BEFORE I WRECK MYSELF
pining over 2019 and wanting his ass and taking a lot of benzos then dxm to numb the pain when the benzos became infeasible
and that's how I got here
that's my story
my name is memphis and I like to eat booty
i want someone who wants to burn out and die young like me and kurt cobain and courtney love
minus the methadone clinics that shit's for suckers
focusing on yourself first
EVERYONE IS TELLING ME THIS and I HATE MYSELF and INTEND TO WASTE MYSELF AT THE END OF LIFE are you KIDDING ME
sorry
sorry
you're just trying to help
and these are the borderline things I can't say around my friends because THEY CANNOT KNOW THE DEPTHS OF A SICK MIND like I do
If you just meant you don't want any ties then my apologies, and there is nothing wrong with that either, except for the cold beds and lonely nights.
I LIKE FALLING ASLEEP ALONE I SLEEP BETTER THAT WAY LIKE YOUR WARM BODY FALLING ASLEEP FIRST DISTURBS ME LET ME HEAR YOU SNORING LIKE 6-12 FEET AWAY THAT'S AS CLOSE AS I FEEL COMFORTED
I'LL SLEEP ON YOUR FLOOR
THEN FUCK YOU AWAKE IF WE'RE THE ONLY 2 INSIDE WHEN WIFEY GONE
OR SUCK YOUR D CASUAL STYLE IF SHE STILL SLEEPING IT OFF
i'm not the brother you take home to your mother
because she'll be staring at my d and you'll know why
OTHER PEOPLE ARE HELL BECAUSE HUMAN BEHAVIOR IS ENTIRELY PREDETERMINED and I AM ONLY AT COMFORT at PEACE when I AM ALONE with GOOD COUNTRY FLAVORS IN MY STOMACH and I CAN SCREAM in THE MIDDLE OF NATURE
HAIL SATAN
because there is no god and it's just as illogical as saying that god is dead
actually I meant to say
I WANT A SUGAR DADDY
who can TREAT ME RIGHT in the daylight/nighttime don't take up too much of my time
be my age
work for it, I don't want to have to unless I'm contributing to a society I believe in and MY FRIEND SAID THE SAME THING TODAY AND I WAS LIKE I FUCKING LOVE YOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU
and like
don't drink all my beer without me putting down a BYOB policy after the first few cases gone
because I won't be a sucker for long
this isn't a country and western song
this is my fuckin LIFE
and it's fucking disgusting
and it's nasty
it's suffering
and it's sexy as fuck
yeah you want WIFEY you'll have to work for that too because i'm a man and i'm gonna do most of the fuckin i set that shit in pace
i don't let time go to waste
life is very long but you don't stay young forever
life does get better and better
but you gotta work out to look strong
when the beard hairs start to turn grey
and all the doggos starin at my D half gay
I can't help it
I didn't ask for none of this
But I do find myself in nirvana sometimes, it's fuckin bliss
I can show you the way
Every day
I know a cool place to relax and stretch your legs out if you know how to WORK IT
and if you don't know how to I have a friend who can teach you in less than 1 minute to TWERK IT
that's the kind of crew I roll with
because rolling isn't fun alone
or with losers
or with 24 an hour a day alcohol abusers
you gotta know when to show up pre-gamed
and when to show up sober
and when to do a line and eat a fig
instead of loading up another 1ml rig
you gotta know if they're down with it
if they've played the bit
that was me channelling MADNESS, HAIL SATAN
I think I need to put that in the LOVE thread in WORDS
because that was right