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Jeff bezos has a very shiny head.
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lol

IMAGINE HAVING TO PAY FOR SEX
hahahahaha
fuck that shit

oh god I'm so mindwheeling too quick BLOW i need to get my D sucked a little more
it's this
god
damn
lack of benzos in my system
alcohol doesn't substitute well it just fucks me up like well
YEA
when you MINDWHEEL so quick that doggos can only get on your CAROUSEL for a little while before your D spins out of control inside of them and they're like "ok i need a break"

haha

mofos can't keep up with SHADY
 
i'm the real slim shady
and i'm shady's father
i don't need an alt it's just who I am
brought his crazy ass into existence somehow
a dream inside of a dream
oh god when I'm dreaming that's probably what MINDWHEELS shady
oh god
i think I know the part of myself that I hate and why I want to stay awake 10000000000000000000000000000000000% of the time
 
KEEP USING THE PSYCHEDELICS FOR CPTCPT GUYS I NEED YALL TO STAY TRIPPED <3

OH MY GOD I'M SO OUT OF IT

AND I NEED TO STOP MYSELF AND I HAVE STOPPED MYSELF BUT i KIND OF FEEL LIKE I NEED MY D SUCKED OR STUCK IN A HOLE AGAIN I HAVE TO DO SOMETHING WITH THIS ENERGY AND TYPING ON BL IS NOT LIKE THE MOST PRODUCTIVE THING I'VE DONE A LOT OF CLEANING AND I DON'T WANT TO IMAGINE THIS IS BENZO WD BUT IT PROBABLY IS YOU GUYS
I TOUCH MY PILLS AND I CRY
LOL
HAHAHAHAHAHA AND I LAUGH AT MY DISGRACE LIKE IT'S A HILARIOUS JOKE BECAUSE IT KIND OF IS
[GODHATESmeandwants me dead but i am coolwithit]
this is my beautiful show and I'm shot in slow motion
the doggos can't bork as quick as me unless it's BREMKAT on a massive amount of cocaine
madness is a doggo who can bork as quick as me but he normally manifests his energy in a different quantum spin and i like his mindwheel
he's probably busy getting a free meal from a tinder sugarmomma 10 years his senior as we speak [THAT'S HOT]
meanwhile mal is pounding shots of liquor just like DG <LOVE YOU GUYS>
and I'm coming off the BENZOS lol NEED BENZOS NEED HYPNOTICS WHY DON'T DOCTORS UNDERSTAND MY PSYCHOGENIC PAIN
maybe i go get a passport and go get out of this shitworldcountry nazi state to where you can just go to a pharmacist and they'll take half a second looking at me and start throwing LORMETAZEPAM at me like PAPA NEEDS or TEMAZEPAM or TIRAZOLAM neccisito BENZODIAZEPINES AHHHHHHHHH
SAVE THE WORLD SUCK A D AND AIM FOR THE CHIN

I really fucking can't slow down I think my brain is set in a direction, deterministically and I can't get out of this position. DG thinks I can. DG believes in free will. The universe will or won't interact with you in a certain way though DG so I just have to sit idly by. There's only but so much you can do in a positive way.
And I hate myself not other people. It's odd. You think it'd be different. It's not. I'm not.

I can't even stand reading a book right now my brain is so fried. Vision disorders don't help.

WHAT HAPPENED TO EAT GO EAT FATTY btw I'm actually "healthy weight again" which makes me feel so fat because i am fat. BODY ISSUES <DADDY ISSUES> my daddy issues involve being called at bed starting in my early 20's [gigglesnorts] I CAN'T STOP ahhhhhhhh mal the reason I believe in DETERMINISM is because if I HAD FREE WILL I WOULD HAVE BENZOS INSIDE OF MY BODY AND THEY ARE INCHES AWAY AHHHHHHHHHHH

you know what fuck it I can enjoy the rest of my day or I can give into temptation and enjoy the fuck out of myself for once, WHY NOT

doggos don't bork at me nightly so doggos will roam if doggos were meant to roam

and I'm not me I'm just a dead entity inside of a living being and can't be held accountable for non-actions because this is a deterministic universe

like how I knew to stop using drugs last night and go out and get ice cream

and I knew today to eat it

I couldn't stop either of those actions WILL FUCK FOR ICE CREAM
 
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IF AMERICA LOVED ME IT WOULD HAVE OTC BENZOS BRO i am STUCK like this
and my family / most people will never comprehend how badly HOW BADLY my brain needs it

maybe I'll suck a D for some long-action benzos that aren't hypnotics and then like just micro-dose them with water/preservative like the BENZOS EPISODE lady who was doing that w/ diazepam

just because this withdrawal is like, making me a terrible person in the best way possible but I really still have a deep seated death wish and it's not gonna go away over night... fuck

i would just try my hand w/ a new psychiatrist and shit but I DON'T WANT TO i am so VULNERABLE feeling I don't lIKE REALITY i like dying/falling unconscious

why are all the good downers unavailable in this nazi state WHY

dear CPT please STFU even xorky can't keep up

see I channel the universe and then it channels me in the best ways possible xorky and I'm afraid whatever I have left won't get me dissociated enough

can i just take dxm with this or will i forget most of my voyage
 
ONLY ONE WAY TO FIND OUT BORKBORKBORKBORKBOROKBORK

i got up and sat back down. I can't even. Something's wrong with me, deeply wrong. I have benzos and no desire. I have BORK and the doggos are making me sit it out for a minute. DOGGOS STOP BORKING IN MY HEAD

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I'm pretty sure my fam thinks I'm on meth when I'm like this but test my piss it's not gonna be there THIS IS SICK is this what benzo wd is like I DON'T WANT TO BE A BELIEBER OF THAT

if there weren't so many god damn cigarette smokers everywhere in public venus in vegas i'd just go hook there for money that seems totally feasible but I HATE CIGARETTE SMOKE

i'm running to the edge of the world, running running away...

DUDE maybe my life's bucket dream instead of being a RUSSIA MEMER for AMERICAN POLITICAL INFILTRATION is to go meet SB1982 in public while hooking and we'll eventually bump into a dealer and she'll be like "i shoot a ball at a time now" and I'll be like LET ME SEE YOUR STEEL DICK IN ACTION GIRL

and I'll go into a hole and totally lose my shit when she's moaning and shit and my ego will die and my perspective will shift onto her body and I'll know the sickest addiction without ever having experienced to that degree in my life

oh god

that feel when you can foresee all possible universes and you can move around in them but kind of don't want to HAHAHAHAHAHAHA
 
for the last time in a few days

because I have to "BREAK" enforced through non-havingborkers in my brain

i even have benzos, alcohol, crappy shatter bordering on bho but I don't want it

OH WAIT DAB YES I WANT A FAT DAB BEFORE MY BLAST
 
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