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Shady's Fox said:
He's the type of dude who cannot smoke outside. He's shaking and then he chokes.

He said that something flows through him, wtff
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I fucked it up by smoking in prescribed meds and then starting to taper.

If theres something flowing me then it has to bo POWER!🎠

@DopeM Once. Currently loaning my set up for a friend for his next crop.
 
mmmm. tamales anyone !
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Captain.Heroin said:
No. Clearly OTHER PEOPLE did this in MY LIFE and I suspect you are BEING HONEST.

That is all.

I'm giving you advice that is all. I sense you're honest soso.
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Thanks, advice coming from u means a lot to me, seeing as your so level headed.
 
Hylight said:
I KNOW !

RIGHT !
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hylight send fudge

i'm gonna be FUCKED this month :(

Still planning on killing myself but, honestly, I'm pretty baked now and that took care of the mild anxiety. I can't even tell yall how long it's been without benzos. I got sleep last night.

Oh my god. I get it. As I sit here and intrusive thoughts return I remember the great not-me and how I have to escape to it as soon as I can. I don't wish to be me anymore. The self is just a macro-illusion and I'm tired of playing life support system on an insufferable class clown. Maybe I can still off myself in style while life is still decent. Maybe I get over this hump. I don't really care. It's not going well and I can't deal with anything. My brain is shit. It hurts. I can't do anything. I'm totally disabled by mental disorders and I didn't get it at first how terribly bad my mind is. Such a beautiful thing like a new phone screen shattering in front of you would daze and confuse anyone and it'll take time to realize how broken you are. I am broken. I am incomplete.

I understood this about 4 to 6 months ago when my mind was snapping and I had eaten a solid mushroom dose for the first time in like 9 years. It's all snapping and coming picture clear now. Wow. You can run on a long time. Life is very long. But why bother?

Death comes in a moment. I must escape all my fears. I'm not in love. I'm in pain. I'm not in love, I'm just in pain. I know I'm not in love, this is just an expression of pain. An expression of my death. Each thing I show you is a piece of my death. Life is suffering and death is no escape. I have died countless times. RIP CH
 
Soso78 said:
I’m 42 soon so was a teen when the first raves came to uk. I was never really into it but I think they were good at the time because ecstasy was quite new and they fuelled each other. The rave scene and Es went hand in hand
bombing speed in rizzla and double dropping doves. Can feel my jaw achin just thinkin about it😂
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There needs to be a gurn emoji....

There once was a time when it was about the music, the people, the dancing, letting yourself go and seeing who/what you came back as at the end of it all. Dark rooms with the DJ barely visible and out if the fucking way, because nobody was necessarily there to see the DJ, they were there to hear the music, to feel the spirit of it.

Now it's about being seen, lasers, and bullshit. Getoffmylawn.gif
 
schizopath said:
I fucked it up by smoking in prescribed meds and then starting to taper.

If theres something flowing me then it has to bo POWER!🎠

@DopeM Once. Currently loaning my set up for a friend for his next crop.
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Good on you, im a big believer in helping others in need. Especially if you aren't using the stuff. Good luck on your next go. Any specific genetics you will be using?
 
Shady's Fox said:
Now it's about drugs, not lasers.

Drugs.
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IT WAS ALWAYS ABOUT THE DRUGS

the rest of it is just a facade because noob klub kid children never dropped the looking mirror self and I'm disgusted with them but I'm in love with it at the same time because it makes me feel YEARS better than who I am and will always have to be.

It makes me thankful for any opportunity to escape mortality and human existence at any cost.

RIP CH

? - 2020

None of my friends really understand my suicidal mind. I do. Mortality isn't a joke or something you can avoid. We are transcending from life to death. This is dying, not living. It's so freeing to know this is all a part of death and I'm so ready to just alleviate my suffering until completion in any way I see fit. And I'm like a silver bullet, and I'm like a gun: I'm not easy to hold. And I'm certain if I sit still inside of your heart that this will be the end of your life, so turn around, walk away; before we confuse the way we abuse each other...
 
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