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Bluelighter
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Hi, only my second posting here, have been very curious to know of any others that have experienced a paradoxical affect with regards to any drug, but more more specifically, any type of drug intended as a sedative. I didn't know where to post this, so hope this is ok.
For as long as I can remember, I have been impervious to any drugs with a sedating quality; Grappled with insomnia since childhood, as an adult I realized it was not normal to go two or three days without sleeping and attempted taking OTC sleep aids. Nothing. After a while, I started taking more and more, almost as an experiment; during one rather nasty 4 day insomnia bout I decided to go buy a bottle of 50 mg (twice the normal 25mg OTC) diphenhyramine and started taking a few at a time, every couple of hours.
The following morning, as I went to brush my teeth, mentally commiserating with myself yet another sleepless night, I glanced down and saw I had taken the entire bottle, in less than 18 hrs. I believe there were 48 pills in the bottle. And the more I took, the more awake I became. I felt like I could run a marathon,the more I took the less I yawned and I'm not entirely sure I so much as blinked for the next few days.
My paradoxical affect seems to apply to all drugs with a typical sedating quality - case in point -
I battled severe acute bouts of pancreatitis for several years, and it was commonplace to be hospitalized for weeks at a time, loaded to the gills with any and all manner of large dose IV narcotics,usually accompanied by phenergahn and some benzos thrown in for good measure. Oh, and ambien at night too. It was commonplace for me to only sleep perhaps every 3 days on a cocktail like this. The night nurses were continually astounded I seemed to never be asleep, but I just got used to it.
It bears mentioning that I may or may not have Bipolar disorder, the question of diagnosis is sadly obvious to doctors (who have diagnosed me and attempted to treat me), and the only person that seems to be arguing against the diagnosis is myself, probably because I go for such long stretches of time I feel fine. So there's that little tidbit.
I used to think Kanye was a jerk, until it became clear he was Bipolar. The primary difference between us seems to be no one really cares what I have to say when I go on a multiple day manic bender, most likely because I isolate and create when I feel that way, so thank God for small mercies that I don't make a fool out of myself in front of the world.
For as long as I can remember, I have been impervious to any drugs with a sedating quality; Grappled with insomnia since childhood, as an adult I realized it was not normal to go two or three days without sleeping and attempted taking OTC sleep aids. Nothing. After a while, I started taking more and more, almost as an experiment; during one rather nasty 4 day insomnia bout I decided to go buy a bottle of 50 mg (twice the normal 25mg OTC) diphenhyramine and started taking a few at a time, every couple of hours.
The following morning, as I went to brush my teeth, mentally commiserating with myself yet another sleepless night, I glanced down and saw I had taken the entire bottle, in less than 18 hrs. I believe there were 48 pills in the bottle. And the more I took, the more awake I became. I felt like I could run a marathon,the more I took the less I yawned and I'm not entirely sure I so much as blinked for the next few days.
My paradoxical affect seems to apply to all drugs with a typical sedating quality - case in point -
I battled severe acute bouts of pancreatitis for several years, and it was commonplace to be hospitalized for weeks at a time, loaded to the gills with any and all manner of large dose IV narcotics,usually accompanied by phenergahn and some benzos thrown in for good measure. Oh, and ambien at night too. It was commonplace for me to only sleep perhaps every 3 days on a cocktail like this. The night nurses were continually astounded I seemed to never be asleep, but I just got used to it.
It bears mentioning that I may or may not have Bipolar disorder, the question of diagnosis is sadly obvious to doctors (who have diagnosed me and attempted to treat me), and the only person that seems to be arguing against the diagnosis is myself, probably because I go for such long stretches of time I feel fine. So there's that little tidbit.
I used to think Kanye was a jerk, until it became clear he was Bipolar. The primary difference between us seems to be no one really cares what I have to say when I go on a multiple day manic bender, most likely because I isolate and create when I feel that way, so thank God for small mercies that I don't make a fool out of myself in front of the world.
