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Bluelighter
So, anyways I have been hooking up with my cousin for several months now whenever I visit her up in Canada which is where she's from, it's basically a friends with benefits sort of situation right now. And amazingly, I am coming to see that same kinks that I do, which I mentioned in another post here in SLR the other day. I usually wear a condom. However, this morning was a bit different. She's a vet at a zoo, and she works the night shift. Though, she's always done a shitload of opiates and other drugs as well. So, we met up when she got off work this morning, and we snuck into the medicine cabinet at the zoo vet clinic and shot up some etorphine on the sly. Which by some amazing stroke of luck did not result in anything disastrous happening. Not sure if I'll do it again, but maybe to be honest. I mean honestly the whole thing felt a bit risky even though she's a vet and presumably knows what she's doing with this stuff, she uses it all the time and has never overdosed or anything. So, I assume she knows what she's doing, but still I don't know if I'm ever going to try this stuff again. Felt dangerously intense honestly and like I could easily have overdosed on this stuff.
After we shot up the etorphine, we had sex in the zoo's vet clinic when nobody was around. I didn't even think to put on a rubber, and I was too fucked up to even pull out on time or really make any attempt to. That etorphine seriously fucked me the hell up, I was like a walking zombie just nodding off at random times and hardly even knew where the fuck I was or what I was doing for like 4 hours at least. Hardly even remember all of this. And I'm sure there's stuff I don't remember. In fact, I blacked out on the stuff for at least a couple hours, maybe more. My cousin said that I walked out of the vet clinic at the zoo and stumbled into a cage with the gazelles and started nodding off in a pile of shit. Which makes sense given that I was completely covered in shit from head to toe when I walked back to my hotel room. On the way out of the zoo, I was too high from the etorphine to even think about it. I was stumbling around the zoo before the place opened. Damn near tripped and fell into the lion cage by accident. That etorphine stuff is intense as hell, and I very much recommend against it after my experience. But my cousin says she does this stuff every day, which is crazy honestly. I have no idea how that's even possible, because I don't know. Maybe I just can't handle my shit, but this was just way too much for me. Luckily, I made it out of there. And got back to the hotel where I nodded repeatedly. And it wasn't until later in the day that I was even coherent after this stuff. It was intense, and I don't think she gave me any more than like 3 micrograms. But we didn't even use condoms or anything. I don't know if she was on the pill or what, but I'm seriously worried I might have gotten her pregnant.
I really don't know what I'll do. I've tried texting her, but she hasn't gotten back to me tonight. I'm back in the states now, but I really hope I did not get her pregnant. I'll say that she seemed a bit more with it, because she shoots up the etorphine every day she says. Says she gets this stuff for cheap and totally legally up there since she's a vet at the zoo. She'll just say some of the elephants have been having problems with pain or whatever and then just give it to herself instead. And say she gave it to the elephants. Also, she's like 400 pounds, so it probably affects her differently than most people. She's probably about the size of a small elephant lol. Nothing against her though, honestly in the state where I'm from we could get married. And I definitely would. But she doesn't want to go public with our relationship, which I can understand given the situation of course. But if she's pregnant, this is really going to change things. I mean then I'd be a father, but she is my cousin. Which makes me very concerned about how this is going to go with other family members, plus I don't feel like I'm really ready to be a father. I'm really hoping that I didn't get her pregnant, because I do not think that I nor she would really be able to raise this kid. Plus, given that we're cousins I'm concerned the kid might end up being retarded or have some kind of horrible birth defects. Especially given her daily use of etorphine and other opiates. Though, I guess there isn't anything I can do but wait and see. She's not even answering my texts or anything now.
After we shot up the etorphine, we had sex in the zoo's vet clinic when nobody was around. I didn't even think to put on a rubber, and I was too fucked up to even pull out on time or really make any attempt to. That etorphine seriously fucked me the hell up, I was like a walking zombie just nodding off at random times and hardly even knew where the fuck I was or what I was doing for like 4 hours at least. Hardly even remember all of this. And I'm sure there's stuff I don't remember. In fact, I blacked out on the stuff for at least a couple hours, maybe more. My cousin said that I walked out of the vet clinic at the zoo and stumbled into a cage with the gazelles and started nodding off in a pile of shit. Which makes sense given that I was completely covered in shit from head to toe when I walked back to my hotel room. On the way out of the zoo, I was too high from the etorphine to even think about it. I was stumbling around the zoo before the place opened. Damn near tripped and fell into the lion cage by accident. That etorphine stuff is intense as hell, and I very much recommend against it after my experience. But my cousin says she does this stuff every day, which is crazy honestly. I have no idea how that's even possible, because I don't know. Maybe I just can't handle my shit, but this was just way too much for me. Luckily, I made it out of there. And got back to the hotel where I nodded repeatedly. And it wasn't until later in the day that I was even coherent after this stuff. It was intense, and I don't think she gave me any more than like 3 micrograms. But we didn't even use condoms or anything. I don't know if she was on the pill or what, but I'm seriously worried I might have gotten her pregnant.
I really don't know what I'll do. I've tried texting her, but she hasn't gotten back to me tonight. I'm back in the states now, but I really hope I did not get her pregnant. I'll say that she seemed a bit more with it, because she shoots up the etorphine every day she says. Says she gets this stuff for cheap and totally legally up there since she's a vet at the zoo. She'll just say some of the elephants have been having problems with pain or whatever and then just give it to herself instead. And say she gave it to the elephants. Also, she's like 400 pounds, so it probably affects her differently than most people. She's probably about the size of a small elephant lol. Nothing against her though, honestly in the state where I'm from we could get married. And I definitely would. But she doesn't want to go public with our relationship, which I can understand given the situation of course. But if she's pregnant, this is really going to change things. I mean then I'd be a father, but she is my cousin. Which makes me very concerned about how this is going to go with other family members, plus I don't feel like I'm really ready to be a father. I'm really hoping that I didn't get her pregnant, because I do not think that I nor she would really be able to raise this kid. Plus, given that we're cousins I'm concerned the kid might end up being retarded or have some kind of horrible birth defects. Especially given her daily use of etorphine and other opiates. Though, I guess there isn't anything I can do but wait and see. She's not even answering my texts or anything now.
