ProfessrHyperdimensional
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Do you have a meditation practice in place? My advice is lay off the tripping and look into meditation until you have some practice going.
Ya staying up long hours isn't healthy. Take LSD in the morning and honestly you should be able to sleep.For LSD when your younger you have more energy to be able to stay up for over 24 hours as you get older takes longer to get back to full energy after such a long trip which is why i ended up liking short acting psychedelics these days.
I believe it all has to do with how you are living your life and if your truly happy with it. As I get older my trips have actually become more euphoric while simultaneously being more enlightening as well.
When your young your full of dreams that you can change the world, if you follow in those dreams you’ll have nothing but happiness and joy when the mirror gets shoved in your face.
I have to ask OP, did you see yourself working the job you do as a young boy/man? Did you accomplish things in your life you dreamed of in the early years?
-GC
@ chrispche - You're probably experiencing the beginnings of a mid-life crisis. Many people -- probably most -- go through this at some point in their 40's and the experience can last years. For me, the most intense part was between the ages of 45 and 48. I'm now in my early 50's and things are fine.
Typical mid-life crisis themes include questioning and re-evaluating one's purpose in life, ambitions, values, beliefs, relationships (intimate or not) and work. A sense of mortality can become pressing (or even oppressive), especially if one feels unfulfilled. At this time, people often lose others due to aging or disease (e.g. family members, older friends, heroes) -- the odds of experiencing loss and bereavement increase as we age. One's sexual drive tends to somewhat diminish; being skilled at expressing intimacy in non-sexual ways becomes more important. And so on...
It's normal for psychedelic experiences to have a more introspective and emotional character during this period of one's life. Such experiences can be difficult, but they can also be particularly instructive.
In your case, things are potentially even harder, because you have cyclothymia and take several medications to treat it. While cyclothymia isn't as debilitating as most other mental disorders, it will still impact the character of a trip, usually negatively. This is especially true if psychotropic medications are involved.
Do you have a meditation practice in place? My advice is lay off the tripping and look into meditation until you have some practice going.
Just a quick observation and something I wanna put out there. I'm almost forty one. My question is this. Does tripping become harder as you age? What I mean is when I was in my late teens early twenties tripping was fun. Now if I trip out, it gets all very introspective, I start to dwell on past failures and fear the future. Now, two things could be going on here. First I have been diagnosed with bipolar cyclothymia and take meds for that. Particularly, Lamotrigine, Aripiprazole and Mirtazapine with Diazepam as needed.
However what I think is more likely is that the older you get the more life experience you have and with that responsibility. I have kids, been divorced and find work hard and stressful. Leading to anxiety and self doubt and depression. As well as a good dose hypomania from time to time. Due to this I don't trip anymore. The only exception to that would be, a bucket list item of wanting to try smoked DMT before I move on from this world.
All that aside, do others find tripping harder the older you get? Or is this just me?
To be perfectly honest now on my 20th year of taking psychedelics I feel I can channel the experience better and direct that energy. This is an addition to various meditation and mind focusing exercises Ive put into use as well. I also went through a few very dark patches which in the end turned out to be blessings in that I feel stronger from. Although I still look at my younger experiences with nostalgia, it feels like these days I feel a richer abundant fullness to my tripping that I didnt have when I was 16 or so years old.
All the medications you listed will majorly mess with the effects you will have from psychedelics.Just a quick observation and something I wanna put out there. I'm almost forty one. My question is this. Does tripping become harder as you age? What I mean is when I was in my late teens early twenties tripping was fun. Now if I trip out, it gets all very introspective, I start to dwell on past failures and fear the future. Now, two things could be going on here. First I have been diagnosed with bipolar cyclothymia and take meds for that. Particularly, Lamotrigine, Aripiprazole and Mirtazapine with Diazepam as needed.
However what I think is more likely is that the older you get the more life experience you have and with that responsibility. I have kids, been divorced and find work hard and stressful. Leading to anxiety and self doubt and depression. As well as a good dose hypomania from time to time. Due to this I don't trip anymore. The only exception to that would be, a bucket list item of wanting to try smoked DMT before I move on from this world.
All that aside, do others find tripping harder the older you get? Or is this just me?
that's interesting but not at all surprising to me I've been thinking about this and was last night I currently have quite some anxiety and fear about tripping because I have serious digestive issues which are largely physical but also very much anxiety-related in a psychosomatic fashion due to a severe anxiety disorder which I have developed over the last 2 years specifically affecting my eating which is the biggest problem in my life due to long-term illness and severe allergy problems and many other complications.Interestingly, I get virtually zero bodyloads from anything now, and no nausea ever, whereas when I was in my early twenties, I felt poisoned until the come-up was done (and sometimes after) and would puke a lot from psychedelics. I feel like psychedelics are more at home in my brain ad body than ever. I also get less visuals than I used to, usually at least.
Just wanna throw this out there... You are almost forty one.Just a quick observation and something I wanna put out there. I'm almost forty one. My question is this. Does tripping become harder as you age? What I mean is when I was in my late teens early twenties tripping was fun. Now if I trip out, it gets all very introspective, I start to dwell on past failures and fear the future. Now, two things could be going on here. First I have been diagnosed with bipolar cyclothymia and take meds for that. Particularly, Lamotrigine, Aripiprazole and Mirtazapine with Diazepam as needed.
However what I think is more likely is that the older you get the more life experience you have and with that responsibility. I have kids, been divorced and find work hard and stressful. Leading to anxiety and self doubt and depression. As well as a good dose hypomania from time to time. Due to this I don't trip anymore. The only exception to that would be, a bucket list item of wanting to try smoked DMT before I move on from this world.
All that aside, do others find tripping harder the older you get? Or is this just me?