Hello all. Day 331. No improvements. Mind still blank, no emotions, or libido. I don’t understand how so many have recovered at this point but I haven’t. It definitely depresses me. I haven’t felt reality in so long, I have just been in this maze. I really would like to feel better so that I could move forward with life. It has taken a toll on my mom and I don’t know what to do at this point. Is there anything different that you guys did that helped with recovery? & when you recovered, was it just like everything went back to normal in a moment or was it gradual?
I don’t like coming on the forum with nothing positive and I really wanted to be a recovery story at this point. But that’s just not my reality. I try to be positive everyday but at this point I really want to just die. No human deserves to be in this situation. It’s taken a toll on myself but also my family. I need some solutions seriously bc I’m almost at 11 months with no improvement and this just doesn’t seem real. There no way something should have this effect on you almost a year later.
I did the half life calculator and at this stage I should have 1.08 of invega left in my system. I thought by 2.0 the effects would go away. I don’t want to end up like rosi, and I always feared that when I joined this forum (no disrespect to her, it’s not her fault; and I believe she is doing better) but I want to return to a functional life.
I miss working, communicating with friends, smoking marijuana, working on my business, having a social life, so many things I’m missing out on from day to day. I’m tired of being in bed rest. I REALLY don’t know how much longer I can watch others live their lives while I suffer. I just dont see this as God’s Will for my life. & I pray that he would forgive me if I decide to take myself out of this life.
Hey man, you keep worrying you're not better, or about the "whens", and you'll be in perpetual anxiety. The whole "blank mind" thing could be some underlying depression or trauma related illness. This shit scars you for life, man!
As for the staying in bed thing, I've found that I, too, have gained 26 pounds and become very bed-ridden. It's because you modified your behavior while you were on it to adjust to the lazy AP lifestyle, your brain is conditioned for that behavior and has adapted. You need to force your brain to come out of that and start waking up earlier slowly, day by day, start working out, lightly then build up, play mind games, etc
I got the first two shots it’s been two months and I don’t feel the same physically or mentally do you really ever end up like yourself again? And why is this even happening I’ve read through these forums but I just need some support right now
Yes, I got two shots as well. The first three months were the roughest, then it started getting a bit better. I'm about six months in and I do feel better. Music is certainly pleasant again. There are people who haven't recovered in over a year, but in those cases they were on it for longer.
What was the dosage of your two shots? I'm assuming 156mg was one of them.
It's happening because of big pharma's greed, and society's shit treatment of people with mental illness, and people not knowing what "consent" means and stuff.
Especially doctors in America who work the mental health field. They say, fuck consent, if there's no witnesses, there are certainly no cameras because that'd be a HIPAA violation, so the law is on their side. I was ordered to be restrained for refusing bloodwork. I can't prove that in court though, because guess what, no cameras, they only strip the psych patients of their belongings and their phone (warrantless search and seizure) for this exact reason. They also take you to a secret area so there are few witnesses (and not like any of the guards will testify in your favor in court. In short, if you work the health care industry, especially in psych, you're immortal from screwups. They're impossible to prove, nearly. So you can all say, hey, let's sue them, let's do this or that. But you can't win.