I've got a wicked bad headache to the point it has taken me out for the time being. Fuck I know there would be an essential oil for this - peppermint, alas. I don't have any since I am focussing my research on just a few. I'm seeing if sage oil can help at the moment. I had wicked bad muscle aches and I don't anymore. It is like inhaling an anti-inflammatory and acts quickly but I need to test it more and look into the studies. There are 5 major components of the oil some of which are anti-inflammatories, others antioxidants it's really good for you and has the closest effect on the mind as weed does that I know of. It puts you in an indica like, stimulating but relaxing state of awareness so I really like it. When it's going, it is like living in a forest and these pine type oils can really improve memory. There is hope for my fried brain. I heard up to 75% for rosemary. The would cover a lot of the lost brain cells.
Okay, so yeah, I have that ADHD shit or whatever I forget what I came here to write. I've always been that way though, no idea how I remained good at school. I guess cause with a lot of math involved you can just do it and don't have to memorize much. That's not true though I just got lucky I didn't fail out I guess.
So yeah I'm not right in the head right now because I skipped a bunch of benzo doses. I don't want that stuff accumulating, I thought it was a good thing but really it toxifies the body. Etizolam never accumulated these prescriptions drugs are actually al lot worse and I also find they make me a little dumbed out unlike etizolam, but necessary for tapering when they don't know what that shit is.
Are headaches a common symptom of benzo withdrawal? I have not experienced this. It could be, that I haven't had a coffee in two days (I just had one to make sure, and my late taper dose). The headache is like, depressing me. I have to lay down. There is so much pressure. It's a lot in my forehead it feels like my brain is fucking sizzling like actually this is your brain OFF drugs that's how fucked up they can get. I feel perfectly, 100% normal when I have my benzos just with memory problems and otherwise I get absolutely nowhere in life and not only that but become a little shit disturber and annoy everyone around me never do anything productive lay in bed all day depressed start talking shit like suicide nobody likes me when I'm tapering benzos. Lost a lot of friends cause I suppose I'm self medicating.
The fucking headache though. Is that this benzo shit. It could be coffee I drink so damn much like wayyyy too much coffee and I know that is like symptom #1 but I'm not dependent on coffee, just lazy as fuck without it and stupid. I rarely drink it actually these days only two small cups a day at once, and in the evening like now. I hope the headache isn't from that. I just hope it goes away this is ridiculous it could just be a normal headache too or maybe if stress can cause them. But this is actually fucking painful it's similar to a migraine. I actually think this would qualify as one. I haven't had a migraine since I was a kid though and I remember they were hell and I can at least type so I don't really know. Hopefully it subsides what a random thing to happen.
Otherwise, had a wonderful day. It was in the stars, ruling planet connecting with the moon in my sign.
