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Mental Health Coming Off Invega Sustenna (Paliperidone) v.2

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Sorry guys I have these moments when I think I will never be myself again and I want to disappear, this is the second time I do it...

The crazy thing is that I deleted all my posts and then I felt guilty... The actual emotion ?

I realize I just need to be patient and wait more, I had three signs: anger, crazy dreams and guilt.
 
Next time I want to delete my posts I'll drop my phone under the bed, anyway @Neuroleptique33 you are one the youngest here, metabolism and neuroplasticity work better at young ages, I already told you about that girl who took only one 156mg shot and she had emotions after 6 months! She was freaking out all day on another forum and she was very suicidal, but after six months she felt better and she disappeared! She was 17 years old.
 
I have the feeling that a return to normal is impossible, I can no longer think it's crazy anyway, my receivers are blocking to the point of not hearing a voice inside.. If that's not permanent my God
 
When to you I know more how long it does, but if you can think it's a good start and especially if you can renssentir times of emotion it means that at times your receiver opens
 
@Neuroleptique I believe the first months are the worst because your brain has to adapt to work without dopamine, at the beginning I couldn't speak, I spoke like I was retarded for months then my speech started improving till I spoke normally again.
But I wasn't even allowed to go off the injection, I started improving when I still was on, so if I improved you can do it as well!
 
i am 6 weeks off and cant get and erection

i cant get an erection with 18 years old. This is killing me man, i dont know what to do. And coming here a seeing people telling that their dick ain't working after 1 year. Like wtf. Im hopeless.
I got 1 shot of 100 mg. I cant take this, i''ll probLly kill mysef
 
@edrudd : welcome to the thread. No worry the first 3 months are the worst. I couldn't enjoy masturbating for about a month but then it all came back. I have a high sex drive, higher than usual and hope my normal sex drive will come back. You are maybe the one who had the lowest dose with awesome31311, you'll heal in less than a year.
 
edrudd said:
i cant get an erection with 18 years old. This is killing me man, i dont know what to do. And coming here a seeing people telling that their dick ain't working after 1 year. Like wtf. Im hopeless.
I got 1 shot of 100 mg. I cant take this, i''ll probLly kill mysef
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Actually we did have someone with a much more positive story, but sadly he decided to delete all of his posts the other day for some unhelpful reason or other.
 
I also deleted my posts because I gave too much info and my identity was partially exposed, but I'm still here.
 
edrudd said:
i cant get an erection with 18 years old. This is killing me man, i dont know what to do. And coming here a seeing people telling that their dick ain't working after 1 year. Like wtf. Im hopeless. I got 1 shot of 100 mg. I cant take this, i''ll probLly kill mysef
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Omg only 18 years old :( I am so sorry you have to go through this at your age, but I'm sure you will recover fast as you only had one shot and are young. We had two people so far who had one shot and recovered around 8 months or so. You will get better. Please hold on, don't kill yourself, I said the same thing quite often over and over, but I didn't do it. You can't give up on yourself and let these bastards win. I am currently working with a doctor from the UK who is willing to help me and understands my struggle and that psych drugs can cause huge problems. So please hold on, maybe I can find a solution for us. You will improve, the first months are hell. It gets more bareable over time.
 
Empty1128 said:
I also deleted my posts because I gave too much info and my identity was partially exposed, but I'm still here.
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Yeah please stay with us till the end. We need every person to write a recovery post to give others hope. We all need it very desperately. Each time I come here, I hope that I read a success story and hold on to hope. And I sympathise a lot with you, so stay please :)
 
Empty1128 said:
I also deleted my posts because I gave too much info and my identity was partially exposed, but I'm still here.
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You can just edit them to remove any revealing info if you like, in future. Gotta be in full site mode to do it though, or a bug in the system deletes the posts unfortunately.
 
@Edrudd If only the tail that does not work ?ava there are worse believe me! I prefer to see no more tail than live what I live there! , but I understand your concern I too can not use it.. I was castrated from everywhere, but if it is not that it does not panic ?ava recover and even if that but 1 years is nothing as long as it recovers, the worst would be that all this crap is permanent for everyone​
 
LifeAfterInvega said:
I wasn't going to delete my contributions until people (person) started sending me private messages calling me a liar and criticizing me for the prescription drugs I had even bothered going to the trouble of detailing for everyone. That's a lot of very personal information and I was honestly just trying to be as helpful as possible since I had a pretty experimental recovery and recovered pretty quickly considering how sick I was. But I have better things to do now that I'm healed than to be called a Liar and criticized for the way I healed. You guys have to remember that the internet is "forever", and some of us don't want God reading off every one of our posts when we meet him one day if we do. A long time ago in college there was a stupid chat forum I only wish I could've erased my posts in, but it wouldn't allow it after the post had been there so long. I'm sorry, but this is just common sense to me guys. Don't think I'm robbing others of valuable information, because they'll probably just read the posts and be...yeah, that guy was a liar, I bet he feels just as crappy as the rest of us. To truly heal you are going to need a serious relationship with "God" and you are still going to need "Time". In fact, "Time" will be your true test.
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Fair enough mate. I think far more people said that they appreciated your posts and your different/hopeful perspective, but of course you're entitled to privacy.
 
Hey hi guys I'm back to tell you how it goes, I waited more than twenty days and now I tell you, after taking mdma (0.2gr) I seemed to be totally reborn, I had a great time for more than 17 days without suicidal ideas , the emotions are back, I feel the music almost like before, I love the sun and the beautiful days, as if mdma has burned a large part of invega, but it seemed too good to be true, in the last two days I felt a bit ' down again but not like before the party, for 20 days I go out walking for 10 kilometers a day and I started today also to practice with my arms, I realized that nobody gives you anything and stay in bed all day watching blue light or medical sites does not help with healing, I have always followed the site, but I focused on getting my body back and it is very hard, xeplion raised my cholesterol to 270 !! I am 1.80 mx 73 kg and 270 of cholesterol is a lot of risks infarct and other, I do not believe still in complete healing, 5 injections are too many to heal but, I try, I destroy exercise, before mdma I did not listen to music from 5 months and I lived indoors, I know I risked the psychosis, but fuck it was worth it!
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LifeAfterInvega said:
I wasn't going to delete my contributions until people (person) started sending me private messages calling me a liar and criticizing me for the prescription drugs I had even bothered going to the trouble of detailing for everyone. That's a lot of very personal information and I was honestly just trying to be as helpful as possible since I had a pretty experimental recovery and recovered pretty quickly considering how sick I was. But I have better things to do now that I'm healed than to be called a Liar and criticized for the way I healed. You guys have to remember that the internet is "forever", and some of us don't want God reading off every one of our posts when we meet him one day if we do. A long time ago in college there was a stupid chat forum I only wish I could've erased my posts in, but it wouldn't allow it after the post had been there so long. I'm sorry, but this is just common sense to me guys. Don't think I'm robbing others of valuable information, because they'll probably just read the posts and be...yeah, that guy was a liar, I bet he feels just as crappy as the rest of us. To truly heal you are going to need a serious relationship with "God" and you are still going to need "Time". In fact, "Time" will be your true test.
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Could you tell me how you healed expermentally? Im down to try anything
 
what dose were you injected and how many months off were you before trying mdma? Also, can you have an erection naturally? if so, how long did it take for you to recovery
 
i will try to hang on. thank you very much. How long are you off the invega and can you have an erection naturally?
 
SkavrsXeplion said:
Hey hi guys I'm back to tell you how it goes, I waited more than twenty days and now I tell you, after taking mdma (0.2gr) I seemed to be totally reborn, I had a great time for more than 17 days without suicidal ideas , the emotions are back, I feel the music almost like before, I love the sun and the beautiful days, as if mdma has burned a large part of invega, but it seemed too good to be true, in the last two days I felt a bit ' down again but not like before the party, for 20 days I go out walking for 10 kilometers a day and I started today also to practice with my arms, I realized that nobody gives you anything and stay in bed all day watching blue light or medical sites does not help with healing, I have always followed the site, but I focused on getting my body back and it is very hard, xeplion raised my cholesterol to 270 !! I am 1.80 mx 73 kg and 270 of cholesterol is a lot of risks infarct and other, I do not believe still in complete healing, 5 injections are too many to heal but, I try, I destroy exercise, before mdma I did not listen to music from 5 months and I lived indoors, I know I risked the psychosis, but fuck it was worth it!
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Did the mdma helped you sexually ? Im thinking about trying it but i still have 50 mg of invega in my blood.
 
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