ThatAmazinChick
Greenlighter
So ive been an addicted for a long ass time now n the one that some would call "my choose of poison" is meth. Ive been trying to kick the habit cause me and my better half really fucking messed up recently and got into some trouble and my other half is sadly looking at ten for sure, possibly twenty years in prison and im looking at some time too, and i hate it anymore. Like i just makes me sick as fuck, and all honesty guilty too, but when i come down n off of it, i have like no actual close friends and right now struggling to get a job, and so i spend a lot of time completely alone now and it makes it impossible it seems for me to stay sober completely and now i feel like its kinda messing up my mind and caused few fights between me and my s.o. n i dont wanna lose them completely, you know like the only person that has never ever judged me and was alwayssss there and made me a better person expect with the whole kicking the habit shit.... i cant afford treatment nor could i do inpatient rehabilitation which for meth most around here require for meth n plus i have a few pets that need me to come home everynight ya kno? I just really need some advice and i wanna sleep and cant cause of the shit but i cant crash in the morning cause thats when my s.o. is going to start calling me n gets upset or suspicious of what i am doing cause they asked me to not fuck with it at all anymore, ya kno cause it kinda really fucked almost everything up in our lives. And i swore i wouldnt.... i feel like i am a horrible person anymore and thats a big part in our fights too.... can anyone give me some advice on how to help make this slightly easier with the guilt or kicking the habit? Or just any advice on this at all would be significantly appreciated.... thank you.