whatthelol
Greenlighter
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- Mar 1, 2018
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Hi,
I try to keep it short:
In October I took mirtazapine & quetiapine at the psych ward for about 7 days and stopped abruptly after experiencing severe side effects (akathisia/dyskinesia)
After 3 days or so I noticed that my sleep/wake switch broke. My brain hasn't shut off since then. I haven't had normal homeostatically regulated sleep/rest/relaxation after that.
It's been 5 months and nothing changed about that.
Basically I haven't had anything that even half-way resembles somewhat normal sleep. It's either dreams with no rem phases or unconsciousness...
The first month of this I was probably lying completely awake in bed until the morning... than gradually as I started losing energy and awareness I started to have dreams & moments
of unawareness...while the rest of the being awake and aware of me lying in bed.
I wouldn't even call it a sleep issue.
It's much MUCH more a wakefulness issue. Like the drugs blew a fuse in some part of my brain that keeps me awake 24/7. I can't rest, relax or recuperate after activities
or be able to catch up on sleep or something since that part of my brain that keeps me awake isn't allowing deeper relaxation to happen... energy is just being automatically
spend without some kind of energy sensor or feedback loop that allows that what has been spent to recharge again, if that makes sense...
In other words week by week I am losing much more energy just doing nothing.... than I am making and I haven't found a way to counteract this.
All that happens when I try to sleep/relax or whatever is that my brain or some part of my brain is highly awake and active while other parts of my brain and body are beyond exhaustion.
It's beyond comprehension for me as to how that's even possible to be awake at the thresold that my brain keeps me awake at. Every single day I feel like I have been awake for 10 days straight and drank 100 cups of coffee and being beyond exhausted ready to fall into bed and fall asleep for 3 days except that this doesn't happen and my brain is awake instead. I have completely forgotten what having "normal consciusness" feels like in the past 5 months... My senses can barely process information from the lack of high quality rest... it's almost like my brain is seperated from reality and my body lags and I am 10 days behind, I am neither awake nor sleep or something weird like that... It just continues to get worse. The only advice I've gotten so far is to wait it out lol..
I am not really looking for advice but just for the mechanism so I actually know what's going on as I can't figure out what's happening.
I've been researching my ass off as to what exactly is happening but I didn't come to conclusions.
I was wondering if you can propose some mechanism or at least some speculation in terms of what is happening so I am able to help myself.
Maybe it has something to do with genes. I have histamine issues, COMT++ & higher levels of serotonin & acetylcholine & dopamine probably on the lower side.
Thanks A Lot.
I try to keep it short:
In October I took mirtazapine & quetiapine at the psych ward for about 7 days and stopped abruptly after experiencing severe side effects (akathisia/dyskinesia)
After 3 days or so I noticed that my sleep/wake switch broke. My brain hasn't shut off since then. I haven't had normal homeostatically regulated sleep/rest/relaxation after that.
It's been 5 months and nothing changed about that.
Basically I haven't had anything that even half-way resembles somewhat normal sleep. It's either dreams with no rem phases or unconsciousness...
The first month of this I was probably lying completely awake in bed until the morning... than gradually as I started losing energy and awareness I started to have dreams & moments
of unawareness...while the rest of the being awake and aware of me lying in bed.
I wouldn't even call it a sleep issue.
It's much MUCH more a wakefulness issue. Like the drugs blew a fuse in some part of my brain that keeps me awake 24/7. I can't rest, relax or recuperate after activities
or be able to catch up on sleep or something since that part of my brain that keeps me awake isn't allowing deeper relaxation to happen... energy is just being automatically
spend without some kind of energy sensor or feedback loop that allows that what has been spent to recharge again, if that makes sense...
In other words week by week I am losing much more energy just doing nothing.... than I am making and I haven't found a way to counteract this.
All that happens when I try to sleep/relax or whatever is that my brain or some part of my brain is highly awake and active while other parts of my brain and body are beyond exhaustion.
It's beyond comprehension for me as to how that's even possible to be awake at the thresold that my brain keeps me awake at. Every single day I feel like I have been awake for 10 days straight and drank 100 cups of coffee and being beyond exhausted ready to fall into bed and fall asleep for 3 days except that this doesn't happen and my brain is awake instead. I have completely forgotten what having "normal consciusness" feels like in the past 5 months... My senses can barely process information from the lack of high quality rest... it's almost like my brain is seperated from reality and my body lags and I am 10 days behind, I am neither awake nor sleep or something weird like that... It just continues to get worse. The only advice I've gotten so far is to wait it out lol..
I am not really looking for advice but just for the mechanism so I actually know what's going on as I can't figure out what's happening.
I've been researching my ass off as to what exactly is happening but I didn't come to conclusions.
I was wondering if you can propose some mechanism or at least some speculation in terms of what is happening so I am able to help myself.
Maybe it has something to do with genes. I have histamine issues, COMT++ & higher levels of serotonin & acetylcholine & dopamine probably on the lower side.
Thanks A Lot.