Jackiebrowntx
Greenlighter
So, although an illustrious "career" of drugs and what I now realize was abnormal drinking in high school- to the shitshow my college years at A&m was (hello dealer who introduced my 19 year old safe to oxy- back before the OP days- as a "favor"...after all...he was looking out for my liver since I was doing so many Norco) to the rehabs and jail stints and all the other basic addict shit...I am now reasonably happy with my life. Have dabbled the past few years when I can get my hands on something (anything) but as of lately don't even try due to the fear of legal repercussions. Any SAFP sisters or brothers from Texas? You know what I'm talking about!!!
I drink too much and take my prescribed adderall during the day to help me kick ass and do more (legitimate) deals at work...tonight I had a bit of a conundrum. I had misplaced the tool I use to cut the foil off of my wine bottle. I remembered I had a multipurpose tool in my kitchen junk drawer that I could use. Opened it up...and holy motherfucking shit. Black tar residue from my last random excursion about a year ago. Caked on it. I sccraped it off in true Dave chapelle crackhead skit fashion and snorted that tiny bit of shit before I could say howdy.
my mind is flooded with thoughts- go back to the pain management doctor that you could legitimately go to due to documented (yet...let's be honest...not relevant injuries). Oh my god.
i can not talk to anyone who is my friend in my life now about this. Therapist is the only one, and appointment isn't till the 12th. Never been on blueligjt before...except to read how to inject brown after I left A&M. Is it ok and or accepted for me to just go off on a much needed tangent like this? If not...I'm not sorry really?
I drink too much and take my prescribed adderall during the day to help me kick ass and do more (legitimate) deals at work...tonight I had a bit of a conundrum. I had misplaced the tool I use to cut the foil off of my wine bottle. I remembered I had a multipurpose tool in my kitchen junk drawer that I could use. Opened it up...and holy motherfucking shit. Black tar residue from my last random excursion about a year ago. Caked on it. I sccraped it off in true Dave chapelle crackhead skit fashion and snorted that tiny bit of shit before I could say howdy.
my mind is flooded with thoughts- go back to the pain management doctor that you could legitimately go to due to documented (yet...let's be honest...not relevant injuries). Oh my god.
i can not talk to anyone who is my friend in my life now about this. Therapist is the only one, and appointment isn't till the 12th. Never been on blueligjt before...except to read how to inject brown after I left A&M. Is it ok and or accepted for me to just go off on a much needed tangent like this? If not...I'm not sorry really?
