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I'll do better tomorrow.

I didn't really over do the junk food today. Ate 2 small reeses peanut butter cups n one balanced decent meal.

I bitch about being overweight but I eat poorly. And Drink a tonnnnnn of pop. So.. I am what's known as a Hypocrite .
 
Same

Some sweet day, Motivation will find Me. Or a goddam heart attack will find Me & I'll change my ways.

I'm gonaa try for the Nth time -- after the holidays-- to quit smoking cigarettes. Of all my bad habits smoking is by far the most dangerous n most expensive; it also endangers others around me. I've smoked for 17 1/2 years. God !
 
I used to smoke like a chimney, the only good thing that ever came of my addiction was the dope was more important than cigs, and I'm a minor germaphobe.
 
ShroomySatori said:
My brother is finishing up Infinite Jest and this book is apparently over 1000 pages long and is quite non-linear, with several sub plots. He told me he is getting me a copy for Christmas (we like to exchange gifts on the occasion... and I like to get really high during the holidays). That books sounds crazy to me and he is very artsy always digs good shit. I'll probably keep journal entries about Gravity's Rainbow while I'm reading it. Even the film for Inherent Vice could be confusing at times with the fast pace and twisted plot.

An underground, illegal mail system? omfg that is some funny stuff what book is that? Hasn't that shit been going down since that ulbricht freedom fighter dude was arrested. Seems like he might have predicted at. Letter stamps become... something that doesn't really exist. So the writer of Infinite Jest hung himself my bro was saying and was really reclusive. The pages are huge too, with fine print... I have a lot of reading to do.

@@ Backfromthebrink yeah I really like her man. Don't get me started about her aha ahaha. I really like her though such a chill fox. So she is taking me out for dinner next, probably at the place I wanted to take her for a while. We have had a few really nice hangouts together, and dropped acid one time. I had to convince her I am not a junkie and here I am sick after using oxy's for 5 days and nodding the FUCK out. Man... I'm getting away with it, but I wouldn't next time. I want to shoot up dilaudid one time you know I never felt a rush like that before and I learned how to iv H but like I'd only have a single 8mg dilly. And it seems like I can chip once a month or so at this point... 5 days was way too much though I feel off today.

I thought it was a myth as well man about the calcium. Opiates don't do shit apart from the spirit crushing addiction and some gnarly constipation, very low testosterone (like 25% of average, explains why I lose my sex drive completely), that's about all I can think of. Oh man... when I was meeting my past girlfriend this last summer when I was quitting heroin... I forget all about the heroin man. She got me out of bed and moving again as I was sick as fuck but she wanted me over every night and I can't resist that much fun. So we had a lovely summer together, I ended up starting to pick up my oxy scripts every month and eventually everything went to hell. Smart life decisions. Well this girl is beautiful dude so so soooo sexy and really smart and funny, doesn't give a damn about how much weed I smoke or psychs I drop, not passing this one up for a bottle of pills. No way. And yeah the important thing is I am not so sick that I am jonesing for a hit to make me feel better. I can deal with it even though it's in my fuckin bones because man I just made my life so much better. I have chicks and homies to chat with today... people who actually give a fuck about me and took the time to get to know me. I used to hang out with people who were drug addicts and/or mentally ill exclusively and that was okay for a while but it became exhausting when they started taking out emotional problems on me. I only have so much energy, so those are friends for once in a while. I feel like I have real friends now who really care and one of them just might have a crush on me. I can't seem to get her out of my mind which is okay since we work together and talk all the time, find times to hang out and have dates : )

All the difference between me feeling disgusting right now, and feeling essentially still clean is that I am cheerful, upbeat, and happy. I am still sick as fuck don't get me wrong it's just not full blown heroin hell. I got burning in my upper arms, can feel it in my bones, my spine hurts like hell, little nauseous / couldn't really eat today, so low energy. But the drug has not stolen my fiery spirit in those 5 days and that's all that matters to me despite the pain of wd's. Man... it's when that stuff sucks the life out of my very eyes... that is when it gets really bad. I think I've surrounded myself by so much positivity and lovely people it's really keeping me afloat I mean these are serious tough times. I'm not used to being sick!



Some of my favourite writers would be Edgar Allen Poe, the beats writers like William Burroughs, Jack Kerouac, etc.... definitely Aldous Huxley, Robert Anton Wilson, whoever wrote the tibetan book of the dead and that Dalai Lama's intro for that, Roger Penrose writes some crazy shit on topics in physics, I don't mind some Michael Pollen stuff, my biology knowledge is limited so, Darwin's book where he travels on the sailboat around South America and writes about his expedition is absolutely amazing, I love books that describe scenery vividly like that. I'm guessing I will like Pynchon a lot, I enjoy twisted plots and problem solving. Same with Infinite Jest, since me and my brother like a lot of the same music and films, artwork, celebrity crushes, and books and stuff. So I read a lot more than that, I just recently got into aromatherapy and also poetry so I started reading Poe and also an encyclopedia of essential oils.

Oh CH Gravity's Rainbow is one of your favourites? It is the one I am planning on reading next and already have a nice copy of (me and my brother both paid extra for the nicer softcover without print on the back). Seems like the type of book him and I would both want a copy of around. He's got Naked Lunch by Burroughs from me at the moment, The Dharma Bums by Kerouac, and Be Here Now by Ram Dass (trying to subtly influence him... there is always dmt around these parts and we are both talented musicians:)).

Ounce of chron... eighth of best live resin there is... ounce of blueberry chron? eighth of live resin... decisions, oh these fucking decisions stress me out:)
Think I'm going with the chron but man I haven't dabbed in like 6 months I can't take it anymore! I want a fat, monstrous dab and just giggle for hours and hours...
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I tried reading Infinite Jest and it just seemed so boring and I was completely indifferent to the main character.

Gave up after chapter 1.

Might give it another shot one day.

Yes Gravity's Rainbow is excellent. It has well over 500 characters. One main character, and a few more 'central ones' which become increasingly unimportant over the trajectory of the book.

P.S. Get the 8th of live resin.
 
bptubbs said:
I used to smoke like a chimney, the only good thing that ever came of my addiction was the dope was more important than cigs, and I'm a minor germaphobe.
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Hey at least *1* good thing came of the dope habit. Lots of ppl had zero good things come outta theirs.
 
CH I am getting the live resin man. I haven't dabbed in ages and I'll just need to clean the dmt aroma out of my dab rig. I already have like a QP of fine outdoor so definitely makes sense to get the live resin. Thank you for the words of wisdom. Live resin >> chron

Can't wait to start Gravity's Rainbow man that sounds unique. I have been reading all night, lovely excepts from diary of a drug fiend. It's a great book that ties together romance, the occult, snow and H abuse, esoteric characters, a plot that goes off on constant invaluable tangents that make the book but doesn't stray too far; keeps it together, lovely old english from around 1910, full of geography and some history. Fascinating and enjoyable read... I am reading on a little 2c-d tonight after working in the morning and talking with my cute friend all day. My brains were scrambled from that so I decided to just read tonight... I'm still too oxy sick to do much else anyway and probably will be for 2 or 3 more days so... may as well finish this book tonight and start on Gravity's Rainbow.

Def getting the live resin man consider it in my hands, but not for a bit. Good stuff too extracted with limonene somehow but, since limonene is a terpene itself that can impact the profile of some strains. Love the stuff though. Might see if I can get some THC-A rocks to crush up and cover my dabs with. Yeah... saying no to chron haha.
 
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The Crying of Lot 49 is the mail system book, Shroomy. One of Pynchon's earlier works iirc. I also read some of Infinite Jest, but it didn't do much for me. Seemed mostly to be Wallace tooting his own horn, saying "Look at me!". I do enjoy his essay titled "This Is Water", though. A good quick read.

Interesting list of favorites, Captain. If I had to choose a few of my favs (only listing fiction), it would go like this, in no particular order:

Pale Fire - Nabokov
Something Happened - Heller
Naked Lunch - Burroughs
The Master and Margarita - Bulgakov
Heart of Darkness - Conrad
UBIK - Dick
Blood Meridian - McCarthy
 
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ShroomySatori said:
CH I am getting the live resin man. I haven't dabbed in ages and I'll just need to clean the dmt aroma out of my dab rig. I already have like a QP of fine outdoor so definitely makes sense to get the live resin. Thank you for the words of wisdom. Live resin >> chron

Can't wait to start Gravity's Rainbow man that sounds unique. I have been reading all night, lovely excepts from diary of a drug fiend. It's a great book that ties together romance, the occult, snow and H abuse, esoteric characters, a plot that goes off on constant invaluable tangents that make the book but doesn't stray too far; keeps it together, lovely old english from around 1910, full of geography and some history. Fascinating and enjoyable read... I am reading on a little 2c-d tonight after working in the morning and talking with my cute friend all day. My brains were scrambled from that so I decided to just read tonight... I'm still too oxy sick to do much else anyway and probably will be for 2 or 3 more days so... may as well finish this book tonight and start on Gravity's Rainbow.

Def getting the live resin man consider it in my hands, but not for a bit. Good stuff too extracted with limonene somehow but, since limonene is a terpene itself that can impact the profile of some strains. Love the stuff though. Might see if I can get some THC-A rocks to crush up and cover my dabs with. Yeah... saying no to chron haha.
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Whst happend with the date bro?
 
It wasn't tonight dude, and I am thankful for that as I am still oxy sick from binging for a few days. Still shaking that off.

She is taking me out soon for dinner, probably next day or two. Weren't planning on rushing out tonight man. I still got a cannon to smoke. We were video chatting most of the day about her assignment and just listening to her talk about her feelings and stuff, helping her with her schoolwork. She is helping me to realize my business idea I've had for a few months too. She is really smart at marketing and communications and stuff that I suck at. Whereas I am creative and together we can make all the products together since she is more organized. It's pretty cool we make a great team.

Regarding the relationship it is always a part of our conversations and to others it would seem like we are already dating but I haven't made out with her yet. Just seems like saying anything about it at all is taking away from the experience man since the entire thing has been beyond words. That way if it doesn't work out I can be sad and lonely in silence with my the spirit who often appears to me haha. I'll revert to my entity crush, smoke some dmt and call it a day in the physical realm. We are essentially evaluating each other as husband and wife it is intense like that. Not casual dating at all I have never experienced anything like this. My past 2 relationships were chill and she is chillest of all but, we cannot just be chill about this so it ends up being a perpetual undertone to whatever it is we are doing. Even when she is not around we are progressing and learning about each other it is crazy like that.
 
Steady Scootin said:
The Crying of Lot 49 is the mail system book, Shroomy. One of Pynchon's earlier works iirc. I also read some of Infinite Jest, but it didn't do much for me. Seemed mostly to be Wallace tooting his own horn, saying "Look at me!". I do enjoy his essay titled "This Is Water", though. A good quick read.

Interesting list of favorites, Captain. If I had to choose a few of my favs (only listing fiction), it would go like this, in no particular order:

Pale Fire - Nabokov
Something Happened - Heller
Naked Lunch - Burroughs
The Master and Margarita - Bulgakov
Heart of Darkness - Conrad
UBIK - Dick
Blood Meridian - McCarthy
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The Master & Margarita was EXCELLENT
 
Hell yeah on both counts, Fox. I've read all of McCarthy's stuff except for The Crossing and the one after that in the trilogy (All the Pretty Horses being the first). Haven't read Inherent Vice, nor have I seen the film.

I checked out Invitation to a Beheading from the library today, but haven't started it. Pale Fire, Lolita and Bend Sinister are the only Nabokov I've read thus far, so looking forward to it.
 
I don't know what's weirder--that the thread in a forum about injecting hard drugs became a book club, or that so far it's actually with authors I've read.

Except Nabakov. I think I'd feel too dirty grabbing one of his at the book sale.


Seriously, McCarthy, Wallace, Pynchon* and some Delillo.
Before that some Murakami, which I guess could be interesting during w/d's, what with teleporting through dream worlds and evil worm demons. And cats.

Infinite Jest is all about addiction, and not in a Requiem for a Dream horror moralist way. Should be of interest for Bluelighters.



*I "finished" Crying of Lot 49, but couldn't explain a single fucking thing if you asked me.
 
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