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Traffic drives me crazy.

So does this chick I went on a date with yesterday... 2 hours turned into 15. She dropped acid with me and railed a little 2c-c she's just like Yeah... trust you! And, I know from her energy she'd love acid, just like she would hate shrooms and have a classic bad trip... but smoke dmt and tell me about her 15 min experience for 15 hours while I giggle my ass off. I don't normally like listening to women talk that long, but she is so silly I could listen to her forever.

I need to get her out of my mind. She's driving me fucking crazy I like her way too much. Our connection is deep. It could never be replicated with anyone else anywhere in the universe. We our chaotic in different ways and like our yin and yang energy seems to really nicely balance each other out.

I just need to get her the fuck out of my mind but I can't. She's on my mind constantly. Normally I wouldn't care like we haven't really been talking today I can tell that for whatever reason she doesn't want to. But, she is really special. Very damn special, not even her beautiful looks but yes definitely that too, but her silly personality. I love how we make each other laugh and are in hysterics over nothing in particular. I just need to get her out of my mind? But I can't. There is absolutely nothing whatsoever that I can do. It was lovely but I wish I never met her. I wish I didn't have a heart to like her this much. She is beautiful.
 
MDPV_Psychosis said:
Im not a fan of the bay area either. Especially in and around San Francisco/Oakland. That is why I moved to the central valley. I like it here much better. It sucks most of the good jobs are in the bay though...
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Not really... As far as the jobs. Health care is garbage too if you're considered an undesirable.
 
It's snowing in San Antonio, TX. Other than VERY small flurries for a few minutes every 6 years or so, this is the first time it's legitimately snowed in San Antonio since 1985.

It's a huge deal for us South Texans, everyone is freaking out.

I'm high as fuck at work, and just stepped outside and had a zen moment. What a cool day.
 
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It's snowing in San Antonio, TX. Other than VERY small flurries for a few minutes every 6 years or so, this is the first time it's legitimately snowed in San Antonio since 1985.

It's a huge deal for us South Texans, everyone is freaking out.

I'm high as fuck at work, and just stepped outside and had a zen moment. What a cool day.
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It's snowing here in Bama as well. This sucks. My complex sits atop a pretty big hill, and I might be stick up here, I'm not sure yet. I wouldn't care so much, but I'm running low on dope (heroin). Supposed to go pick up more today, it's already paid for and everything, but it just had to snow out of fucking nowhere! I haven't seen this much accumulation in years, and it's still steadily falling.

Edit: Only half a pack of smokes! AHHHHH
 
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It's snowing here in Bama as well. This sucks. My complex sits atop a pretty big hill, and I might be stick up here, I'm not sure yet. I wouldn't care so much, but I'm running low on dope (heroin). Supposed to go pick up more today, it's already paid for and everything, but it just had to snow out of fucking nowhere! I haven't seen this much accumulation in years, and it's still steadily falling.

Edit: Only half a pack of smokes! AHHHHH
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Dude. That sucks! If I were out of dope and stranded, I would seriously conserider walking lol
 
Ugh, it were at all feasible, I'd be out there. I have plenty of Sub, at least. Really don't want to take any if at all possible.
 
Steady Scootin said:
It's snowing here in Bama as well. This sucks. My complex sits atop a pretty big hill, and I might be stick up here, I'm not sure yet. I wouldn't care so much, but I'm running low on dope (heroin). Supposed to go pick up more today, it's already paid for and everything, but it just had to snow out of fucking nowhere! I haven't seen this much accumulation in years, and it's still steadily falling.

Edit: Only half a pack of smokes! AHHHHH
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The universe used to show me signs like this, and still does. Most recently it happened through a dream, which helped guide me. For example tho, I was supposed to see my two favourite bands play this year. I bought tickets a week in advance when I found out just in the knick of time, and totally randomly. Bought expensive train tickets to other cities. Then, those two days I didn't have heroin so I couldn't get out of bed and never went to the shows. I didn't get the message haha. Just felt stupid for spending money on something other than heroin.

I used to run out, or think I was going to get dope and not get it, at the worse possible times ever. It was a really spiritual thing for me when I realized how many blatantly obvious signs I had chosen to ignore, as I was too caught up with not feeling sick. Seems like you are caught up in heroin man... that was hell for me, hope you can have a happy life and well like don't drop dead on us eh? Could happen any time you use and you seem super chill! At least get them smokes lol. I live somewhere where it snows a lot and is freezing too and people think we live in igloos but we live in normal housing haha.

That's crazy it snowed there man. I am up north, freezing my balls off. Needed that dope to keep me warm, lol. I used to go out in shorts and t-shirts when it was nearly freezing water temp and not notice lol people would be like wtffffff getting excited for the summer are ya? I'm just thinking... not really, I'm just wrecked on heroin right now and you are not noticing my pinned pupils and nodding heading apparently. Sounds like a cool day dude, love those zen moments. Just be careful with that dope you seem chill and it kills people although I know you know that obviously, it's just easy to forget what it can lead to when you're sick! Dumbest mistake of my life getting into that, thought I was happy at the time but really I was just euphoric.

Not sure what I'm doing today as I worked all night last night and managed a handful of hours of sleep but not much... but I met a chick I really really like more than anyone I ever met before, anyways, she got all sick on me yesterday when we had plans for today... ended up taking her night shift before my morning one. I hope she gets well soon (for her sake not mine, I will be seeing her again haha and she is the type who thinks things through and analyzes everything when it comes to this so I have been very patient with her ahah... I just don't want anyone else so it's chill).

Anyways man really enjoyed your post! So yeah I might sound like a hypocrite lol but I went to grab my last oxycodone script for a friend who got hit by a car and is in agony. I had popped 60mg IR oxycodone before leaving the parking lot. I was high for 12 hours off a dose that normally I wouldn't have felt before. I don't even know my own tolerance anymore, and I def know never to do that again. This was actually the one time in my life I experienced a hardcore nod. I would open my eyes and be in a downward dog on my yoga mat, when I thought I was laying in bed. I nodded over every damn corner of my place, just nodded the fuck out in total bliss. Normally with heroin I was highly functional it gave me energy and to concentrate easier, I was never really into the nod but after experiencing that.... just never again. haha. Way too hedonistic and escapist. I flushed the remaining 96 pills down the drain as soon as I was no longer high from that dose, as it was the closest to overdosing I have ever experienced. I am already clean (I'm not one to count the days, I'm not addicted anymore or I wouldn't have flushed them)... but yeah, it was scary as fuck! It also felt fucking amazing haha, def can't deny that part. I napped all afternoon and the friend in pain I was hoping to help out, was calling every phone I have like house cell 10 times and heard I was asleep... he thought I was fucking dead and had lied to him about flushing them as I have certainly lied to people's faces about stuff like that before. If I hadn't flushed them, I actually think I would be dead right now. So I can never touch an opiate again now, since after getting clean that is when many people randomly drop dead this way. I'm super lucky! Anyways, that will be my last time using an opiate. I don't even know what my tolerance is anymore, so I'd be too afraid of dropping dead to bother using them for a high that isn't even that good. I prefer chronic and dmt these days, can't forget the etizolam lol.
 
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I cry at the thought of all those oxys being flushed.... I'd have given them to someone in need or keep them around for low dose pain relief
 
Yeah.... SHROOMY --
Thank God you're ok.
But why did you dispose of the meds after your dose? Instead of going ahead w the plan to help out your buddy? Was it just too tempting to have them around?
I don't mean to speculate but .... I don't understand why you dumped them.
 
It's great you have the willpower to go through with something like that now and you sound much better than you did this last summer so good on you, but I can understand the cringing of everybody as toilets don't appreciate good Oxy. I'm looking forward to a Christmas withdrawal because my pharmacist can't even source generic Roxy 30's anymore and I don't have any MS to esterify. But none the less Good Job Shroomster.
 
Hah, yeah, Shroomy, there have been a number of days like yesterday where I was left thinking "Is this some kind of hint that I should quit?", but it never sinks in... Not for long anyways. Hooked up today and back to the normal grind.

On another note, my badass new Microtech knife arrived today, but it was delivered to a friend's house as I used his debit card and have him the cash. My bank won't issue me a card, and you can probably guess why... was swiping that thing like it was going out of style! But yeah, it's an out-the-front auto knife, or switchblade for all intents and purposes. Legal statewide, but individual municipalities have their own laws, so have to be a bit careful. Here's what I got: https://www.knifecenter.com/item/MT...ashed-plain-tanto-blade-black-aluminum-handle
 
lol that is so funny I made so many people cringe at flushing the oxy's... insane street value too but I don't give a fuuuuuuck.

I took 60mg IR and almost killed myself not realized how much my tolerance had dropped. I also used 30mg the next day, and had two nice stimulating highs. I woke up the 3rd day sick, and it was fucking miserable. I wanted to get high before my 4am shift, so I paced back and forth back and forth for around 10 minutes with the pill bottle in my hand. I knew I was going to completely fuck myself after being free for 5 weeks, so I said fuck it and flushed them.

I believe that if I hadn't done that, I would now be dead. I would have chased that insane nod I had on Monday that nearly killed me, and it took until Friday before I felt like myself again and had the energy to play my guitar, be happy and creative again and stuff. That oxy drains the life out of my very spirit.

I knew I was going to relapse full force. I simply cannot be around the drug in any way at all, and I had a massive bottle of pills at my disposal. My friend who got hit by a car, wasn't going to get shit. I was going to take every last one of them and if I hadn't died yet, about a week later I'd be snorting heroin and probably so depressed and discouraged that I'd start shooting it, as I had already done that 5 times and it was one of the catalysts that made me realize I should probably stop.

My life is worth more than a silly bottle of pills. That, in my humble opinion, is exactly where they belong. Not anywhere near my hands!!! I really didn't care I'm not addicted anymore and I had a sick, unbelievable nod like never before that was worth the value of the script I paid for anyway! Nearly killed me though, so the pills had to go. Opiates ruin me, they completely wreck my brain to the point I can't function and I'm just dead inside after a single use. Took me all week to recover from essentially one nod before I felt like myself again. My fiery spirit isn't worth trading for that. If I had dosed a 3rd morning in a row, I would have completely fucked myself, lost control and been unable to stop.
 
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Holy Crap that's a nice knife! That makes my Gerber look... inadequate. Even has the window striker on the back, Merry Christmas.
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Gerber makes a nice product, I've owned several and they'll last forever if taken care of well. As far as the Microtech, well, I've had a boner for one for a while now. I had a Schrade OTF knife that was about $45 on Amazon, and while cool, it did nothing to curb the want for a legit badass OTF blade. I shouldn't have dropped the $ for it, but I know I'll enjoy owning it. It's also one of their cheaper models, I've seen them hit 7 grand! Had meteorite inlays, mirror polished blade... It was one slick mammjamma.
 
That thing's a beauty. Now you have me wantin one.
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Dude... if you had that and saw me flushing all those oxy's, I would likely end up with several stab wounds :D

I had to do it because although I have chronic thoracic spinal pain, I find that the pain is better and easier to deal with when I am not caught up in the addiction. It really got bad for me. I don't know how common this is because I felt fine for the first 2 years and was quite happy during that time, but after 5 years I could no longer afford a consistent supply and became suicidal. I would run out, and knock myself out with enormous benzo doses mixed with baclofen doses that were 200mg a day or so. Just to get me through to my next fix, selling more guitar pedals or manipulating people or whatever. I was the most miserable I have ever been in my life, and by the end of it I was so sick that I was essentially spending months in bed. I spent all April to July this year essentially bedridden, and I didn't feel fully recovered until a few weeks ago because every month I would pick up my oxy script thinking I could use them for pain, and they would be gone in less than a week. Sometimes three days. So yeah dude they really had to go, I am doing wonderful now my whole entire life has changed!

I stopped tripping for the time being... I was tripping daily on 2c-c and 2c-d for a while. I stored them away, so that I am not tempted lol. I adore both of those psychs. I used to have 3 grams of 2cc... now I have around a 100mg snowball that I am saving for perhaps 5 years from now.

Nice to be just a pothead again. There are a few psychs I have that I'd love to try in the near future... more DPT at a higher dose, DMT to start to ground me a bit, and 4-ho-mipt. I'd also really like to get ahold of some 4-ho-det. I am all 2c-x'd out for a while, but I'd love to try LSM too, perhaps with some DMT as they are both sedating (DMT sedates me, as intense the experience can be... never tried LSM but I heard it's pretty dreamy).
 
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Met my buddy on his break from work and got the knife. Wooooweee, this is a bad mofo. Going to make a GIF to share with you guys when I get on some WiFi.

Edit: Not only does it have the serial number on the pocket clip, it has the month and year it was born; 11/2017! It's just a baby!
 
SS: Baby pictures are a must! And some Teflon oil.

Shroomy:
Stab you??? No way! I have 12 gauge beanbag shotgun shells the police use for riot control.;) But seriously I've been following your posts for nearly a year and you had me worried a few times, you sound like you're doing quite well and I truly hope it stays this way as you have a long life ahead of you. The 2C-x is also intriguing as it seemed to be a valuable tool for you, even if blackened your room with all the candles. So do you have a plan to continue easing off the benzos or take your time with those, slaying one demon at a time and all?
 
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