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The snow has just about all melted, this ending what was likely our one and only instance of that dreadful shit this season. At least I hope. This area isn't remotely prepared for any amount of snow, much less the load we got. I'm just fine without such a clusterfuck, thanks.
 
Dudes... does it matter that I impulsively flushed a few grams of oxy to save my fucking life? I have a lot to give to this world, more than poisoning fish. I don't even really eat them I'm almost entirely a vegetarian. Fuck whatever I poisoned, I was about to poison myself and nearly DIED the other! Are you forgetting the context here, haha? I am a fiend of 5 years with 5 or 6 weeks clean time... I think 6 by now... and I had just had the most hardcore not of my life off 60mg IR oxy and nearly fucking DIED as I had taken benzos and baclofen the night before. This was the morning. I got my pills at 9am the moment they opened and got the highest I have ever been on an opiate or opioid in my 5 years of abuse. I nodded over every square inch of my place, I didn't even know where I was until I opened my eyes every once in a while. I was gonna finish those in a few days and if I was still alive, got straight for the dope. If that happens again I will end up a full blown IV user as I taught myself earlier this year, and did that 5 times. It was one of the reasons I quit. Figured I was gonna kill myself doing that... fuck the fish lol. I woke up that morning sick for the first time in ages, the high was so good and lasted 5 hours. Wasn't thinking straight I couldn't get ready for my 4am shift as I was pacing back and forth debating whether or not to take them. It was the only immediate means of destroying them I could think of. Plus... who disposes of oxy's these days anyway haha. Quite a rare thing to do, but necessary for my survival in my case.

Just shredded guitar for a whole hour until I was soaked in sweat... got another recording that is probably my sickest stuff yet!
 
We're screwing around bro.... Good job on having that level of control. I know I don't yet.... Possibly ever. Fucking Asperger's
 
I don't know what they would call me... borderline for sure. Definitely borderline haha. Hell knows what else. Panic disorder for sure. I didn't have the self control not to pick up the damn things to begin with, but as soon as I got a 12 hour hardcore nod going like that just one time and woke up sick, I knew what had to (sadly, from a head perspective) be done with the rest.

I'm screwing around as well bro:)
 
Don't get down on yourself though. Learning to not use opiates is a process that should be done early in life.... Sadly that's not how it works
 
It's really hard not to sometimes man... seems like you know that. Feels like I threw away my early/mid and most of my late 20's away... but I changed in ways that I otherwise don't think I ever would have, and feel like there is nothing holding me back from realizing my full potential.

It's not about how I feel; it's about the hurricane I have to clean up and then start rebuilding my life.
 
Yeah I stated opiates at 19 and I'm 26 now. The iv heroin has only been the last few years. Chronic pain sucks...
 
My goodness so many young folks here !
Some of you , though my peers , are the ages of my Children !

Ah Hell Mary what's age?
 
Chronic pain is shit. I've had it since my early 20's. I never thought of touching an opiate until it had been 2 years of excruciating chronic pain in my spine and had tried literally everything for so I got a gram of dope. Eventually got into pm and an oxy script after mri's and stuff, but I was already hooked then as the waiting period for a specialist is measured in years here. Remember smoking opium before my first appointment, that was someone's cancellation. Strange how you mention your iv use as it was at the 5th year of my heroin use when I decided to shoot it. I shot it a total of 5 times, and if I ever went back to it I'm sure I'd be doing that full time before I knew it. That was earlier this year... not the best memories really. Although the high hitting so fast and feeling better so quickly was crazy. When I'd sniff it when I was sick, it would always take 15 minutes before I felt well again.

Anyways, I'm stuck dealing with thoracic spine pain now with fuck all. The best thing for me is to keep positive and active and try not to let myself dwell on it or pay any attention to it. Since I quit, it has been getting better too. Sometimes days of physical agony... but I'd rather not self medicate with heroin anymore, because it numbed my personality too, and my ability to be creative. For a while, it made me forget I ever hurt my spine.

A lot of young people are dying of opiates these days, but I think the peak is around my age (25 - 35) so that is when for young professionals a lifetime of drug abuse seems to really catch up. That's what it was like for me... I was never strung out until my mid 20's and after the health problems fucked with me a lot. I saw today a news article, that showed a whole collection of very young people (like 18 to 20) who had died of heroin overdoses. Couldn't believe it. I tried finding it but couldn't, really they are everywhere though... haven't read this one yet. https://www.statnews.com/feature/opioid-epidemic/obituaries/
 
Hey Shroomy,
Earl Grey Tea was great, just like the Muskrat-Old Dog sessions. There's always room in my inbox for more.

That link you posted was some cold reality shit. So many young people with respectable careers and aspirations. Pictures and backstories seem to give it more of an impact for sure.
https://www.statnews.com/feature/opi...ic/obituaries/

Then I found this link in the comments of the above page. It only proves that the "system" has a long way to go and that this is no easy problem.
https://medium.com/@ThomasKlineMD/s...pioid-pain-medication-reductions-356b4ef7e02a
 
Maybe all my high speed data is running low. I went to the opioid obituaries article and barely got in when my screen booted me out.

Ohhhhh Lordy I guess I shudder to hear the 2017 numbers.....
 
No, it largely doesn't matter you flushed oxycodone.

If everyone flushed excess meds, like they already do, then bad things will happen. SSRI's have already changed fish behavior. Hormonal drugs build up in fish, then we eat those fish in turn. It's not a desirable cycle.
 
That was more of a joke TacoDude after writing that I realized it looked kinda assholeish
 
Shroomy,

At least you didn't flush Methadone which has been shown to produce NDMA- N-nitrosodimethylamine- a potent carcinogen when methadone in wastewater is treated with chloramines which is literally everywhere.

https://www.pbs.org/newshour/science/methadone-cancer-carcinogen-drinking-water

The pharmaceutical methadone, which is used to mitigate heroin withdrawal symptoms and is also prescribed for chronic pain, contains a dimethylisopropylamine functional group that reacts to form large amounts of NDMA upon chloramination.

http://pubs.acs.org/doi/abs/10.1021/acs.estlett.5b00096
 
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Being a social thread--- ima pretend for a moment that i have a Social Life. Ha ha

The Holidays are a fun time of year for me, as long as seasonal depression stays the Fuck outta the picture. My kids are grown, yet young enuf they still love to gather, eat my Bomb holiday goodies , play games at a large table and exchange gifts throughout. We had a blast last year; hoping for repeats this year. (5 kids!)

I'm not sure what threads I've mentioned it in, but I lost my Dad about 19 months ago. He had lung cancer: I was his caregiver and at his side when he Transitioned, from this life to whatever the Next Step may be. So last years holidays were defiantly tainted with a loss, a sadness; that Logical feeling that the world had now become Altered, and Nothing will ever be quite the "same " again .

My heart is slow in healing
But it's coming along.

I still enjoy some various holiday Traditions aside from just those mentioned above.
I love the Ritual of dragging out the Christmas decorations (I decided to no longer put up a Tree, in my apartment. One of my cats is a real Climber and things got dangerous last year in the five days I had a Tree up.)
I still put out stockings, knick -knacks, decorations. Although the Family gatherings now take place at the homes of our relatives, my husband and I have certain "items" we put out each year.
I did this tonight; took down the Autumn decorations and put out the Christmas ones. The actual WEEK OF Christmas, I will put the Nativity up (small frosted cystal set had belonged to my husband's parents). On Christmas Eve, I lay tiny Baby Jesus in the manger.

Little rituals.
Baking pumpkin pies and wrapping holiday gifts.... baking up cookies n treats : making trays for neighbors n friends. These things my parents did before me and my now-Adult children are beginning to do in their own homes.....

Bittersweet, these special occasions. but they are markedly more comfortable and enjoyable when I Observe the little rituals and traditions as best I can.

Last year was difficult all December, right up to Christmas eve when I got off my butt and Forced myself to make treats, wrap presents, put a traditional holiday movie on the DVD player. The Spirit took over and I was Ok after that.

I truly wish ALL life's comforts and joys to everyone this holiday season; May we ALL be Blessed with wellness and Peace .


i'm sorry to hear about your dad. <3

christmas is a really tough time of year for a lot of people. i miss a lot of my family - those that have passed, and those of us that are in different parts of the world. my siblings and i all live in different countries and i feel a bit bad for my mum and dad that they will be alone again this year.

i've never been one for the whole christmas spirit thing, because i'm not reliigious, but also because i've seen it as a sad day for a long time.
i should have arranged to fly home for xmas but it is complicated.

also, a lot of the traditions of christmas that most of the world follows would be batshit crazy on a hot australian summer's day.
i know some people have a big roast for lunch with teir families or whatever, but my family tended towards cold meats and salad. i stopped eating meat about 20 years ago - so i don't feel very much attached to any sort of christmas traditions.

i just try to make sure that if anyone i know seems particularly down or troubled around this time of year, to do my best to look out for them. as i said to begin with - it's a really sad time for a lot of people and that worries me sometimes.

i hope the holiday season this year won't be too hard for you and your family.

Dude was bout to be like... how much do you want for the unfinished ash guitar body? Love the look of my buttescotch ash telecaster with maple neck and mine feels quite light. This proletarian pothead ain't going nowhere but bookstores, coffee shops, and pub gigs in town. I'm about to practice though since I am working with a few of the parts I liked from my improvisation yesterday. Really like the higher frequency phase and long delay, makes playing fun when I'm so baked.

nice. do you have a picture (or a link to something similar?)

i used to play a tele, they're very nice guitars, but i sold mine when it was gathering dust after i got a jaguar, and then the ever so beautiful gretsch i play now.
i'd never had a hollow body or semi acoustic guitar before, but i'm a total convert. the harmonic resonance and feedback capabilities are phenomenal :)

i think if i ever were to get a solid-body electric guitar again, i'd consider another telecaster. they're solid, no-bullshit guitars, and not as toppy as some of the other fenders (like mustangs for instance, which look great but lack bottom-end for my kind of playing.
teles though - you can't go wrong.

i'm not a guitar collector though - i only like to own what i use, and i have a really nice old 1961 harmony archtop acoustic, which is just good to have on hand for acoustic stuff (i've done a little studio work with it, but nothing major - few overdubs here and there)and my beautiful gretsch which i use for live shows and recordings.

i hate touring with the gretsch though. well - not touring so much as trusting it to baggage handlers and airlines.
the bodies on those things aren't the toughest instruments around, and i don't have the greatest road case for it. last time i took it on tour, the fucking airline left it sitting in the middle of the terminal, nowhere near the baggage claim thingol, and it really freaked me out, i thought they'd lost it.

so...i occasionally think about getting something better to tour with. something tough like...another telecaster :)

there is an incredible vintage guitar store near where i live, and the guys that own it are from my hometown and we have a lot of mutual friends because one of them was in a pretty successful group from there in the early 2000s.
anyway, i like to go in and play all of their ridiculously hot gutars for hours at a time, because they're happy to let me do so and i love talking vintage guitar with guys like that who fix them up and sell them - they know their shit.

last time i went there i spent about 2 hours and picked up every beautiful guitar that caught my eye.
of all the great guitars, my favourite was a 1973 telecaster deluxe, something like this:

fender-72-telecaster-deluxe-walnut-249993.jpg


if i were inclined to add another electric guitar to my huge stash of instuments, i think that would be one of them.
sounds, feels and looks smokin' hot.

but i still love my gretsch most of all, haha. i think this month must mark 7 years since i got it, too.
it's really nice after playing for years and constantly upgrading to better guitars as i could afford them, to feel like i've found the set up (guitar and amp) that absolutely works for me.
it's a dreamy combination i've got, and it really gives me a unique sound.



i've posted pics before, but i'm going to do it again because she's sexy as fuck, and looks like this;


gretsch-g6118-125th-anniversary-smoke-green-338122.jpg




;)


tl;dr - guitar blatherings.



edit -
i really really love playing guitar - and oh yeah, i nearly forgot, but i started a new band recently, and we booked our first gig yesterday, for sometime in early february.
that's going to be fun, and my other band are currently spread across the globe, so we won't be doing anything until at least march next year either. i think 2018 will be a very productive musical year for me though.
i want to play as many shows as i can possibly manage, and i'm thrilled to be in a town with hundreds of venues to let us do that. the music scene here is so ridiculously healthy, it's insane - and my older, more established band got an almost embarrassingly enthusiastic response from a lot of people last time we played here, so that's exciting.

this year has been nuts, and i think only did about 4 gigs, which is pretty crummy - but we did put out an LP and i have co-written (literally) hundreds of songs with the new band (which is a vehicle for a very old songwriting partnership - a guy i've been writing songs with since about 2003).

so it hasn't all been a waste of time. far from it :)
 
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I used to do plagiarism to hustle money from smack. Would get paid solid money for a night time of drug fuelled work. One of "my" assignments was for a technical research paper and class presentation, and I chose to do this on wastewater treatment. Just reading the article... birth control pills do this too? Well, I guess they are then technically regulating the population in another way too.

This is fucked man... fuck tap water... NDMA is a really potent carcinogen eh, and they are finding it at way higher levels than are low risk to humans. Oh and yeah I figured it was urine excretion because who would flush methadone... haha. I wonder what all that 2c-c is making me piss out... I'd sign up for an extensive study. Oh man there are places in India where they go sewage diving like in jewelry distracts... so fucked. Gotta watch out for those snakes in them sewage.

Dude it's like a transformation in energy... trying to save people ends up putting a slight risk on anyone who drinks tap water where there isn't activated charcoal being used in nearby water treatment plants.

Fascinating article man. NMDA... N-nitrosodimethylamine... fuck that shit...

I had a nice morning working while chatting with my colleague I have a serious crush on. Gonna get stoned and play some more guitar today.
 
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