Tubbs
Bluelight Crew
that's methed up captain. honestly i really want some, keep telling myself it ain't worth it but my brains telling me im a fuckin liar
The 2c-_ series largely resembles NE. It isn't surprising you could have a panic attack that way.
When I shot 2c-E into my muscle it still had an extremely sharp come-up (probably just as strong as shooting some drugs IV) and I was very high and manic as it was quite intense. Just 5mg. Really decent effects. Couldn't drive, it was too intense. Didn't panic though.
I love how a solid OG shatter tastes on its own. %)
I had a panic attack, as I have them naturally sometimes and the come up from railing a large amount of 2c-c was very fast and intense. Only time it has happened since I've been using it these past few weeks. Also, I realized today that I need to distance myself from friends who are either severely mentally ill and take it out on me, or who are miserable drug addicts, or both. I have a lot of great, unique, and interesting friends but when I will do everything I can to help someone over something as stupid as a 3 day coke and Mdma binge and get treated like shit in return, that is where I draw the line.
I have blocked my friends from contacting me in any way for at least the next few weeks, then maybe I'll check to see if they are still alive. I need new friends who are healthy, balanced people too as this has been exhausting and draining me. I can only do so much when people are in denial, and I will, but when they start taking it out on me that is just not cool.
I am starting a second, self employed job. 3 women yesterday who I was talking about essential oils with asked me to make potions for their ailments. The first chick likes black pepper oil and its therapeutic effects but it is unbearably sharp and has a bad scent. I balanced it out with lavender, roman chamomile, clary sage, and 2 parts sandalwood and it is really nicely balanced and anxiolytic. It is nice to help out people who I feel are not going to insult me in return. This chick I am asking nothing for, as I think she is very cute and she might enjoy my company too. The other two women, one offered me $10 and to meet up after her shift, she could be a great friend I feel and help me find others who would like healing potions too. The third is an older lady who was in line at the cash and offered to print me out banners, posters, and business cards if I can draw them up in return for her migraine formula. Perhaps, I could ask the first chick I sort of have a crush on to help me make business cards (I think I would like this to be word of mouth only).
Weirdest thing is before all this happened, I randomly bought three small, amber potion vials. Had no idea I'd be making three potions for people, and I bought a Hogwarts hat. I think that is the end of me. I have officially lost touch with reality.
It's astonishing how profoundly other people's problems can affect my emotions. I need new friends who are not selfish and discarding their potential in life through neglect, denial, self harm, depression, narcissism, drug abuse... I have quite the friends, you see. I am trying to surround myself with beauty and getting into things like aromatherapy is helping me with that, as you don't really find drug addicts in denial who are into naturopathic healing and the sensory pleasures and delights generated by the olfactory nerve and natural extracts.
I wouldn't mix these with hash oil... that would ruin it I feel. However, I would take a dab (if I could afford that presently, all I have is some nice organic outdoor) and then use these oils to modulate the stone as they contain terpenes that are in my opinion far more efficient to absorb and more powerful in effect than those in any strain of pot. Terpenes tend to be a lot more stable in liquid, amber vials too and get oxidized so easily. I don't even really need a specific strain of pot anymore, really just for taste.