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Does Anything Feel BETTER Than Your Favorite Opiate? (Addicts Only)

FunctionlJnkieGal said:
Bet you can't. I know I can't...
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I used to think nothing would be better, not even sex. But being sober forces us to look differently towards life. I guess the love I have for my children turned things around, I think love is the only powerful feeling that can change things so that you start seeing life differently. However, the thought of going back to a world of illusions and warmth makes me worried sometimes. With time we often tend to forget how some of us got here and remember only the good parts. It's a life sentence I guess, you can't ever stop thinking of it, even if it's less often than it used to be.
 
FunctionlJnkieGal said:
Pill2Chill, I can relate 100%. Tikhil, I don't see how you find hallucinogens euphoric, but I guess we all have our preferences. To me they're fun at first, but once it peaks and until it wears off, they give me terrible anxiety almost as bad as dissociatives like DXM. I've never tried MDMA since you never really know what you're getting without a testing kit, but as for cocaine/crack and meth, uppers have never been my cup of tea (though Addies and Concerta can be useful if you have to stay focused for hours on end). But I never had anything IV'd outside of what was given to me after surgery. Caffeine is as far as I'll go with stimulants now that I'm set in my ways and know what I like. I usually just stick to coffee, opiates and weed daily (even though weed doesn't do much for me now) and I get drunk maybe once a week if I have enough cash to spare for a bottle. All in all though, nothing can top how I good I feel after swallowing about 300mg worth of ms contin, especially if I take it with liquor and chain-smoke the entire duration of my high with a bowl of top-shelf dro to puff on here and there. *Mixing booze and painkillers is VERY dangerous though. I have a very specific way I do this to avoid hurting myself, but in retrospect is still don't recommend that anyone try it.*
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I'm not a very anxious person these days, so i can generally enjoy my psychs without that worry. But it's the combination of specific psychs with nitrous that really generates high levels of euphoria . Unlike anything opis ever offered me.
 
SirTophamHat said:
The other week a young cutie at work told me not to worry about being bald because I remind her of Professor X//Patrick Stewart. I'm easy to please, and even so that compliment definitely felt better than most of my opiate highs :D
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Hahaaaa! That's awesome and Kudo's to you sir. It's hard to beat Professor X ! =D
 
Tikhil, I agree that nitrous is AWESOME. Too bad it doesn't last unless your sitting in a dentist chair with your mouth wide open. XD I use to work at a head-shop that sold nitrous balloon/cracker sets. One day our boss told us we needed to test some of the cartridges to make sure they were still good to sell. We had a blast. Back when my parents were still married, my mom would get pissed at my dad 'cause she would find whipped cream cans under the bathroom sink. Haha. :)
 
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Man I so agree. Nitrous is way underrated. Can't say it beats heroin for me, but still really good.

Also that job sounds awesome.
 
Yeah, its great. I gotta say I still prefer ms contin over anything else too (gotta love the legs). I miss working at that head-shop, but I make more money bartending anyway.
 
Man o’ man, I injected speedballs from 2004-2007, that was the ultimate feeling for me....until I injected .25 mg of Meth and I never really cared much for meth when I used to smoke it. The 1st time I tried it was .25 mg of Meth mixed with 4mg Dilauded in the rig and holy fucking heavens to Betsy I was so in love with that rush, that I only made it 2 weeks on that run....I ended up at Emory hospital in Atlanta admitted for 2 weeks from cellulitis Edema from missing a shot on the top of my right hand. That was in 2015, i haven’t done Meth since then...it took a good 6 months for me to get over that insane obsession that IV Meth gave me....fuck
 
SirTophamHat said:
The other week a young cutie at work told me not to worry about being bald because I remind her of Professor X//Patrick Stewart. I'm easy to please, and even so that compliment definitely felt better than most of my opiate highs :D
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I'm totally gonna call you prof X from now on. :D
 
Just feeling natural emotions in a balanced healthy way once again after a long period of opioid use is such a better feeling than getting high. It's a shame I often loose sight of that whilst in the middle of opioid addiction.

Even feeling sadness can so how still sometimes feel better than a rush followed by hollow numbness . A good cry can feel incredible in a way I can't truly explain.

Now some emotions I could live without (anger, jealousy, remorse, etc) but all emotions come as a packaged deal. Gotta take the good with the bad and it's honestly worth doing so... But addiction has a way of making you think otherwise.

I need to break this addiction (again, for the however many-th time) I really miss feeling alive.
 
Interesting hearing you say about crying and how good that feels. I say this because I think I lost my capacity to do it, I don't cry ever. It's not because I don't want to, and definitely not because I'm happy and never get sad or depressed. I do get pretty sad at times, but I can't cry. It feels like an emotional constipattion.
 
(Nitrous) On its own, it's nice, but add in some LSD (or trypt of choice) a lil dossicative and rage a tank for a few hours. Thats bliss right there,
 
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Erikmen said:
Interesting hearing you say about crying and how good that feels. I say this because I think I lost my capacity to do it, I don't cry ever. It's not because I don't want to, and definitely not because I'm happy and never get sad or depressed. I do get pretty sad at times, but I can't cry. It feels like an emotional constipattion.
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Interesting, I’ve never heard of that. I’ve heard a few pathetic men claim they never cry cause they just don’t get that emotional, my idiot brother is one of those types. But I’ve never heard of someone who seemed physiologically unable too.
 
JessFR said:
Interesting, I’ve never heard of that. I’ve heard a few pathetic men claim they never cry cause they just don’t get that emotional, my idiot brother is one of those types. But I’ve never heard of someone who seemed physiologically unable too.
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This is something I see in many survivors of acute trauma, male and female. There seems to be a psychological block preventing them from expressing sadness and pain in a normal and functional way (ie crying). Idk its actually a physiological block, my guess would be it is psychological in basis.
 
Interesting. Makes sense. For me it’s the reverse extreme. If something triggers my emotions in a certain way I virtually can’t talk at all cause all my energy is used up trying not to cry. And even if I did I still wouldn’t be able to get a word out.
 
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Tikhil said:
This is something I see in many survivors of acute trauma, male and female. There seems to be a psychological block preventing them from expressing sadness and pain in a normal and functional way (ie crying). Idk its actually a physiological block, my guess would be it is psychological in basis.
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I'm grateful as I'm making some progress ever since I managed to stop taking opiates 2.6 years ago and have been sort of immersed through therapy. I really hope I can manage to unblock this so my soul and heart can be set free, so to speak. Thank you for your post.
 
Oxynormal, interesting that you mention a stim and sex binge. My fiance and I had this ex-dealer that brought us some free crystal to smoke with him and his girl. Once they left, my fiance and I commenced to f*cking non-stop like rabbits. Neither one of us could get off, but the compulsion to try was still there. We gave up on trying to get eachother off and just started watching porn on our own computers, trying to get ourselves off instead. Still didn't happen. It wasn't even fun for us. We just wanted something to do with all that energy. Too bad we both had to work the next day. We didn't even get 1 hour of sleep due to those shenanigans. We felt like shit but promised eachother we would never touch that shit again, not even if its free.
 
I thought about this for a while. It’s a very intriguing question.

Having my 1 year old daughter look at me, and love me, and smile at me, and crawl on me and slobber on me, and think I’m perfect and infallible.

Having my five year old son sit on my lap while we watch a movie together and fall asleep on my lap.

That is honestly the only thing that feels better than opiates. And is the reason I want to quit before I lose complete control (which I’m getting close to...) So my children never find out what a fuck-up their dad is.
 
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