ShroomySatori
Bluelighter
This really got to me, I can relate a lot. Erikmen's reply from before. Did anyone mention it ruins sex? To the point that after a week it was destroying my relationship and she is a lovely woman who I somehow randomly met after I detoxed the dope... not that we are all about sex haha. There were a lit of ither opiate related problems that were fucking with me to the point my romance was falling apart at an alarming rate until I stopped the oxy's a week later and we just looked at each other and acknowledged it was the oxy... not that withdrawal is ever an excuse.
I had that relapse on oxy's and I was suicidal for several days. The opiates make me suicidal and once you are hooked a relapse isna relapse. If anything the oxy is worse in ways because for 1 I didn't get all that high for that one week of relapse. It started a fiending for heroin reaction and I also got straight up moderate dope sickness (nothing like shitting myself, but being suicidal for days on end and bedredden still isn't fun)
If I go back to dope I may as well chop my dick off as my friend said. The long term effect on testosterone is horrific. Within a single day, I no longer have any desire for my girlfriend. It's insane and she's worth so much more than a dumbass drug that easily could have killed me. It makes no sense at all that I still want it... whoever is reading this I'm sure is a little cockier about the whole heroin thing. Spending a couple weeks bedridden in excruciating pain, completely fucking debilitated really isn't fun and absolutely anyone can get addicted if they use it in any way at all. I was a sniffer and it still ruined years of my life. I will honestly never be that carefree guy again. Every day is a fight now and trying to make up for lost time and the mess you made, while dope sick, really does require patience.
Constipation, total loss of sex drive, constricted pupils, financial ruin and life ruining in general... the most miserable thing in the world once you're hooked and you don't have it. Sheer torture. That was my experience and the scary thing is I know relapses happen. My tolerance has gotten so low that a small line of heroin could easily kill me if I decided to do it again. My girlfriend is a total sweetheart about all this and she's helping so much but I'm getting clean for me of course because it destroys my life literally in a single day.
I had that relapse on oxy's and I was suicidal for several days. The opiates make me suicidal and once you are hooked a relapse isna relapse. If anything the oxy is worse in ways because for 1 I didn't get all that high for that one week of relapse. It started a fiending for heroin reaction and I also got straight up moderate dope sickness (nothing like shitting myself, but being suicidal for days on end and bedredden still isn't fun)
If I go back to dope I may as well chop my dick off as my friend said. The long term effect on testosterone is horrific. Within a single day, I no longer have any desire for my girlfriend. It's insane and she's worth so much more than a dumbass drug that easily could have killed me. It makes no sense at all that I still want it... whoever is reading this I'm sure is a little cockier about the whole heroin thing. Spending a couple weeks bedridden in excruciating pain, completely fucking debilitated really isn't fun and absolutely anyone can get addicted if they use it in any way at all. I was a sniffer and it still ruined years of my life. I will honestly never be that carefree guy again. Every day is a fight now and trying to make up for lost time and the mess you made, while dope sick, really does require patience.
Constipation, total loss of sex drive, constricted pupils, financial ruin and life ruining in general... the most miserable thing in the world once you're hooked and you don't have it. Sheer torture. That was my experience and the scary thing is I know relapses happen. My tolerance has gotten so low that a small line of heroin could easily kill me if I decided to do it again. My girlfriend is a total sweetheart about all this and she's helping so much but I'm getting clean for me of course because it destroys my life literally in a single day.