somnilicious
Bluelighter
Tonight I told my mom exactly how bad my cocaine addiction has become. She knows that I have used, and she knows I've been addicted, but I don't think she knew that there has been a resurgence in my addiction. I told her everything, about how I'd use when I was living with my ex as a way to cope with the abuse I was enduring, as well as when I shot the first time - the day before Easter this-past April. She told me she knew there was something wrong with me when my ex and I came here for Easter Sunday for dinner.
She told me that she was going to do everything she can to help me through my addiction. She wants me to work with her to ensure that I don't use again. She was so helpful and so understanding. I didn't even plan to talk to her, everything just started coming out. It felt really good to open up to her.
Cocaine is obviously on my mind right now, and I do have that "longing" for it, but I'm not going to do that to myself again. I have to keep moving forward.
An awesome 1st step.. My parents have known about my addictions in all their glorious forms for 15 or more yrs. I pretty much confide everything to my dad. It really helps because it helps keep me somewhat accountable and allows me their help when the shit has hit the fan.. I went to rehab in 2008 for crack and Iv cocaine usage.. My parents were instrumental. They know all the gory details, trials, tribulations and falls and know that I am def. trying despite my setbacks. Keep that attitude of always moving towards recovery no matter what happens.