Alright I cleaned up the place a little, TMT IS in the corner wearing the dunce cap for a while.
Also, do what zephyr said, thank you by the way, PM in case of an issue, I get an email then. And yeah, I do have a life outside BL, my home job is becoming 50-75% at the office now, which is a promotion in of itself, but I'm a pretty low maintenance guy, I still live in the 3 room ½ (that's a Canada thing... that means 4 rooms and a bathroom, no matter the size, bathrooms are always ½ for some reason) condo I got when I wanted to get rid of my student loans quickly, I didn't even have a car the second year I was working making 68k a year, when I was working as an analytical chemist, I'd take the subway/metro and then the bus to get to work and the back everyday, sometimes you're lucky it's not very far and the bus not needed, but when I lived in Montreal I lived in the northern part, pretty far from the industrial areas, it was hard to tell I was in a city considering where I was living even. Now that I live nowhere, I needed a car, the bank who kept harassing me to give me massive limit credit cards and credit margins were happy when I asked for a car loan, the Subaru dealership's plans sucked and I wanted a four wheel drive car, kinda mandatory up north here.
I left the loperamide posts...despite desperately wanting to delete them or ask the OD mods to absorb the posts....Lope when you take enough for it to work, is neurotoxic. Makes Demerol and Talwin worth removing the therapeutic index from them (more than 200-250mg of each of these is toxic, 200mg is great a high, one I wish to rekindle again when I get off the bupe, I got on bupe and methadone before that because a doctor who had me on CodeineContin 200mg every 12 hours with 3 percodans max for breakthrough pain, a maxilofacial dentist, specialist of the jaw, TMJ disorder and such. The ORT clinic already has my request to the pain clinic, which is next door in the hospital where the ORT clinic is ready, but first I gotta get off bupe...a road that seems infinite, it was much easier to get off methadone, when I was taking just 39mg a day for a week before I was switched to bupe after waiting 48 hours, I felt like my brain was out of the opiate fog and felt no pain at the 3 areas that can cause me horrible pain from time to time or constantly.
Anyway, not a post made for a biography, just saying that, I started to abuse because I was left out in the cold by a doctor who retired and couldn't give a shit about his previous patients I guess and I found a guy who sold Dillies 4 and 8 (and oxy ir 20's and oxycontins 20-30-40-60), but he was often out of oxy and the Dilaudid and HMContin was expensive, so of course I started shooting them, when just one Dilaudid 4 would get me that opi-crack rush...or one of the 6 crushed beads piles I'd make out of the 30mg HMContins...that was a lot more worthy of my money, although I shoulda stuck to snorting it, it worked great for me, the 55% nasal BA was real with me, but I got curious, injected 1mg and felt like woah...but didn't do it again for a long time, until I got a huge jar of 4mg brand name dillies, so I drove to the hospital ER triage, only place to get sterile injection kits with bacteriostatic water at any time of the day, especially since all pharmacies or almost all stopped providing them...which was the law until not long ago, they all had the red circle indicating they were exchanges but all but the one where I get my bupe has it now, and no, I would not go there to ask for injection kits heh.