@TheOpposite, please try to post one message at at time. Double, triple and even multiple posts just after a couple of minutes doesn't make sense and it makes the thread more complicated to understand.
I think this thread is a a bit loose, out of the trails so to speak, ever since you started to drink too much and post multiple posts at the meantime, all pretty much related to each other, sometimes one word's post, like "anything".
You haven't really replied to everyone that really tried to help you here, and I could say you used this place to offend those that are not with you - frequently much to say things that are not related to the initial subject.
One post at at time please. Especially if they are immediately related to each other.
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We can help you if you want to quit drinking and we are not judging you for using drugs. You can also look for other posts in reference to recovery or other drugs, etc. And post in other threads.
And I really mean we want you to be okay, but try to help yourself. As I've mentioned in my previous posts - you have gotten people worried about you so if you came here to get some help, let's do it without unnecessary name calling.