Greetings and Happy Belated 4th of July!
I have been struggling with multiple addictions for a number of years and although I'm not 100% there yet, this is the best that I have been in a long, long time.
I have been blessed to live right by the shoreline. As a matter of fact, I literally have less than a five-minute walk to the beach. In spite of this, I thought about it today and honestly could not remember the last time that I had been there. Why? Either I was home drinking/using or if
did go to the beach, I certainly don't remember being there in the past few years. I know, it's sad. I feel bad for even typing this because I know that there are probably city-bound readers who want to slap me right now!
Well, today I was 99% sober (I am currently on a very strict taper to avoid having a seizure or other withdrawal-related episode) and the weather was beautiful, so I decided to go for a walk. I had honestly forgotten just how beautiful it is out there! Now, let me stress that I am
not wealthy whatsoever, nor do I live in the best neighborhood. Nevertheless, the scenery was/is absolutely breathtaking. I only planned on a short walk, but ended up spending over an hour just wandering around and taking in the sights as though I was seeing them for the first time. (In a way, I sort of was.) I plan on going down there every chance I get from now on.
It doesn't have to be the beach though; It could be a park, the museum or your favorite room of the house. The point is, I will never forget this day. I savored every moment and felt higher than I have on any drug in quite a long time. I wish that everybody could feel like I did today. When I finish typing this, I am going to make a list of places that I want to visit in the near future. For that matter, it isn't just places; There is music that I want to write. There are old friends that I want to see. There is
so much that I want to do right now, I wish that it were earlier in the day. I cannot remember the last time that I have felt this excited about life.
Have a great night (or day if you are on the other side of the globe), and I will keep you all in my thoughts and prayers...
Peace, Love and Faith,
Dreamflyer