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Mental Health struggling to leave the house

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HezzaD

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Hi for last year or so i GOT REALLY DEPRESSED so since a year ago was abusing painkillers and weed and sometimes alcohol to escape my thoughts, anyway this caused my generalised anxiety disorder to get worse I also suffer with mild bipolar and traits of borderline personality.
I had a decay start on my teeth 2 years ago and theres days i been so depressed that aI dont even brush its horrible and disgusting I know but just stopped caring anyway one of teeth at side of my front quarter is black and hate talking to people with it but I get so scared to leave house even for drugs I keep my hood up and hope no one sees me.

before all this I was a gym goer really muscley, went gym for 2 years worked out for 3, I looked great everyone says I look like i gone downhill, got fat, rotten tooth, bags under eyes but always been an insomniac.

Anyway been taking duloxetine recently and starting to feel better plus ive finally found a flat to live in and homelessness aint running through my mind anymore,
Is olanzapine and duloxetine good for anxiety and agoraphobia theres been times ive skipped meals cos didnt wanna go shop 2minutes down the street.

Should I think fuck it and go gym today, will it help my anxiety going out more, Ive been on up to 30mg diazepam and i really think it makes it worse and sure i read something about benzos causing agorophobia


any tips for generalised anxiety disorder please and also Im very paranoid when I leave a room i know people talk about me cos say im a room with people and someone leaves someone always comments on them and I HATE HUMANS for that gossipers, and nasty people. I never bitch about people only if they pissed me off.

anyone with same illnesses as me or schizophrenia runs in my family please inbox me be nice to speak
 
I don't struggle with agoraphobia but my teeth aren't in the greatest shape due to years of neglect.

You have to brush and floss twice a day, every day!! Dental work is expensive, and it's much better to keep your teeth + gums healthy, than to have a root canal / crown / implant / full dentures.

Some cities have a low cost dental office that will do extractions, see if one of these are in your area. Untreated, this can lead to infections.
 
the anxiety and depression is making me wanna top myself, i cant enjoy things without rasndom things popping in my head its horrible i cant function
 
i think its important to engage with a psychologist who could help you with cognitive behavioural therapy, which i suspect in adjunct or even standalone would be of benefit to you in terms of generalised anxiety disorder.

medication is one aspect but you can't expect a drug to do all the work.

i also feel like this is relevant reading material "How To Not Give A F*ck What People Think"

do you talk about this stuff with your doctor? "the anxiety and depression is making me wanna top myself"
 
My heart goes out to you like you wouldn't believe! Agoraphobia is one of my many diagnoses. I have spent YEARS in the house before because of major depression.

You don't care about your appearance or health anymore and I ate and ate because I was miserable. The longer you stay in the house, the more terrying it is to face people. That is why seeing a psychiatrist and a therapist helps. It will force you to have to leave your comfort zone and interact with people.

Also, walk around your block
and work out in general. I've lost weight just working out in the house. Trust me it is frightening to be outside when you've shut the world out, but you will feel better after getting out and it breaks the ice.

I can tell I'm starting to head down a bad path if I don't leave the house for a week, then I get more afraid to go out.

Funnily enough, I broke out of my year long agoraphobia by making myself go on a date. The guy was very complimentary, called me beautiful and it boosted my self-esteem. It made me wonder "Why have I been hiding all this time?"

And you'd be surprised, people are way into themselves, they're not even looking at you. I used to think people were staring and judging. That's also a part of body dysmorphic disorder, but that's another story. It makes me feel like a fugly monster which is not the case.

Force yourself out when you can. Life is too short! Think about it, we all end up in a box and I am sick of missing out on life. I have been to rock concerts before, even alone and had a blast! Find a passion. Push yourself out. You'll be fine. Good luck!
 
Olanzapine is Zyprexa right? I do not think that helps with anxiety because my brain was in a total fog, I couldn't even think straight! It dumbed me down, no thanks. I told the psychiatrist yesterday I'm done with it.

I am bipolar and have a tendency to be scatterbrained. Vyvanse lasts in your system literally all day and night and triggered paranoia. Yesterday, she prescribed Ritalin for focus. I love it so far. It only lasts 4 hours in your system so I take one at 9 am and the other one 4 hours later. I am up, I have energy. I don't feel like killing myself and I am in a good mood. So maybe you could bring up Ritalin? It seems to help with depression, ADD and borderline personality.
 
I know that feeling and the longer it goes the worse it gets. Popping out a for a bit helps and the more you do it the easier it will bcome. I'm someone who suffers badly from what others think of me so I know what that feels like. Its hard not to but hey its right not to give two fucks about what others think. Definitely get out man and walk like when I do I always feel a bit better. More of a clear mind but thats my experience.
 
HezzaD said:
Hi for last year or so i GOT REALLY DEPRESSED so since a year ago was abusing painkillers and weed and sometimes alcohol to escape my thoughts, anyway this caused my generalised anxiety disorder to get worse I also suffer with mild bipolar and traits of borderline personality.
I had a decay start on my teeth 2 years ago and theres days i been so depressed that aI dont even brush its horrible and disgusting I know but just stopped caring anyway one of teeth at side of my front quarter is black and hate talking to people with it but I get so scared to leave house even for drugs I keep my hood up and hope no one sees me.

before all this I was a gym goer really muscley, went gym for 2 years worked out for 3, I looked great everyone says I look like i gone downhill, got fat, rotten tooth, bags under eyes but always been an insomniac.

Anyway been taking duloxetine recently and starting to feel better plus ive finally found a flat to live in and homelessness aint running through my mind anymore,
Is olanzapine and duloxetine good for anxiety and agoraphobia theres been times ive skipped meals cos didnt wanna go shop 2minutes down the street.

Should I think fuck it and go gym today, will it help my anxiety going out more, Ive been on up to 30mg diazepam and i really think it makes it worse and sure i read something about benzos causing agorophobia


any tips for generalised anxiety disorder please and also Im very paranoid when I leave a room i know people talk about me cos say im a room with people and someone leaves someone always comments on them and I HATE HUMANS for that gossipers, and nasty people. I never bitch about people only if they pissed me off.

anyone with same illnesses as me or schizophrenia runs in my family please inbox me be nice to speak
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I have generalized anxiety disorder too and agoraphobia. I'm also bipolar I/schizo-effective so we have a lot in common. One of the things you can do is make sure that you you sit out on your front porch or stoop or whatever you got out front for at least 15 minutes a day no matter what. It's what i did to get over the anxiety at first, baby steps.
 
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