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Anyone else had a codeine addiction?

KittyPaws said:
Day 6 .. I feel pretty normal actually. I still wake up not wanting to wake up.. I'm not sure what to do with myself or what to aim for. I have a good job which I'll be returning to at the end of the week ..but I've just realised that this habit actually started about 5 years ago.. I mean it wasn't until the last few months that I was taking sooo many tablets.. But it's like.. I don't even know who I am without any substance in me. 18/19years.. To almost 24 years old.. And I don't know the "real me" I'm probably just talking shit like always X
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kitty that is me to a T
started on drone at 16, moved onto benzos at 18, codeine by 19, and heroin til i hit 24
i'll be 25 on the 25th of november and its so scary considering celebrating my bday without any of my old 'friends' (if you know what i mean)

we can beat this, its just a matter of re-calibration and recuperation
 
Day 7, waking up slighter better because last night I discovered tv show Westworld :D I'm not going back, I feel less dizzy today and have made sure I eat daily and drink water but it's hard when you don't have an appetite.

I actually told my mum everything (she had a feeling anyway -all mums seem so know) and I'm lucky my parents have my back. Told a friend too which could've been risky since he's in the same profession I'm in.. But it felt better getting it out in the open.. It explained a lot.

So yay, a whole week, I don't even want any tablets. Every day does get better and easier, you just have to persist and believe that it will, believe in yourself that you have it in yourself to it.. It will pay off. I know I wont meet the right partner or have a family if I'm not living my life clean.. I have that in my head anyway .. and I've made myself believe I'm not authentically happy if I'm using substances to get there.. But I don't judge anyone who decides to use any substance if that's what they truly want.

I think I've been really lucky, I've read about some people have really struggled :( so I am really grateful. Also I have means of paying for private counselling which is tomorrow.. I think that will help me discover reasons behind addiction and what my psychological problems are.

Yes we *can* beat this X
 
Really impressed Kitty - even more so considering your profession - must be torture to exercise restraint when you have so many goodies so readily available.

I really need to read more experiences like this. Although it was heroin that inevitably got me it was dihydrocodeine that defined my formative experience with poppies and despite my now ridiculous tolerance to these things it's the one oral opiate / opioid (really don't know where heroin and DHC fall under these term due to their semi - synthetic nature) that I have continued to pursue and obtain at times, although the only buggers that break through now are the XR 120 mg efforts, well chewed with gear on top of course just for measure...
 
^ never found the DHCs to be that great for me? i was always on the co-co's (often without CWE) big mistake but luckily my liver survived that yearlong bashing, basically because i made the switch to the brown. 2.5 days opi-clean, hold tight wd crew we got it we got it

p.s. if you want more stories of recovery stee check my post in the heroin thread
<3
 
steewith2ees said:
...really don't know where heroin and DHC fall under these term due to their semi - synthetic nature...
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Just an FYI as I was curious about this too recently - heroin and dihydrocodeine are still considered opiates because the molecules, albeit semi-synthetic, are still derived from alkaloids found in opium. Things like fentanyl and tramadol don't have any structural relations to any opium alkaloids.

Also, mad props Kitty, sounds like you're through the worst of the acute withdrawal now! :)
 
ordinary mind said:
Just an FYI as I was curious about this too recently - heroin and dihydrocodeine are still considered opiates because the molecules, albeit semi-synthetic, are still derived from alkaloids found in opium. Things like fentanyl and tramadol don't have any structural relations to any opium alkaloids.

Also, mad props Kitty, sounds like you're through the worst of the acute withdrawal now! :)
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Cheers OM - another mystery solved xx
 
Oh dhc continus 120s? That's what I was on last. Crushing them to pieces, four at a time x
 
zzzlll I would try and repost this in another thread and someone with more experience may be able to help you. All the best xxx
 
Thanks new to this an taking me ages find the right thread. Il have another look thanks
 
KittyPaws said:
Oh dhc continus 120s? That's what I was on last. Crushing them to pieces, four at a time x
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I was never prescribed it but I ... erm ... used to have access to unused drugs due for disposal in another life. Plenty of 30mg standard DF118 to begin with but years later after I developed a habit 2 - 4 crushed up 120 mg continus were essential at one point in order for me to break through the ridiculous tolerance ceiling I had hit with st. heroin as I was getting through an 8 ball every 48 - 72 hours. My drug use has always been ridiculous in some respect or another but that was the pits that particular couple of months. 11 years ago though now...
 
Wow :/ I feel like I've dipped my toes into this lake of .. Whatever the fuck this is called.. And I've managed to get my foot out and it's just a little wet now. I don't think I'll ever touch H. If I have that reaction to dhc and codeine I can't even begin to imagine what it's like.. And what it would be like to try and 'shake it'.

Stee what country you from ?
 
KittyPaws said:
Wow :/ I feel like I've dipped my toes into this lake of .. Whatever the fuck this is called.. And I've managed to get my foot out and it's just a little wet now.
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you've gazed into the abyss Kitty my darlin', and the abyss has gazed back.
sorry to chuck Nietzsche at ya like that, i'm in an odd mood today; day 4 opi-free and feeling free-er by the day :)
 
KittyPaws said:
zzzlll I would try and repost this in another thread and someone with more experience may be able to help you. All the best xxx
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Indeedy. Post moved to appropriate thread.

zzzlll said:
Thanks new to this an taking me ages find the right thread. Il have another look thanks
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No problem - hello and welcome to BL and EADD in particular - hope we can be of some help :)
 
keeping said:
you've gazed into the abyss Kitty my darlin', and the abyss has gazed back.
sorry to chuck Nietzsche at ya like that, i'm in an odd mood today; day 4 opi-free and feeling free-er by the day :)
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How are you today? Hope you are okay xx
 
keeping said:
how're you doll?
i'm feeling really good today :)
can't believe i haven't used for a week, i feel like i've just woken up from a four year dream
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Yay :) I'm very good thanks. We're like on the same page. Unreal
 
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