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Stimulants and jacking off. The ice queen has me in her cold icy grip!

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deadendgame

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I know this question has been answered before but the short story was I jacked off on Adderall and I liked it. I originally intended to get high and maybe study some chemistry, but I stumbled on this picture of an attractive woman on the internet and I whacked one off while looking at pictures of attractive women. And the thing is, I liked it. The thing I like most about it was how aroused I was and how I did not come for some time. Fast forward a few months and I'm tweaking on crystal meth trying to jack it until I come which I never did. So what had happened was, I got caught, and I can't get stims anymore. It's not that I quit because I wanted to. I quit because I couldn't get any stims. But I know that there are legal stims like ephedrine which can make me feel almost the same way. I just don't know. Will I forever be a slave to the Ice Queen? I really want to do it again. It is so tempting. It really skewed my perception on women in that I view them as sex objects, not people to be loved. I don't know, life is not the same anymore. Life is just boring and stupid. Why can't I do what I want in life? Goddam it!
 
We all want that and most get very little of what they want. IMO life is mostly boring and stupid interspersed occasionally with a week at Burning Man and I don't see a goddamned thing to be done about it besides just following your urges as long as they don't hurt other people. Live it up and jack off if that makes the boredom a little better for a few minutes. Best of luck.

Goddamn I love being the first to respond. =D
 
deadendgame said:
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With all of the meaningful stuff there is in life I would try to avoid spending hours jacking off on drugs... you should use that energy to fulfill some goals you can tell people. Sure part of life is occupying boredom however, another side to life is being social and connecting with others. If you spend life jacking off on meth you may not have anything to relate to others with.
 
Hey deadendgame! The longer you're off stimulants the less you crave them until they're nothing more than a blurry memory of pleasure that seems distanct, at least in my experience. The last time I did coke was in 2012 and I remember I felt great, but I can no longer remember the exact feeling.

It's quite common to feel very deep boredom and apathy sober. Fortunately the intensity of. Oregon and apathy decreases the longer you stay off of stimulants. The horrible thing about meth is that is decreases the number of dopamine receptors in your brain so it does take time to recover and you will feel apathy and boredom while you recover. Accept that this is temporary and try to focus on getting other parts of your life together. It will pass.

There is nothing wrong with masturbation, but if you find that it's becoming problematic in your life then maybe try to take a break. There are a couple of good masterbation threads that have been discussed in the last few months, and one of those threads had a link to a website that assists with recovering from porn and disassociating women as objects. I looked over the site for a while and it goes into great detail over the brain/thought changes that take place when frequently masterbating to porn, and itndetails recovery.

Though I can't relate personally, it seems that frequent masturbation and stimulants are a very common combination. They seem to produce a fairly strong synergistic relationship pretty quickly which makes sense considering the pleasure/dopamine of both.

I do think it's important for you to break your association between stimulants and masturbation as you don't want masturbation to be antrigger for the rest of your life. There will be times when you need to masturbate as you may not have a partner or your partner may not be avaialble and having that release is important to stay healthy as a man. I wish you luck!

ETA:

Porn Recovery Link:
http://www.yourbrainonporn.com
 
Moreaux said:
Hey deadendgame! The longer you're off stimulants the less you crave them until they're nothing more than a blurry memory of pleasure that seems distanct, at least in my experience. The last time I did coke was in 2012 and I remember I felt great, but I can no longer remember the exact feeling.

It's quite common to feel very deep boredom and apathy sober. Fortunately the intensity of. Oregon and apathy decreases the longer you stay off of stimulants. The horrible thing about meth is that is decreases the number of dopamine receptors in your brain so it does take time to recover and you will feel apathy and boredom while you recover. Accept that this is temporary and try to focus on getting other parts of your life together. It will pass.

There is nothing wrong with masturbation, but if you find that it's becoming problematic in your life then maybe try to take a break. There are a couple of good masterbation threads that have been discussed in the last few months, and one of those threads had a link to a website that assists with recovering from porn and disassociating women as objects. I looked over the site for a while and it goes into great detail over the brain/thought changes that take place when frequently masterbating to porn, and itndetails recovery.

Though I can't relate personally, it seems that frequent masturbation and stimulants are a very common combination. They seem to produce a fairly strong synergistic relationship pretty quickly which makes sense considering the pleasure/dopamine of both.

I do think it's important for you to break your association between stimulants and masturbation as you don't want masturbation to be antrigger for the rest of your life. There will be times when you need to masturbate as you may not have a partner or your partner may not be avaialble and having that release is important to stay healthy as a man. I wish you luck!

ETA:

Porn Recovery Link:
http://www.yourbrainonporn.com
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Ive tried to quit porn but its impossible after 1 week break the urge goes so strong that I cant do anything but think about porn and after that I will watch porn for 12h straight. For me its much safer just watch porn for 1-2h every day than trying to quit it and come back for very long binges.
 
hey thanks moreaux for being so supportive in each of my posts. and thanks to yall as well. I ain't religious but I reckon sometimes religion does mimic real life situations. I guess this is kind of like the story of Adam and Eve in that I got the chance to taste the forbidden apple. That apple was never meant to be tasted but I took a bite so I reckon that I do have to face some of the consequences.
 
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