First off, thank you for reading my post! I was living in the moment this past weekend and met up with a date to just hang out and have a few drinks.. well we started discussing drugs, and he apparently is into meth. I have never done it and really never researched too much on it. Being the type of person I am, I was curious. He offered and I did not decline. So there was the start of it, at 2AM he made me a "parachute" and i swallowed it (have no idea how much i consumed, idiot i know.) Immediately after he broke some up and we both snorted a rail, and wow did that burn! But I felt incredible after, that whole night is kind of a blur, but it was a remarkable feeling. Honestly, I have never been so horny in my life, everything I touched felt amazing. I couldn't keep my hands to myself. Such a fantastic euphoria!-- Fast forward to 9AM, I was no prepared to stay up all night and party but I did, and I had responsibilities the next day with family. I couldn't let the family know what I was doing. So I showed up to help them unaware I would still be feeling the effects.I played it off well, they had no idea I was on drugs, thank goodness. I didn't feel too horrible at this point, had a bit of anxiety and I did NOT feel like eating. I felt very antisocial at this point. All I could think about was going to see this guy for another fun night! So around 9pm (Sunday evening at this point) I went back to hang out with him, I ended up taking another "parachute" that he made up for me (again, unknown of the amount, but it felt much bigger than the previous one) I was kind of getting tired before I took it. About an hour later, things started to get really crazy. The guy I was with ended up passing out on the couch, as I was just relaxing next to him, I did not feel like the night before. I started to get super hot, sweating constantly, then I started to tremble all over. I could not stop shaking! I was freezing at this point. I got up to get some water, and felt instantly dizzy and I had tunnel vision. I made my way to get water, and sat back down. At this point, I should of woken him up, but I didn't. Water was so hard to get down, but I knew I needed it. My brain was working, I was aware of what was going on, I kept myself calm and just tried to relax. Got a cold cloth and put it on my neck and head to cool myself down. My head and ears start ringing, and then the vomiting started. I vomited about 3 times before I finally just needed to sit down again. I was feeling horrible! Time was something I paid no attention to at this point. 6AM rolls around and I felt like I just needed to go home to my bed, escape this horrible place I was in. So, I left. Got home safely, got water, rolled into my bed and passed out. I woke up at 10AM feeling awake and better, so I thought. Again, I had no knowledge of what meth did to you or what to expect after. So, I started googling when I woke up and found out a whole bunch of things that would of been good to know! I was up for a good 36 hours before I fell asleep when I got home. Since then, I haven't been able to eat much. I take vitamins and drink water. It is seeming impossible for me to eat. I had a horrible panic attack yesterday, however since I am a very selfaware I can calm myself down from them easily. It was an ongoing issue I have been facing since my last dose of meth. It is now Wednesday, been about 88 hours since my last dose, and I still feel really really weird. I am aware of the emotional part of it now, I do not feel depressed. Just horrible headache, and very nauseous. I am still quite shaky and when I stand up, I get dizzy with a rush. I obviously do not feel myself. I have missed all of my college classes this week so far, and I feel horrible. I am a very responsible person usually. I am also a very empathic and emotional person, but at this moment I feel very disconnected from everything! I just want to know how much longer this will last, I still feel like I am on meth! I am a very well groomed person, and have been keeping that up. I am not sweating as much anymore, and I don't smell as horrible (lol)
I really do appreciate any advice you can give me! BTW:: This is my first and last time doing this drug, as euphoric as it is, and as amazing as the sex was, my life is much more important, I can't let my family down! I really honestly understand why this drug is so addicting.
I really do appreciate any advice you can give me! BTW:: This is my first and last time doing this drug, as euphoric as it is, and as amazing as the sex was, my life is much more important, I can't let my family down! I really honestly understand why this drug is so addicting.