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How long did it take you to realize you were addicted?

jessrwhatalias

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Do you remember how long after you began using you realized you were addicted? What happened to make you come to grips with your addiction?
For me, it was when I began to have urges to steal cocaine from my boyfriend (the "plug"). If that didn't do it, my going back to him knowing damn well he's manipulating and emotionally abusive, because it's worth getting a couple lines of coke, did the trick.
This took about 2 months.
 
Few years. I had first withdrawals after running out of script and realized I was addicted to opioids.
 
I kinda always knew.

I was kinda careful about some hard drugs but some things happened and so yeah I suppose when my wife and I broke up which ironically was not about either of us but the timespan.

Maybe she kept me in check. Anyways I knew since I was a kid that drugs and alchol where going to be in my life one way or another.
 
by age 20 or so i had accepted regular use of different substances as normal and expected.

as i get a little older i try to minimize use, while understanding that complete cessation is an exercise of futility leading to insanity.
 
I kinda always knew.
Anyways I knew since I was a kid that drugs and were going to be in my life one way or another.
The same for me I suppose. Starting smoking Hash/Weed in 1993 and always had an unhealthy interest of various drugs and their effects throughout my entire life. Experimented with mainly just this and LSD, Mushrooms during my teens, then in 2002 took my first E (MDMA)

Gave up the weed smoking in 2007, then stopped going to free parties around 2008/2009, so the MDMA stopped along with this. Then in 2009 I discovered Benzodiazepines and soon after Opiates. This was when battle truely commenced! 2009 was the Year :(

Fast forward to 2016, and I'm currently in hospital (Not abuse related though) where I've just been put on another Diazepam taper starting at 25mg. I'm praying!!!
 
Well with drugs in general basically after I got high the first time I knew this was going to be a problem. Now with opiates... I was doing them a bit when I was 18/19 & doing a lot of ice & selling ice and about anything I could get and people could buy. My step sister ODed and died and my step dad wanted me to get H, he had been clean from opiates 3 years, so I was doing H without even focusing on how often I was using or feeling like I 'needed' it. Than one day I was doing my thing, I knew I took some Soma & laid down to sleep, 30 minutes after falling asleep I woke up to this uncomfortable edgy feeling, I tried to fall back asleep for about 10 minutes trying to figure out what the hell was going on than the light bulb went off in my head, FUCK. From that day on I've been addicted to opiates. Wish I never touched em'
 
Never got addicted to anything else than cafein and smoking, and I hope I will never be.I started drinking coffees and energy drinks every day to work better, and about 2 months later I realized I was addicted to cafein because I had headaches and nerve pains when I tried not to consume any caffein for a day, even in days I wasn't at work.
I knew I was addicted to smoking when I saw I needed to smoke even when high on some other drug. In the begining, I was just smoking cause Im in the stupid trap drugs put u into, you know, having to feel pleasure all the time and smoking is a quick, easy to find and cheap mean to pleasure. But since I needed to smoke even when I was high on other way more ephoric drugs, I knew I was addicted to nicotine.

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I've known for a long time already that I'm heavily addicted to porn. With opiates it was clear, the first day when I had a break and had WD's, I think it took 1 month of daily use.
 
does anyone know that fantastic william s. burroughs quote on addiction? i post it all the time so i cba
but if you don't kno, now you kno n***a
 
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