long term positive effects?

[discreet_label]

has anyone else used ecstasy, and experienced long term changes in your way of thinking?

its been about a year and a half since i started taking it..and i feel that i am so much better off. i used to have panic attacks several times a week..ive had 2 since the first time i ever took the stuff. just 2! i am overall more positive, and i just feel better about everything in general. i have also lost almost 80 pounds, not from taking it, but from taking better care of myself, and i feel more motivated. ive also become a far more open minded person, too. i have a bunch of new friends, and an actual social life now, and i never really did before.
i guess im just wondering if this sort of thing can truly help with anxiety and depression, or if its just a placebo effect??

 

[Clocktower]

Your experience is shared by many! Keep putting plenty of time between your rolls and keep enjoying the benefits.

 

[discreet_label]

definitely...im putting myself on a decently long break...ive been doing 220 mg once a month for the past 3 months, and i dont want to overdo it. i cant believe i almost decided that i was too old to try it!!

 

[garygroundwork]

has anyone else used ecstasy, and experienced long term changes in your way of thinking?

its been about a year and a half since i started taking it..and i feel that i am so much better off. i used to have panic attacks several times a week..ive had 2 since the first time i ever took the stuff. just 2! i am overall more positive, and i just feel better about everything in general. i have also lost almost 80 pounds, not from taking it, but from taking better care of myself, and i feel more motivated. ive also become a far more open minded person, too. i have a bunch of new friends, and an actual social life now, and i never really did before.
i guess im just wondering if this sort of thing can truly help with anxiety and depression, or if its just a placebo effect??

love your story. How often do u take it?

I fkn love MDMA.....

 

[Kaden_Nite]

I wish that I'd have left it at my first experience, then started using MDEA or MBDB or something similar that had fewer after-effects on me. Here's the story of my first MDMA experience, from an earlier post on Bluelight:

On the closing night of a music festival when I was seventeen, I ate some psilocybe truffles and MDMA. The effects blended so seamlessly into the state of stoned elation that I was already in.. I didn't even notice it happening. Conversation flowed freely as these angel-eyed people danced in slow motion through the soft focus glow and bliss of the night. I watched the sun rise over this eutopian wonderland; content, satisfied and completely oblivious that years later I would reflect on that evening as a serendipitous moment of perfection where time had stood still just long enough to remind me that there is a rich beauty to this place and a reason that I'm here. Despite it being very difficult to see at times, I'll never forget that it's there.

Basically MDMA taught me that hope, love, faith, grace, beauty, serenity- all of these intangible ideals, although not being physically 'real' in the sense that you can't reach out and touch them, they are very much real and play a bigger part in determining our reality than anything and that even though we sometimes can't see them, they are all around us, all the time.

I believe that MDMA has the power to give people a glimpse of nirvana.. I made the mistake of taking it again and again expecting a pill to open up the gates to this paradise when really, that's not how it works. MDMA has the power to show you the way, but it won't take you there.

It's incredible material. I stopped years ago, but I guess I'm still learning from it..

 

[Jabberwocky]

has anyone else used ecstasy, and experienced long term changes in your way of thinking?

its been about a year and a half since i started taking it..and i feel that i am so much better off. i used to have panic attacks several times a week..ive had 2 since the first time i ever took the stuff. just 2! i am overall more positive, and i just feel better about everything in general. i have also lost almost 80 pounds, not from taking it, but from taking better care of myself, and i feel more motivated. ive also become a far more open minded person, too. i have a bunch of new friends, and an actual social life now, and i never really did before.
i guess im just wondering if this sort of thing can truly help with anxiety and depression, or if its just a placebo effect??

^^^^

elimination of OCD/ruminating thoughts is an empirically observed effect

 

[ryannn]

unfortunatly, u will be a drugs consumer forever, and once you not taking mdma, u will be feeling sucks, and the most important is, a human life need to going through the pain, only able to grow up, only able to learn, if you consume the mdma n feeling happy when u encounter the bad thing, even your parents die and u feeling happy, you will feeling more worse. your inner heart will be destroy definitely

 

[ryannn]

the goals of the life is not achieve happy with the drugs, is how u treat the life to being happy. if not, in the end, u will lost your heart

 

[discreet_label]

i feel fine when i dont take it..i over indulged a bit this summer, but ive never really had the bad come down ive read about..i did once, last year, because i stupidly took 2 doses, a week apart..but overall, i feel so amazing. and the last time has been every bit as amazing as the first..i mean, nothing will ever be exactly like the first time, sure, but its still as amazing and fun. im just glad others have had this benefit.

 

[discreet_label]

i have been taking it once a month, this summer, but im knocking it back quite a bit to once every 3-4 months. just not having these horrific panic attacks, i cant even describe how wonderful that is..i used to end up in the ER constantly thinking i was dying of a heart attack, but it was just anxiety...i had my first really seriously bad one a few weeks ago, and it had been a year...and it wasnt even nearly as bad as they used to be.

 

[terarc]

MDMA hugely benefitted my outlook on life, although I agree with Kaden_Night, I should have just left it alone after I had my 'breakthrough' experience with it.

 

[Kaden_Nite]

Discreet-label: If you were prone to panic attacks and you believe MDMA has helped, that's great. It is probably a good idea to take some time out though, leave it on a good note. 'Quitting while you're ahead is not the same as quitting'. Maybe only do it again if you feel it is warranted to assist with your pre-existing condition.

It is interesting though that many who have never had such panic disorders feel that MDMA use can precipitate it, while others who experienced anxiety beforehand claim that MDMA has helped with it a great deal. I don't particularly believe a lot of the literature regarding ADHD and the effectiveness of Ritalin, but, metaphorically, it may be something along those lines- A stimulant having a somewhat calming effect on those with a certain condition while having quite the opposite effect on those without such condition.

 

[garygroundwork]

Full credit to those people who stop taking it.

I use it once every 12 weeks and I get more and more excited as the 12 week period gets closer.

I love that feeling of complete happiness and bliss.

 

[Black]

It is interesting though that many who have never had such panic disorders feel that MDMA use can precipitate it, while others who experienced anxiety beforehand claim that MDMA has helped with it a great deal.

i've had periods of time with anxiety and panic attacks before i even started taking drugs. i can say from experience that mdma can have effects in both directions. i've had mdma sessions precipitate weeks of anxiety and i have (more recently and to me surprisingly) had it end weeks of anxiety. thinking back, the times when it caused anxiety were always pretty large doses/rolling on consecutive days/festivals with lots of other drugs consumed... there might be a pattern there...