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infectedmushroom

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Hi guys,

Just a thought I had the other day.

I, like some others, have "lost the magic" with MDMA. It just doesn't provide the same glow, euphoria, and rush that it did when I first started using it - even with breaks, and responsible use. I feel like it just doesn't "open my heart" like it first did.

I'm coming to believe however that this is a good thing. This means that it's taught me what I need to know and I don't need to take it anymore. I've learnt how to be more open and communicative about my feelings, and be more in touch with them.

I don't think I can take it anymore as a recreational substance either as I'm always left even during a roll reminiscing on how much better some other roll was some time ago.

I'm not sad, however. I'll save it for very particular occasions - bonding with my partner, or in use with LSD or Mushrooms for introspective purposes.

Maybe this should be a blog post, but I thought I'd post it here for anyone struggling to come to grips with the reality that maybe MDMA really never will be the same again for them no matter what they do. <3
 
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infectedmushroom said:
Hi guys,

Just a thought I had the other day.

I, like some others, have "lost the magic" with MDMA. It just doesn't provide the same glow, euphoria, and rush that it did when I first started using it - even with breaks, and responsible use. I feel like it just doesn't "open my heart" like it first did.

I'm coming to believe however that this is a good thing. This means that it's taught me what I need to know and I don't need to take it anymore. I've learnt how to be more open and communicative about my feelings, and be more in touch with them.

I don't think I can take it anymore as a recreational substance either as I'm always left even during a roll reminiscing on how much better some other roll was some time ago.

I'm not sad, however. I'll save it for very particular occasions - bonding with my partner, or in use with LSD or Mushrooms for introspective purposes.

Maybe this should be a blog post, but I thought I'd post it here for anyone struggling to come to grips with the reality that maybe MDMA really never will be the same again for them no matter what they do. <3
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I often read these types of post and always come back to the same thing - I started raving and using MDMA in the late 80's when both raves and MDMA were new (to myself) and I was still a teenager - 25+ years later of course the experience is going to be different now.

Some will put this down to the loss of magic, I will tell you that when I get a good dose in the correct setting then there is no loss of magic.
 
infectedmushroom said:
I don't think I can take it anymore as a recreational substance either as I'm always left even during a roll reminiscing on how much better some other roll was some time ago.
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When you are in the middle of sex, do you think "damn I remember the time in 2013 that was way better than this"?

It's mindset and expectation.
 
There's always more to learn, I have to be humble in that regard; maybe I'm just expressing a discontentment at my inability to get my set and settings right. I don't know.

I'm also coming from the perspective here that MDMA has psychedelic qualities.

Perhaps it's just the stage of life I'm in.
 
infectedmushroom said:
Hi guys,

Just a thought I had the other day.

I, like some others, have "lost the magic" with MDMA. It just doesn't provide the same glow, euphoria, and rush that it did when I first started using it - even with breaks, and responsible use. I feel like it just doesn't "open my heart" like it first did.

I'm coming to believe however that this is a good thing. This means that it's taught me what I need to know and I don't need to take it anymore. I've learnt how to be more open and communicative about my feelings, and be more in touch with them.

I don't think I can take it anymore as a recreational substance either as I'm always left even during a roll reminiscing on how much better some other roll was some time ago.

I'm not sad, however. I'll save it for very particular occasions - bonding with my partner, or in use with LSD or Mushrooms for introspective purposes.

Maybe this should be a blog post, but I thought I'd post it here for anyone struggling to come to grips with the reality that maybe MDMA really never will be the same again for them no matter what they do. <3
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How often do u take it? and how much do u take?
 
shugenja said:
Only at high doses.

MDA is psychedelic and commonly sold as MDMA. It is more intense, more affecting the body, IMHO less empathogenic, but more euphoric. Approximately 50% more potent
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yep It's definately psychadelic at very high dosages. happens to me.
 
I'm not even sure what my original posts point was. I guess in a way it was just to suggest to not fear "losing the magic," whatever that means to you...to me it means letting go of ideas I'm holding onto of the past and how it should be and how it used to make me feel.
 
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