Were you talking to Op or me? But I'm 28 basically. Started taking any benzo I could get my hands on once I got on subs, along with high dose gabapentin cuz I Clldnt smoke bud, I never took them really when abusing opiates, just weed. And I was taking too too much of each then ran outta coonects for a bit and went thru really bad depression worse anxiety and all that jazz for months and months on end. Now I still take them but for stim come downs or when I just really wanna relax(like tonight). But ya op, benzos are best if not takin all the time unless you have a script, and there are better things to get a buzz on.. Been taking them on and off since 14 but neway
Completely agree with the bolded bit. When I first started benzos I did abuse them in huge excess, and did enjoy it at the time.
But I think that me enjoying them so much back then was largely due to a serious amphetamine habit I had just tackled (used amphetamines for 2 years daily, 1-4g per day depending on available funds) which caused me a form of social anxiety.
I was also on high doses of weak opi's back then (tramadol, codeine and tilidine) and used the benzos to potentiate them. I used 7-8 different types of benzos each day, and a big dose of each of them. For example; 10mg xanax, 10mg lorazepam, 10mg lormetazepam, 10mg clonazepam, 100mg diazepam, 96mg bromazepam, and more I'm forgetting right now, but you get the gist. All of that together each day with a ton of tramadol, codeine and often tilidine too. Rarely oxy thrown in the mix too (but that was a habit I had beaten at that time, I was content with the weaker opiates for a while. The oxy habit is back now with a vengeance, but I digress). So in short : Wayyy too much benzos!)
After keeping that up for like 6-8 months (my memory of that time is a little woozy, as you might understand) I decided I was playing Russian Roulette every day doing what I was doing back then.
Also and this is what I was getting at; if you're using doses that are too high and abuse these meds, the anxiety you get when you can't take your monster dose is infinitely worse than than the anxiety you started out with. In the end I was walking around anxious 24/7 with the doses described above in my system also 24/7..
The point I'm trying to make is: if you use benzos as prescribed you will get SO much more out of them and they will continue to work indefinitely. Yes, tolerance will make the effects diminish a little bit over time, but staying at a (normal sized) dose steadily is by far the most efficient way to use benzos (unless you can use them sporadically, that is of course even better).
The last few years I've been taking 12mg bromazepam/day or sometimes another benzo, at an equivalent dose. And when I'm really stressed I might take 18mg. But I never go over that dose anymore. Ever since I started using them responsibly, benzos have been more efficient for me than they ever were before.
Withdrawal from that huge benzos habit is also something that I will never, ever forget. The memory of that as well as having the insight now that sticking to my therapeutic dose has only upsides that I can see.. I'm 100% sure I won't ever abuse my benzos again.
Now to answer your question; sure you can mix them. But if you're smart you won't make a habit out of it.
What a wall of text I wrote there. Came out longer than I expected. My thumbs are starting to hurt (should've just typed this on my laptop instead of phone
, it's within an arms length of me. But I'm still groggy from waking up, and I didn't know I'd get so carried away in writing this post..
Anyway finishing up here. My advice again: Don't make a habit out of it. Peace.
