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EADD Heroin Discussion v. XXII -- Brucey Bonus Beetles all round!

FFS! I haven't used for at least a year now,but today my brother drove me by the place I used to score and I so nearly asked him to just drop me off there,even though it would be a mega wait and then a mega journey home,in the pouring rain.So ridiculous.Does the craving ever go away?????I wonder if I will ever be free?
 
Craving a bag or three and some pins horrendously today - it's really fucking with me knowing that the only thing that ever made me feel like a normal person for the first time in my entire life is... fucking Heroin.

Every single day since I quit has been filled with inescapable physical pain, the mental shit I can handle in other ways but I can't even walk to the corner shop without having to elevate my knees and alternate ice and heat packs for the next hour these days, alas my medical records mean anything more than a fucking 8/500 coco every 6 hours is off the cards even when I was hospitalised....
It's a fucking joke.
 
kkattastic said:
Does the craving ever go away?????
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I haven't craved for heroin in years (quit 12 years ago, cravings lasted a couple years after getting off the methadone followed by bupe taper). However, if I ever happen to be in the vicinity of where I used to score I go straight back to craving. I've not been tested as far as being around people using yet but it'll happen sometime. I'm failry hopeful that I won't crack though as I've managed to actually use heroin myself on a couple of one-off occasions and had no problem leaving it at a single gramme and no more. It took a good few years before I felt confident enough to do this and am well aware how big a risk it is so it has literally been a handful of times over the last decade or so.

So, yeah, the cravings do go but they seem to linger below the surface if fate is tempted and "old haunts" seem to be a particular problem in my experience.
 
I haven't had a habit in close to 3 years now - the cravings come and go but get easier to deal with the longer you leave it.

I have used a handful of times since then, generally for a couple days and then that's it. I tend to remember why I quit in the first place, and realise that it just isn't worth the high / doesn't give me what it used to/interferes too much with the life I'm trying to build.

My longest run was recently where I spread out 0.5g over like 10 days...Had some sweats and chills for a day but it was close enough a reminder that I never want to experience full on withdrawal again in my life.

Separating myself from people who used and the areas I used in helped tremendously. However now with the deep dark web, old haunts are being replaced by my go to sites :/ so temptation will always be there.
[MENTION=139374]Sprout[/MENTION]: I totally understand what you mean about heroin making you feel like a 'normal' person - but there really is no such thing, and whatever mental battles you are facing I can assure you there is a light at the end of the tunnel. Eventually. I think. There'll come a time where you're comfortable enough with who you are that even the allure of an opiate high won't be that appealing anymore.
 
Shambles said:
I haven't craved for heroin in years (quit 12 years ago, cravings lasted a couple years after getting off the methadone followed by bupe taper). However, if I ever happen to be in the vicinity of where I used to score I go straight back to craving. I've not been tested as far as being around people using yet but it'll happen sometime. I'm failry hopeful that I won't crack though as I've managed to actually use heroin myself on a couple of one-off occasions and had no problem leaving it at a single gramme and no more. It took a good few years before I felt confident enough to do this and am well aware how big a risk it is so it has literally been a handful of times over the last decade or so.

So, yeah, the cravings do go but they seem to linger below the surface if fate is tempted and "old haunts" seem to be a particular problem in my experience.
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I know my meager few times using is nothing to yours. But i really dont find it that addictive, like my first use I bought 2 x 0.2 bags smoked it left it a year, second time .5 then another .5 a week later, left it 6 months. Had a .5 the other day, I do really enjoy it. But to be quite honest having been addicted to mephedrone, xanax, speed, crack & IV cocaine, I just dont think its that good. Its more of a chill drug like a nice bit of hash.

I actually do prefer oxy, if it were not for the price, the Contins obviously.

The most euphoric drug is mephedrone or crystal meth the d isomer stuff. the most lush is either properly clean coke sniffed, or again mephedrone. Please dont judge my opinion, I just grew up in a different era. Meth is certainly "too good to be true" too if you get the good stuff. Meth would be the one most likely to fuck me up forever given enough.
 
SmokingAces said:
I know my meager few times using is nothing to yours. But i really dont find it that addictive, like my first use I bought 2 x 0.2 bags smoked it left it a year, second time .5 then another .5 a week later, left it 6 months. Had a .5 the other day, I do really enjoy it. But to be quite honest having been addicted to mephedrone, xanax, speed, crack & IV cocaine, I just dont think its that good. Its more of a chill drug like a nice bit of hash.

I actually do prefer oxy, if it were not for the price, the Contins obviously.

The most euphoric drug is mephedrone or crystal meth the d isomer stuff. the most lush is either properly clean coke sniffed, or again mephedrone. Please dont judge my opinion, I just grew up in a different era. Meth is certainly "too good to be true" too if you get the good stuff. Meth would be the one most likely to fuck me up forever given enough.
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For some opiates are a bit like smoking. They don't really like it at first but keep on trying it until they get a taste for it until one day they realise They are dependant.....

If you're not that fussed on it then I would say stay well away and count yourself lucky bro...

Me I loved them from day one....oxynorm IR oxycodone being my favourite too...
 
First dose of methadone today. still feeling rather nice from it, only 35mg too

my last order of gear was seized too so this 'done was very needed
 
after a rather long run onn gear and increasingly crack i now have a couple of strips of oxy's so i can at least give my lungs a break.Got some clonazepam as well fuck they are strong only took 500mg and needed match sticks to keep my peeps open then agaon i have had 200mg of oxy today.
 
delete it now or actually get some and enjoy it, Deep down you know you wanna have some, just weigh it up mate, you have done so well cleaning up off the methadone n shit, would it be counter-productive?
 
Tbh, whether or not I have his number is immaterial - he only lives down the road so I could easily score anyway. The real issue is that it's indicative of the way my mind is working knowing that 'the ban' is now on its way...

I.e. the one substance that has kept my mind off gear for over a year is about to vanish overnight.
 
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F.U.B.A.R. said:
Tbh, whether or not I have his number is immaterial - he only lives down the road so I could easily score anyway. The real issue is that it's indicative of the way my mind is working knowing that 'the ban' is now on its way...
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Ahh fuck :( I see what you mean, I didn't even take that into consideration, those RC's were your lifeline to staying off opiates, mate you can still get 3fpm on the darknet markets etc, if you need a hand with them you only have to ask :)

On other news, seems like methadone is the gift that keeps giving (at the moment anyway, I know it won't stay like this)
Still fairly high, a few vodkas and smokes and am deffo feeling quite nice, have to admit a smoke of b would be perfection but this ain't too bad!
 
breakcorefiend said:
Ahh fuck :( I see what you mean, I didn't even take that into consideration, those RC's were your lifeline to staying off opiates, mate you can still get 3fpm on the darknet markets etc, if you need a hand with them you only have to ask :)

On other news, seems like methadone is the gift that keeps giving (at the moment anyway, I know it won't stay like this)
Still fairly high, a few vodkas and smokes and am deffo feeling quite nice, have to admit a smoke of b would be perfection but this ain't too bad!
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Thats it exactly mate. The thing is, if I go the DN route there are many things I would choose over 3fpm...

I used to love methadone myself - but it WILL turn you into a zombie mate. Be careful...
 
BCF at least u had a failsafe mate, shit how d y know it got seized did u get a letter or sumet, or it just didnt turn up after shipping. bummer anyway thats really unlucky u dont hear about that happening too often really, tho the risk is always there. enjoy the juice while u can it dont last long before u feel fuck all off it, even huge doses. I hate the stuff personally. Tho it can be a real lifesaver in the right situations.
 
F.U.B.A.R. said:
Thats it exactly mate. The thing is, if I go the DN route there are many things I would choose over 3fpm...

I used to love methadone myself - but it WILL turn you into a zombie mate. Be careful...
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Thats it mate, with EVERYTHING at your fingertips there will be no need to 'settle'
I am aware that it has the potential to zombify me, I have to admit tho, it aint too bad!

da man said:
BCF at least u had a failsafe mate, shit how d y know it got seized did u get a letter or sumet, or it just didnt turn up after shipping. bummer anyway thats really unlucky u dont hear about that happening too often really, tho the risk is always there. enjoy the juice while u can it dont last long before u feel fuck all off it, even huge doses. I hate the stuff personally. Tho it can be a real lifesaver in the right situations.
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Yea bud it's a good thing to have, I know it was seized cuz I use a parcel company (live in ROI, need to order from uk, so it cuts shipping in half,only prob is they have rights to open my post if deemed dodgy, and what'd ya know, 20 orders later they got nosey, I guess I had a good run! just hoping my vendor honours a reship, I wont be telling my friends if he doesn't lol
 
F.U.B.A.R. said:
Tbh, whether or not I have his number is immaterial - he only lives down the road so I could easily score anyway. The real issue is that it's indicative of the way my mind is working knowing that 'the ban' is now on its way...

I.e. the one substance that has kept my mind off gear for over a year is about to vanish overnight.
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Dont go back down the smack route brother. I have lost too many friends to gear. I dont want to lose another. The dark net is your friend
 
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