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Bluelighter
Fact is EVERYTHING sucks when you're kickin and each one is worse than the last.The hardest part is knowing relief is just a shot away.
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Opioids Chicago dope thread
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MadeInChicago
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Bluelighter
Quite true.I've sniffed when I couldn't wait and just the taste of it going up the nose brings relief.Shit,just seeing the right car pulling into the parking lot can make you feel better.
damn i couldnt imagine having to withdraw in jail. i know many that have done it, but i know it just sucks sooo bad. especially being around all those other scumbags
I would asked him if he sipped lean and when he said "yeah I love it". I would have called him a dope fiend right back..some people especially black people who sip a lot of lean don't understand it's really all the drug.youre gonna get sick from lean just like we get sick from dope
One thing I always liked and this might sound weird too. But I always liked feeling my sickness go away..like being sick and taking that first line and feeling the sickness go away always was better then just getting high when I wasn't sick..taking a line and then sitting back and slowly feeLing your sick go away was like heaven.we were all talking a few weeks ago about the "conditioning" we have all went through during our dope careers. Couple notes or ideas:
I true ly 100 percent believe that a lot of the initial with drawel symptoms are multiplied by our emotional balance, our thoughts of what's to come. All the anxiety that comes up when you know you just did your last and wont be able to cop any more for another 24 hours, just makes them come on sooner. And stronger. My symptoms usually come up about by 12 hours after last. by the time i hit 16 hours, it's ON. If i am freaking out, have a big meeting or something the next day and know i'm gonna be sick and it's all gonna be fucked up, that 12 hours goes down to 6 hours. If i can stay calm, maybe that 12 hours goes up to 18, 20... You can not get around the physical symptoms, but i believe deep down, if you can keep your shit together, you can postpone it.The smell everyone is talking about, that metallic "odor" is from our blood. All of the iron that's in it, running through all the vessels in our face, centered around our face, nose, and eyes, we become hyper sensitive too.
Whenever I know i am going to have to go through and get clean, I will stock up on, or get all my sweatshirts i have cleaned and ready before I start. Then, starting with the first night, i will put on a new one. That way when I wake up in the middle of the night drenched in sweat, if' iv'e been able to sleep, I can get up and just change sweatshirts. It's gotta be a sweat and not t shirt, because it's gotta be a fabric that can soak up and abosorb a bunch of liquid. Keeps my bed from getting all fucked up at least.
Last time in rehab, they were straight up NAZI's about the linens, only giving everyone one pair, you would have to wash them yourself if you needed more than that a week. So, since new linens werent a choice, and there were a ton of sweat shirts avaialble, bam, problem solved.
Showers help a ton. If you have the energy to get there that is, even sometimes find my self lacking the actual emotional motivation to even get in a shower because I am so lazy at this point that the thought of having to dry myself off with a towel, etc etc is just TOO MUCH. How sad....
If you are lucky enough to be at home and getting clean, not in rehab, or at the worst ever, cook county lock up, bath's have always been my go to. At points i can be taking 5 or 6 a day, but that' 40 minutes or so is such relief.The smell is horrendous and very particular. Last night I only sweated through one pair of clothes. Sunday sweat through 3. I hate laying on a wet sheet. I too sometimes throw down a towel but it feels rough in comparison. Gross..
Im on 4mg sub now... who knows how much gabapentin and some clonidine. Missing the dope. The high...but not the sick and waking up JUST for that first shot which is OH so good. Fuuuuck.^^^^ the smell is really bad, and gross when you can walk into your room and take a deep breath and think "it smells like heroin in here" and I feel like even washing your cloths and sheets don't work bc its still in the mattress but I also glfeel like it sticks to the walls or something. It's like it doesn't go away
yeah you can be broke and dope sick and wanting to shit yourself but as soon as you get money it all kind of goes away until you call your connect and they don't answer, then it gets worse and you have to shit again. Once they call back or you get a hold of them it goes away, especially for the ride to meet up its like your body releases the endorphins or dopamine to make you feel somewhat OK while your on the ride but as soon as you get there and your guy makes you wait 20mins them, then sickness and shit your pants feeling comes back. Then you get the dope and the whole ride home it goes away until you hit traffic or a bunch of stoplights and it comes back. Right after I used to cop I would like dry heave bc I was so excited, it would also happen once I got home and I was trying to open the bag hut strugglingnto do it. I wouldnget so excitedband have energy sometimes i would have to yell bc of my excitement. Of course this is how I just feel, I'm sure it's different for you guys and girls. But for real I'll be sick and it goes away as soon as I talk to my guy and get on the road hut the moment I have to wait for them it all comes back and then goes away just as quick for the ride back.
. Wd for me is always worse on the outside bc I know the dope is a phone call and 20mins drive. When I'm locked up my brain basically knows I'm not gonna get it and it kinda takes care of me. I might still have the minor physical effects like the diarrhea, not sleeping and rls but the really bad wd I've never had to deal with in jail and it's been a relief. Keep in mind I've always been a snorter and my wd don't seem to be as bad as people who shoot. But it's just shows me how much the psychological part of wd plays into the equation and that my brain is kind enough to tone but down when I know there is no chance of getting high for weeks or months.
oh yea! i agree with that....that falling back into blissfulness of the high and no longer feeling sick....but yea man, im mixed half blk and half white and tell all my blk friends all the time...there all brainsmmwashed by hip hop....im like that lean shit is no joke, all the rappers glorifying that shit is gonna have ur ass withdrawing like a motherfucker.....and they make it look all glamerous...thay shit aint nothin but liquid H.
amen to that bro....IV for myself. Love feeling that rush quash any and all things that ail me. Love love love it
shit u wanna hear something really pathetci, when i was withdrawing off of roxies and xanax, i wasbso fucking lazy i would piss in an empty gatorade bottleand throw it out the window.....this was in florida during th height of the "pill mill" epidemic and i was staying at this girls house tryingnto get cleaned....i was too weak and lazy to get up and go to the bathroom so i would just use an empty bottle....also when it came time for "bowel movement" i would walk up to the grocery store or some office building since they had the "power flushers" cuz all that nasty shit backed up in me would for sure clog her toilet.....just fucking gross shit man.JuicedUpInTheCity
Bluelighter
Fuck!!!
Shitty westside burned me!
I got the "China white special". Goddamnit!JuicedUpInTheCity
Bluelighter
Definitely got fent bags. No fucking bueno.... Oh well. I'm definitely taking a significantly lower dose per usual. No fucking thanks.Everyone please listen to what I am about to say:
There is NO "china white" in chicago.
The west side does not have "china white". Any one on the west side telling you that they have "china white" is lieing to you and you will be ripped off.
The west side does not sell "china white" by the gram. Any on on the west side telling you they have "china white" by the "gram" is lieing to you and you will be ripped off.
The west side does not sell grams at all. Any one on the west side telling you they have "grams" of diesel for sale are lieing to you and you will be ripped off.
The West side has:
Sawbucks
Dubs
That's it. There is no "China White". There is no heroin sold by the "gram".
Any one telling you that they have "china white" or heroin by the "gram" is lieing to you. If you go ahead with the deal, you will get ripped off. I do not know you at all, but I can pretty much guarantee that if you purchase "china white" or heroin by the "gram" or "china white by the gram" you will be ripped off.
Sawbucks and Dubs. That's it. I promiseJuicedUpInTheCity
Bluelighter
Definitely.
It's fent for sure. I just dosed and I can already tell by the way it's hitting me.Since you are speaking about west side, I have been getting these dubs that come with the free sawbuck stapled to it. Hasa anyone else seen these or tried? It's the same guys always gotten the dimes from, just a new marketing technique I guess. Not a bad deal, especially if you are buying packs or jabs for the hundro. Get the 6 dubs, and 6 free saws...JuicedUpInTheCity
Bluelighter
And I said "China white special" in a sarcastic manner. I couldn't check the shit out. There were a lot of transformers out there tonight. I just got in and rode out. Peeped my shit just now and I was pretty upset. Not gonna lie. Oh well, it'll have to do for now.
