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Hi I am new to bluelight. Over the years I abused the so called "magical drug" MDMA...I can't not be sure on the dosages and frequency but it was a lot and too frequently even sometimes two or three times in a week. One day I had a bad comedown that never perms rely left me leaving me with residual effects including anxiety, depression, HPPD, and even some sexual dysfunction although, thankfully, not complete dysfunction. After this occurred I still continued to do MDMA ignorant that this could be the cause of my symptoms although I did it much much less frequently. I began to space it out with months in between but still my symptoms never went away. I looked into MDMA stories and realized that my abuse of the drug was probably indeed the cause of my lower quality of life. Since realizing this I have abstained of MDMA completely and it has been almost eight months. (Within those eight months I have drank a few times and done codeine as well. But completely sober now for two and half months.). My quality of life has increased in these eight months and the symptoms have somewhat faded but still remain. Life to me now is pleasurable at most times but still I want to know if there ever will be a time when I finally kick these symptoms to the point where I am not bothered. I have a serious girlfriend whom I love very much and want to spend my life with her but these symptoms caused by my retarded actions act somewhat as a roadblock to the life ahead of me. Has anyone had similar experiences to me and eventually, even if it took multiple years, come out fine and relatively not bothered at all by the awful feelings MDMA abuse can cause? I would like to hear stories of success so they can act as comfort to me in my life because right now I struggle with the fact that it may never get any better....and if that is so my life has become meaningless and lost from emotion. I am trying everyday to stay positive and be healthy but sometimes the feelings of mental fog, anxiety, or depression can be a little overwhelming. Any comforting posts would be greatly appreciated☺️
 
He is not fked forever,time will heal him but he have to stay sober and do a lot of exercise every day
 
FAD said:
pretty sure u fucked for life, and the only one to blame is you. u done fked it up son. lifelong ssri usage may help a little.
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What is your problem? Not only is this statement completely inaccurate but this guy came here distraught and looking for help. This is a Harm Reduction forum, not a shaming forum. Fuck you bro.
 
Healthy nutrition, exercise and the right supplements should be your top priorities on the road to complete mental recovery, and you will fully recover sooner or later even despite the fact that sometimes it feels that you wont. However in my case substantial improvement was only noticed after starting ssri and benzo treatment even despite the fact that i was eating as healthy as possible, exercising daily and taking various helpful supplements.
 
chemicaldiscovery said:
What is your problem? Not only is this statement completely inaccurate but this guy came here distraught and looking for help. This is a Harm Reduction forum, not a shaming forum. Fuck you bro.
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yea. everything will be okay...just put em pink glasses on and forget the facts here...harm reduction eh ? harm is already done by idiotic actions...10 years, every week, multiple times -harm reduction, yeah....too late for that BRO. also i gave my input how i feel and what may help... like i said , lifelong antidepressant usage or at least couple of years of useage, so the brain could heal itself through neuro plasticity...but who cares right..my "statements "are wroooong...give it time and you'll be back to your old self in no time right !!!!
 
Exercise, eat healthy whole foods (won't have to take supplements), abstain from any and all drugs (cigarettes, alcohol, marijuana included), get outdoors with the girlfriend. It gets better.
 
FAD said:
yea. everything will be okay...just put em pink glasses on and forget the facts here...harm reduction eh ? harm is already done by idiotic actions...10 years, every week, multiple times -harm reduction, yeah....too late for that BRO. also i gave my input how i feel and what may help... like i said , lifelong antidepressant usage or at least couple of years of useage, so the brain could heal itself through neuro plasticity...but who cares right..my "statements "are wroooong...give it time and you'll be back to your old self in no time right !!!!
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I don't know what sort of experience you or ones close to you have had, but to say that someone "done fucked up son" and "you are fucked for life" is in no way helpful or even informative if you don't know the individual. No one is promising he'll be back to his old self in no time, that would be just as short sighted and ignorant as your previous statements.
 
giving false hope isn't helpful either...because one day the crash will be much bigger because of that ...let's just face reality, i'm all for that...and reality is not nice.
 
also, to be "helpful ", take massive doses of omega fish oils and d vitamins ( best to just go outside and get 15 minutes of direct sunlight ) for a looong time... and all the above.
 
Welcome to bluelight, you'll see as demonstrated by FAD that our community is a mixed bag ;)

Cardio and mindfulness meditation are very important for recovery from MDMA, as well as including plenty of protein in the diet. If you are having trouble sleeping I would definitely focus on mindfulness - the goal is to essentially turn off the thoughts and "voice in the head".

Neuroplasticity is a process by which the brain learns from experiences, including drug experiences. It can take some time for the brain to return to normal after drug abuse, but rest assured that you will get there with time. If you find yourself with anxiety and an overactive inner dialogue, mindfulness will prove essential.

Personally I saw most of my improvements after about 2-3 years of sobriety. At 5 years I'm pretty close to back to normal (mind you my abuse was extremely severe and was at age 14, I would expect you to feel much better at around 1 year from now).

Make sure you get good sleep. Any questions are welcome, good luck :)
 
Cotcha Yankinov said:
Welcome to bluelight, you'll see as demonstrated by FAD that our community is a mixed bag ;)

Cardio and mindfulness meditation are very important for recovery from MDMA, as well as including plenty of protein in the diet. If you are having trouble sleeping I would definitely focus on mindfulness - the goal is to essentially turn off the thoughts and "voice in the head".

Neuroplasticity is a process by which the brain learns from experiences, including drug experiences. It can take some time for the brain to return to normal after drug abuse, but rest assured that you will get there with time. If you find yourself with anxiety and an overactive inner dialogue, mindfulness will prove essential.

Personally I saw most of my improvements after about 2-3 years of sobriety. At 5 years I'm pretty close to back to normal (mind you my abuse was extremely severe and was at age 14, I would expect you to feel much better at around 1 year from now).

Make sure you get good sleep. Any questions are welcome, good luck :)
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Thank you that really helps out:)
 
I think the fact that you have seen improvements over 8 months is a indicator of 'healing', or just simply, alterations of your plastic brain

Longest i've quit drugs for = 5 months. I personally found that over the course of 5 months i improved by like 30%, and by around month 3/4, i started to 'enjoy' things a bit, such as video games and socializing. I also found that my emotions, such as laughing only slightly improved.

Patience is a virtue. It takes time for the brain to make significant changes in regards improvements. Exercise is probably the most important aspect in recovery for a lot of people. More exercise = more blood and therefore oxygen to the brain, which = higher BDNF = increased neuroplasticity.

Ignorance is also bliss. Even if you don't enjoy socializing, or you can't laugh, or you don't want to exercise, or read books. Just do it...because eventually your brain will change in accordance to how you go about your daily activities. This is also the same concept of 'practise'. The more you do stuff, the better the brain gets at releasing appropriate neurotransmitters for a given situation.

The brain is always in a constant state of change /plasticity. WE have the power to influence this.
 
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