Astrobarbie
Greenlighter
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- Mar 7, 2016
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So I tried Molly for the first time with my boyfriend a few days ago at a house club. We started off with 1 capsule each. I felt invincible and connected to everyone's energy. The feeling was incredible. After a few hours it started to die down and we were thinking about leaving but then the promoter gave us a pill each. I think the pill wasn't as clean as the first one we had because I started rolling instantly and had a different experience. While the first pill made me want to stand up and dance the second pill made my legs feel heavy and I was hypnotized to the beat but It was harder to move to it. My mindset changed from positive to negative. I thought the promoter and his wife was talking about me and my boyfriend. In my mind, I started doubting our relationship and wondered if I deserved better. His immaturity really stood out to me at the club and it was as if I was looking at him through a different lens. I still loved him but I kept feeling like I was selling myself short. When we left I could have swore the promoters gf gave him a bad look. I'm trying to figure out if these thoughts were real or were they just a creation of my own mind. At the bar I could have swore a girl tried to steal my phone, she put her hands over it and then instantly left when I turned her way. Do we become more attentive on Molly or was I just imagining this? The most confusing part of the night is when my boyfriend and I got back to his place. He was feeling sexual and I had no sexual feelings towards him. When he touched me in an intimate way I felt uncomfortable. His body was there but the feelings I previously had for him were not. When he asked me what was wrong I was in a mind trap. I couldn't explain how I was feeling . My thoughts were racing and I couldn't grasp it. I kept saying "I don't know, I don't feel the love." It was the scariest feeling to think that Molly completely removed my feelings for him. We tried to talk it out but my mind was scattered and I couldn't trace my thoughts. We decided to just go to sleep. When I woke up to use the bathroom, I came back. I saw him and felt the love again. What was this exactly? Has anybody ever experienced this before? I'm trying to figure out if those thoughts were real or a delusion of the mind. Is this something I need to worry about? It leaves me a little uncertain about the relationship now and I wonder if those feelings will come back again if we decide to try it again. Any feedback would be great!! Thanks!!!
