OK, so I'm here at day 22. And you guys were right. After 8 days of acute symptoms I couldn't handle anymore and I got some oxy and took 30-45 mg per day for about 7 days. I was out of time at work and I panicked. But I knew what was still ahead for me. After that ran out I resumed and more or less picked up where I left off. And it was hell. After the acute symptoms wore off I was just not getting any sleep, I was getting 4 hours max at night at collapsing for a nap during the day.
week or two of that and I was a mess. I am lucky enough to have a sympathetic doc so I have clonazepam and doxepin and visteril (which helps with the RLS, somewhat) and it sounds like that helped.
I've lost about 12 lbs I have been eating little but taking supplements provided by my wife. Not sure exactly what, she go the advice online. For me though the best help has been exercise and music (driving in the car and blasting hard core shit I haven't listened to since the 90's) and screaming at the top of my lungs along with Scott Wieland (RIP). Last night was my first full nights sleep in over 3 weeks. And today I can't say I feel great, but I feel alright. No desire to use at all, there is some logic to this process.
It was the worst experience of my life without a doubt, how I managed to keep my job is amazing in and of itself. I still feel jittery and off, but it's less every day.
The 8 days before I cracked earlier this month were the longest I've been clean in 7 years. Today is day 7 since the oxy (which leaves you much faster). Saturday (my birthday as it happens) will be day 9, the longest I've been clean in 7 years. 7 years.
They need to use Sub as a get on/get off thing I think. Not as 'maintenance' as they did with me. 5 years of Sub my body is still trying to figure out how to handle its absence.
One thing I've been bad about is nutrition. I'll need to eat better, otherwise I've been doing what Prescottdave suggested, even the chamomile.
Thanks to all. I'll report back when I'm 100%, whenever the hell that is.
drGian